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Greenockgal · 31st January, 2008

Hi Julie,

Thanks for your note. The undertaker just rang, he said that mum WAS wearing her clothes, he said he came in the Saturday before the funeral to do it himself, and without me asking, he also said that he had put the colour on her hair for her. He said it was a standard bill, and he apologised that it hadn't been taken off. He also said that not many people actually ask for their loved ones to wear their own clothes, I'm surprised at that though, maybe oit's just a thing we do in my family??

So, I feel a bit better, just having a strawberry shake with hot water, and I'm putting a load of my summer clothes that are too big for me on Ebay, it's making me think of the nice holiday we had, even though I felt like a beached whale! And making me think of the holiday coming up - there's 8 of us off to Egypt for my 40th birthday in May - when i WILL be 11 stone!!!

SafcGirl31 · 31st January, 2008

Good news, glad you got a prompt reply. Those little things do mean a lot don't they?
Strawberry with hot water!! Haven't tried that before, might do tonight because its flipping freezing here and drinking loads of water is making me feel cold!
Looking forward to the summer hols is definitely the way to go, so here goes, I'm going to Las Vegas for 2 weeks in August and I will be maintaining 10st when I go!!! I will, I will, I will!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Back to work I go

ladylite · 31st January, 2008

Hi Greenoch girl, I went Egypt in November, just B4 starting LL.

Hurgarda on the Red Sea, absolutely loved it where are you going?

Greenockgal · 31st January, 2008

Hiya, we're going on a Nile cruise for my 40th birthday, hubby and me and 6 other friends. It'll be my 5th time to Egypt, I just love it! We;ve done Luxor, Taba (that was an experience, we had an armed guard escort us dwn the mountains in our bus with no lights on to avoid snipers - but they told us they put the lights off so we could enjoy the moonlight!!), Hurghada and Red Sea and cairo, so we've done the tombs, the red sea and the pyramids, so next thing is the Nile Cruise, just like Agatha Christie!

I remember my old boss saying to me that once you've been to Egypt once you'll be hooked, well she certainly got that right!

Blonde Logic · 31st January, 2008

Hi Les....sorry you are having to deal with the UT's over you mums invoice....I can just imagine how upsetting that is.

I agree with SafCgirl...it is probably just a clerical error. I believe they do do their utmost to comfort family and carry out wishes. Try not to dwell - that will just upset you. Unless you hear otherwise from the UT, believe she went as you so lovingly planned for her. And even if they did make that horrible error - it's heaven - she will arrive beautiful.

I hope you are doing OK, and unload anything you need to do hear - it will help clear your head and its helpful to share trouboing things....lessens the load a wee bit.

Thinking about you lots.

XX

Greenockgal · 31st January, 2008

Thanks hun, I feel a bit better now, although I lapsed at lunchtime - grrr! I'm soooo mad at myself now! But, even though the weather is horrid, i dragged myself to the baths and did 20 lengths, fist time I've swum properly in years, normally it's a flop about in the pool on holiday, thena bit of a doggie paddle up to the pool bar! Then I rewarded myself with 2 goes on the water slide, I must have looked a right sight, there was me with about 20 kids!!!

But, hubby is out tonight, and all that is going to pass my lips is green tea and water - I WILL NOT GO TO THE CHINESE!!!!

Blonde Logic · 31st January, 2008

Hi

Oooh, those narsty lapses!!!

You were such a 'visual inspiration' to me Les, so I am going to try and be a 'verbal inspiration' to you.

You know how we talked about having to have our heads in the right place, how that makes all the difference. It must be very hard for you, because I know where a lot of your head is at the moment. So you have a tough thing going on.

But - you are Scottish - and I know Scotts can be mighty willful and mighty strong. Married to half of one afterall.

Tomorrow, when you wake up, commit to yourself that you are going to do it, just for one day, to prove that you can. Again - you know you can becuase of the amazing loss you had before.

Think of allll the reasons you want to do this. And remind yourself each hour. When you are feeling low, treat yourself to a nice hot bath, or a good movie. Maybe when you feel the voices calling you, grab a pen and paper, and write down what they are telling you - and then say 'no you narsty *******!! Or write it down, and then burn or throw the paper away. It sounds silly - but sometimes just having a silly little conversation, with you being the loudest voice can be helpful. And writing it down is taking it from your head on to something you can throw away....then its gone.

Just remember all the reasons to get through the day successfully, and all the reasons not to. A pro and con list. And then choose which one you want. Sometimes seeing it in black and white really can have an impact. And rememebr you are doing this to make you happy - and lady, after what you have just been through and are going through - you deserve a little happiness.

It's just one day. And if you get through the day, then the next day, you can draw on that empowerment you have given yourself. And each day will get easier and easier, as your head gets in the right place.

