soontobeskinny
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I am in week 4 of Managment and I'm really struggling. I keep bingeing, I mean serious bingeing and not on stuff I want to eat either.
On one side I am really enjoying eating again, but I feel I am really not getting any support from my new counsellor (I moved counsellor's due to moving house at the end of foundation) I go to the sessions where she just asks how our week has gone and weighs us, hands out the packs and then rushes off to her next meeting.
I am stressing out about putting on weight (as I have been bingeing) I've put on about 7lbs, I'm feeling fat whch makes me eat more. I know I am also bulemic, so I have found Cerulean's blog and comments very helpful and so much rings true with my own sabotaging behaviour of bingeing on crappy food. I too 'only' eat orgainc and preservative free and good quality meat etc, but the food I binge on is utter rubbish, its almost as though the 'good quality' food I would normally try and eat in moderation (such as Green and Blacks Chocolate) is too good to binge on. Instead I eat sugar filled, crappy chocolate, that I dont enjoy and wouldn't normally eat even in moderation.
I find the lack of support that I get from my counsellor is really affecting my confidence and not helping my keep on track of the foods I am allowed week to week.
I am considering leaving my management group in London and maybe trying to go it alone, following the food lists. On one hand I haven't even been eating my packs for a while now, so I have a huge amount of spares and I feel as though I'm getting no support. I don't know whether to change counsellor's and keep trying or to leave and go it alone or stick with this counsellor? But part of me thinks the fact that I have to go to my meetings week to week, is one of the only things that brings me back on the straight and narrow now and again.
Any advice guys and gals...I need some words of wisdom (
On one side I am really enjoying eating again, but I feel I am really not getting any support from my new counsellor (I moved counsellor's due to moving house at the end of foundation) I go to the sessions where she just asks how our week has gone and weighs us, hands out the packs and then rushes off to her next meeting.
I am stressing out about putting on weight (as I have been bingeing) I've put on about 7lbs, I'm feeling fat whch makes me eat more. I know I am also bulemic, so I have found Cerulean's blog and comments very helpful and so much rings true with my own sabotaging behaviour of bingeing on crappy food. I too 'only' eat orgainc and preservative free and good quality meat etc, but the food I binge on is utter rubbish, its almost as though the 'good quality' food I would normally try and eat in moderation (such as Green and Blacks Chocolate) is too good to binge on. Instead I eat sugar filled, crappy chocolate, that I dont enjoy and wouldn't normally eat even in moderation.
I find the lack of support that I get from my counsellor is really affecting my confidence and not helping my keep on track of the foods I am allowed week to week.
I am considering leaving my management group in London and maybe trying to go it alone, following the food lists. On one hand I haven't even been eating my packs for a while now, so I have a huge amount of spares and I feel as though I'm getting no support. I don't know whether to change counsellor's and keep trying or to leave and go it alone or stick with this counsellor? But part of me thinks the fact that I have to go to my meetings week to week, is one of the only things that brings me back on the straight and narrow now and again.
Any advice guys and gals...I need some words of wisdom (