.... I'm posting this as I feel I should rather than hiding it but I'm having a really crap couple of days. Finally got the go ahead yesterday that I can move to my new job when I go back to work on the 3rd June - now you'd think that this would be a good thing and really it is as I can't wait to start, really looking forward to it.
However, things have been really crap in work for all sorts of reasons that I'm actually happy to leave - and then that really hit me, it felt bad not to be bothered that I'm going .... I've worked in the same building for about 6 years and I had real horrid self thoughts last night about how I could feel like this - anyway I decided I needed to drown my sorrows and hide in food - and I did.
Then today made a conscious decision that I still feel crap and am going to eat again today - daughter is also home so will poss be going out for dinner -see all sorts of reasons/excuses. So yes have eaten today and will continue to do so BUT tomorrow I will be back on track, no doubt feeling crap but I will be back.
I know it's prob not the best thing to come on here and admit to eating - sorry about that - but didn't want it to be hidden and pretend it wasn't happening ... that would be easy to do but it wouldn't be honest to either me or to you.
Love to say that I feel better for writing this, but don't at the moment --- but hopefully I will tomorrow when the world is 'right' again