Just a couple ideas that might help. I hope they do. I know you can do this.

One day at a time, will soon turn in to a week at a time, and then a month....and then you are on your way and already almost done.

Sending you lots of vibes, hoping that in some small way I can help you, the way you helped me.

XXX

Greenockgal · 31st January, 2008

Thanks, that really did help, tomorrow I'm going to be very organised (acknowledgement for the paper, flowers etc), and then I'm going to the gym, will keep myself busy and occupied. I know I can do it, that's the annoying thing!!!

Reflecting back one thing I know I'm rubbish at!), I can see it was the whole Undertakers thing that set me off - but at least I'm acknowledging that fact and can aim to change it.

On completely different note, you going to watch the prog on CH 4 at 9.00? Might be intersting!! A year in the life of the fraud investigators at a certain big insurance company!!

Blonde Logic · 1st February, 2008

Good luck today Lesley!!! Wishing you lots of luck, and sending you good vibes!!! Let us know how you get on.

Greenockgal · 1st February, 2008

Yep, feeling positive at the moment, one big glass of water dow, here's to a bucketful more!!

Blonde Logic · 1st February, 2008

Cool! Hoping you are still going strong!!

Was really busy at work today - no time at my desk really so could'nt log on!!

Hope you are doing well today!!

X

Greenockgal · 1st February, 2008

Well, so far so good! Have had 2 packs, a load of green tea, and enought water to sink a ship. I walked to the Aquarena, did 8 lengths then did an aqua aerobics class, thats was a bit embarrassing, my boobs kept nearly falling out my cossie!

I had a bit of a sit down on the seafront and a bit of a cry, but not a good idea when the sun is blinding you and you have no sunglasses! I saw Clive from reception too, so had a long old chat with him. Just got home and rescued my neighbours kids who were home alone and couldn't turn their tap off, then let them come in cos they'd locked themselves out, so they came in and used the phone, then went and checked on my other neighbour, she's an old dearie who's losing it a bit, she's had a final "pay us now or we'll cut you off" electricity bill, so sorted that out as well - seems I've turned into a rescuer today!

Plus, sorted out the flowers to send to a friend (the lady who opened up her hotel so we could have my mum's wake there, she did scotch broth and a steak pie dinner - so Scottish!) and did the acknowledgemnent for the Blackpool paper, so that's going in on Monday.

Just got home and a load of my Ebay stuff has sold, so am going to parcel all that up. Oh, and stopped by the charity shop and got a load of jeans and jumpers and tops for £3 the lot!!!! 9 items! Some are Per Una as well, I couldn't have got into any of them a few months ago, so that's cheered me up!

Hope you've had a good day, the demons have been in there trying to direct me to the fridge, but I've been fighting them all the way!!

Blonde Logic · 1st February, 2008

THats great news Lesly!!! I am really pleased you are managing today!! Not long now, and that's once successful day und your belt - will just get easier from there!

CLive is nice. I like talking to him. It was hectic today - incentives and boards, and what not kept me busy and on my feet most of the day! I got a horrible cramp in my foot!!! errrrrr.

Just got in, hubby working nights tonight so a nice chilled evening = just me and that cats.

Keep it up girl!!

XXX

Greenockgal · 1st February, 2008

Hiya, me and my cats as well at the moment, how many have you got? I've got 3, I've even set them up on their own page on Facebook, under me, they're on Catbook! Bit sad really!

Now here's a demon for you, my friend just rang, having a chat with her, her and her pal are off to Brighton tonight, she was going to ring her dad and ask him to drop them off about 10pm, but I've offered to do it. Don't mind in the least dropping them off, but then the voices started, "stop at the chines on the waaay baaaaaack" - nooooo!

I suppose I'll have to go out with no purse, but I've got a bit of a phobia about doing that incase I break down or something daft!!! Sounds ridiculous now I've just typed that!

Right, off for another wee and another cup of tea and another water!! God, I feel quite virtuous at the moment, hope it lasts!!!

Greenockgal · 1st February, 2008

Aw bless, the lady next door and her daughter just came round with a bottle of wine to say thank you for helping them out earlier! Don't really know them, they've only been there since October, so don't know their names or anything!

Wasn't expecting that at all!

Ah well, in the cupboard it goes until the alkyhol is allowed again!!!

