Vegeterian, vegan, crazy and on the way to a perfect dancing body!
First I want to say Hi to everyone out there and how happy I am that I've found this forum!
Then I come to the part I don't like that much: Presenting myself.
It is not that I don't like talking about myself or so, but everytime I have to, I don't know where to start and where to end. So I'm going to try my best not to talk to much and not to talk too little. If you have any questions after my presentation, feel free to ask :)
First, the basic data: I am female, 22 years old and from germany. I am studying German (semester 6) and Protestant theology (semester 3) and in the remaining time I am working as a cashier (2-3 days per week). I live in a house, together with my grandparents, my mother and all my pets. It is very nice most of the time, but not easy.
My grandparents have incipient Alzheimers and I have to care for them, even if they are sometimes really annoying.
My mother is living with us 3-4 days per week and over the weekend she stays at her fiancés house. So at the weekend I am mostly alone in our flat (second floor) and my grandparents are in their flat (first floor). Beside the days, when my mothers fiancé is staying at our place. I like to be alone at weekend, so I can do whatever I want. But I like it, too, when my mum and her fiancé are staying at our place, because he is for me like a father and I like him a lot!
But there are so much problems in this situation, too.
I have a little sister who is suffering from multiple sclerosis since 4 years. And two weeks ago, my mother was diagnosed with it, too.
My stepfather has a problem with his heart and my grandma has had two strokes.
So I love my studies, I love my job and I love my family, but the last month have been hard for me.
I really don't want to have a moan but I need to talk about this.
I am suffering from borderline personality disorder and self harm since nearly ten years now. I had two psychotherapies and have made great progress. But since three month I am suffering from depression and now I am in therapy again, which is really, really helpful for me!!
Together with my therapist I am working on stabilizing my life, my behaviours and my surrounding.
Therefore I first had to recognize, how many lovely and helpful people I have around me. I got to know that I have some real great friends and the best colleagues one can have. So now there are around ten people who know about my problems and who are there for me, day and night! I love them so much!
After this step, I was told to make goals in life and to get some routine.
My first goal is something I dreamed of for years: I want to become a dancer. I want to compete in ballroom dance. I have had two dancing classes (one with 15 and one with 20) and now I am starting my third one, together with my older brother. Hopefully, we will have our first competition in a few months :)
And the second goal, which will hopefully give me some routine, is why I am here: I want to do sports more often and regularly and lose a few kilograms, too. Because of my depression and the stress I had during the last months, I have disregarded my body, my weight and my fitness. I ate too much junk food and sweets and haven't done any sports.
The plan is to go back to a structured and healthy nutrition (I am a vegetarian and trying to life as much vegan as I am able to!) and to a fitness routine!
I hope that I will find much support here and maybe even new friends :)
If there are now any questions please just ask!
I am looking forward to your comments and I am just happy to be here! :)