FELLING LOW & NEED TO EAT

[Mike 24]

I think the diets should all come with fridge padlocks

[skinnyminny]

Thanx guys & Pix you are sooo funny & you did make me laugh.

I am going to go to bed early tonight so hope tomorrow I will be better. (fingers crossed) I did have an extra bar tonight as I cannot face the packs, but means I will be one short tomorrow or wed (LL meeting on wed) so will try & make the choc muffin.

I really do appreciate your kind words everyone, I am determined that I am going to do this and need to keep going.

[In search of me]

phew - just back from work & noticed the crisis. Hope you are in the land of nod and not thinking abut it! Seeems a good way to get over the dire days! Just look at your graph when you feel really bad - you've done incredibly well!! Hope you wake up and feel a huge sence of achievement - you can do it, just take it a day at a time and shout when you're feeling desperate

[Pixie]

How are you feeling today Minny?
x

[skinnyminny]

Hi Pix, thanks for your support.

Feeling a bit better, but still cannot face the packs, it is weird I did not mind them at first & then I have gone off them slowly and now them make me physically sick to smell them

I think the main problem was that I was off for as few days also at the end of last week and that seems to be when I get particularly depressed when I have got time on my hands to think - thinking is not a good idea. Also when I am busy I do not think about eating and do not feel particularly hungry.

I am back at work now, but I do still feel terribly down and low and hungry - what's that all about, I have not felt hungry at all on this diet. I just crave food all the time at the moment.

I know the last 7 weeks have whizzed by and the next 7 will too, and just hope I can keep fighting my demons and get through this "blip".

I do appreciate everyones support though, thank heavens for this site.

xx

(I keep adding graphs trackers & avatars to try & motivate myself, they are taking up the whole page now lol)

[skinnyminny]

I am going home early - I can't sit here any longer - all I can think about is food. I am literally sitting on my hands, I want to run out and buys some food and eat it.

I have not done any work today at all. All I have done is sit on here & try and motivate myself to carry on.

What is wrong with me? This time last week I was a different person, maybe I will never rid myself of this problem with food, why do I need it so much. Why am I intent on destroying all the good I have done in the last 7 weeks.

I feel like I am a failure. I am scared that if I do give in to food I just won't stop, I feel totally out of control.

[tootsie]

Hey babe, please please please just take a few deep breaths, find somewhere quite and talk yourself (outloud) out of it. The reason you have had an issue with weight before is because of exactly what is happening to you now. There are some demons in your head (chatterbox) telling you that "you can't do this" "your a faliure" etc, well THEY ARE WRONG. You know you can do this, you have proved it to yourself every day for the last 7 weeks. shout and scream if that helps, have a row with yourself if needs be, beat that chatterbox into a pulp!!!!!! You are so strong Skinny, readback all those wonderful posts you have made about your losses....

I am hear for you hun, every step of they way, PM me if you want.

YOU CAN DO THIS< YOU CAN DO THIS< YOU CAN DO THIS

[Pixie]

Minny!
Have you got MSN messenger?

[skinnyminny]

Hi pix

I am on MSN - sm_curtis@btinternet.com
x

[Pixie]

Aw Minny it says you donot have a net passport

[skinnyminny]

Hi Pix

Not sure why that is - I am connected to something as get messages from my mum.

[tootsie]

How you doin today Skinny? Worried about you (((hugs))))

[skinnyminny]

Hi toots/Pix

First of all thank you both sooooo much for every kind & supportive word I really really appreciate it.

Toots you are going to make a fantastic LLC - I wish you were mine & Pix you are going to be a great dr.

Well today seems a bit brighter, after leaving work early, yesturday I cried all the way home but managed to resist urges to call at mcdonalds/burgerking/KFC/ChipShop on the way.

I phoned hubby and asked if would pick up my little boy and sort out dinner for both of them as I was not feeling up to cooking anything.

Once home I cried some more and went to bed where I fell asleep. I awoke, still very agitated and hungry and generally feeling sorry for myself. I spent some time with my little boy before bathing him and putting him to bed. I then decided to have a long relaxing soak in the bath, I exfoliated, moisturised and got into my nice PJ's had a pint of water, soup and watched some TV.

Today, I feel better, been keeping busy at work. Am still very depressed and wonder whether my issues lay deeper than a bit of comfort eating. I felt so totally out of control yesturday and it really scared me. I did not just want to eat, I wanted to binge.

I feel much more able to cope today and am not feeling the same intense cravings as I have done over the last few days......so yet another day done, not without it's hitches, but at least I stayed abstinent.

One day at a time is my new motto & I am not going to be too complacent about this whole thing as I was really coping quite well and look at me now. I will just focus on getting through the weeks until I have reached my goal and hope that along the way I can learn more about my issues, which I fear may run a bit deeper than food.

x

[tootsie]

hey Skinny... How has you day been?

Good luck for tonight sugar, and if you can, try and get your worries out in the group and use the support you should be getting. After all, this is why we chose LL over anything else.

If you need me you know where I am.

Much love xxx

[Gemski]

Hey skinnymini im now on my second week i know exactly how your feeling but trust me you will be ok, just keep your self busy, drink your water and you'll be fine.