I just worked it out.
If I've been dieting on and off since I was 12 (when I wasn't actually fat, doh!), then I've been dieting for 30 years. Eek. And if I, on average, try to get started or restarted on a diet plan every six weeks or so, that means that I've made somewhere in the region of 260 dieting attempts. FFS.
So, you know what they say. 261's a charm. So bring on the 261st attempt!
I've been looking at and playing half-heartedly with JUDDD since April. In fact, since April, I've looked at all sorts of things, particularly in the intermittent fasting arena. In that time, I have proved to myself that I can fast for a whole 24 hours, that I can actually do several days of JUDDDing in a row (though alas, I've not managed weeks just yet) and that carbs aren't the evil I'd started to believe they were (don't get me wrong, they aren't good, exactly - but it's possible to eat some and not grow a second head. Yes, I too was surprised. ).
I've also done a tiny stint of Cambridge SS-ing (ha, it's not gone especially well but I haven't continued to gain weight whilst messing up on SS, so I'll take that as a bonus). In fact, my CWPC is under the illusion that I'm SS-ing even as I write and I'm not about to shatter that illusion. I'm cautiously optimistic that I can lose a couple of pounds a week doing JUDDD and using Cambridge products on DDs. I'll probably tell her the truth eventually but for now, I'm keeping my options open. That might sound odd but anyone who's suffered the agonising crawl of shame back to Cambridge will understand why I'm not waving bye-bye to my CWPC just yet...
Today should be day 4 - in fact, let's call it Day 4, despite the fact that I blew my DDs on both Saturday and yesterday. Astonishingly, I've still managed to lose 3lbs since Saturday so, with that reprieve, I'm planning on doing a whole lot better from now on. Hence this diary - I need to start being more accountable to myself.
I need to - no - I want to do this. Parts of me have started to hurt even more than usual. My right ankle hurts pretty much all the time and my left knee doesn't like stairs. Not good. I've got to find other means of dealing with stress, with being constantly tired, find ways of making myself feel better that don't include troughing myself stupid. And so, I'm committing to giving JUDDD a proper go. It's infinitely do-able. I'm told that after the first couple of weeks, after the SIRT1 gene kicks in, that it's a very forgiving plan, that it can actually heal messed-about metabolisms (and surely mine is thoroughly messed-about). I'm looking forward to finding out whether it's true.
I'm not going to be so hard-core on my next DD (tomorrow) - I'm going to allow myself to have up to 800 calories if I need them - and carry on having slightly higher cal DDs for the first couple of weeks, then gradually lower them back down again. My JUDDD buddds tell me that that's perfectly acceptable and is actually the way many of them managed to get going on this WOE. Well, if it's good enough for them...
In the meantime, I still have 837 calories left to eat today. You've gotta love UDs!