31st January, 2008	#32 (permalink)
SafcGirl31 Likes to post SafcGirl31's Profile Albums SafcGirl31's Photo Gallery Join Date: 11th February, 2007 Posts: 181 My Mood: Rep Power: 6	Good news, glad you got a prompt reply. Those little things do mean a lot don't they? Strawberry with hot water!! Haven't tried that before, might do tonight because its flipping freezing here and drinking loads of water is making me feel cold! Looking forward to the summer hols is definitely the way to go, so here goes, I'm going to Las Vegas for 2 weeks in August and I will be maintaining 10st when I go!!! I will, I will, I will!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Back to work I go __________________ Julie xx Goal - To be a fit, healthy and happy person

31st January, 2008	#33 (permalink)
ladylite Needs a life ladylite's Profile Albums ladylite's Photo Gallery Join Date: 23rd November, 2007 Location: Newbury, Berkshire Posts: 1,707 My Mood: Blog Entries: 9 Rep Power: 31 Diet: Lighter Life	Hi Greenoch girl, I went Egypt in November, just B4 starting LL. Hurgarda on the Red Sea, absolutely loved it where are you going? __________________ Started LL FOUNDATION 21.11.07 size 22 ended up 16 but lost the plot. Now size 18 and determined to get to a healthy size 14 Start WW 26.8.08 - Here we go. 2.9.09 - 6.5lbs way to go GOALS Lose excess weight gained in 2 months. Try and control my eataholic and sabotaging tendancies. REWARDS BUY MYSELF A PAIR OF DUBARRY BOOTS AS SOON AS THEY WILL FIT. AT GOAL I AM GOING TO BUY MYSELF THAT BROWN SUEDE JACKET WITH LOVELY LONG TASSLES THAT I HAVE ALWAYS WANTED.

31st January, 2008	#35 (permalink)
Blonde Logic Best Friends :) Blonde Logic's Profile Albums Blonde Logic's Photo Gallery Looney Tunes Mahjong Champion! Join Date: 28th November, 2007 Posts: 4,680 My Mood: Rep Power: 103 Diet: Lighter Life	Hi Les....sorry you are having to deal with the UT's over you mums invoice....I can just imagine how upsetting that is. I agree with SafCgirl...it is probably just a clerical error. I believe they do do their utmost to comfort family and carry out wishes. Try not to dwell - that will just upset you. Unless you hear otherwise from the UT, believe she went as you so lovingly planned for her. And even if they did make that horrible error - it's heaven - she will arrive beautiful. I hope you are doing OK, and unload anything you need to do hear - it will help clear your head and its helpful to share trouboing things....lessens the load a wee bit. Thinking about you lots. XX __________________ Began LL on 8-1-08: 281 pounds (20 stone) Size 26/28 BMI: 44.7 Class: Morbidly Obese Completed Foundation on 29-09-08 154 pounds (11 stone) Size 10/12/14 BMI: 24.5 Class: NORMAL My Weight Chart: BL's Diary: http://www.minimins.com/lighter-life-forum/27465-blonde-logics-stream-consciousness-diary.html >

31st January, 2008	#37 (permalink)
Blonde Logic Best Friends :) Blonde Logic's Profile Albums Blonde Logic's Photo Gallery Looney Tunes Mahjong Champion! Join Date: 28th November, 2007 Posts: 4,680 My Mood: Rep Power: 103 Diet: Lighter Life	Hi Oooh, those narsty lapses!!! You were such a 'visual inspiration' to me Les, so I am going to try and be a 'verbal inspiration' to you. You know how we talked about having to have our heads in the right place, how that makes all the difference. It must be very hard for you, because I know where a lot of your head is at the moment. So you have a tough thing going on. But - you are Scottish - and I know Scotts can be mighty willful and mighty strong. Married to half of one afterall. Tomorrow, when you wake up, commit to yourself that you are going to do it, just for one day, to prove that you can. Again - you know you can becuase of the amazing loss you had before. Think of allll the reasons you want to do this. And remind yourself each hour. When you are feeling low, treat yourself to a nice hot bath, or a good movie. Maybe when you feel the voices calling you, grab a pen and paper, and write down what they are telling you - and then say 'no you narsty *****!! Or write it down, and then burn or throw the paper away. It sounds silly - but sometimes just having a silly little conversation, with you being the loudest voice can be helpful. And writing it down is taking it from your head on to something you can throw away....then its gone. Just remember all the reasons to get through the day successfully, and all the reasons not to. A pro and con list. And then choose which one you want. Sometimes seeing it in black and white really can have an impact. And rememebr you are doing this to make you happy - and lady, after what you have just been through and are going through - you deserve a little happiness. It's just one day. And if you get through the day, then the next day, you can draw on that empowerment you have given yourself. And each day will get easier and easier, as your head gets in the right place. Just a couple ideas that might help. I hope they do. I know you can do this. One day at a time, will soon turn in to a week at a time, and then a month....and then you are on your way and already almost done. Sending you lots of vibes, hoping that in some small way I can help you, the way you helped me. XXX __________________ Began LL on 8-1-08: 281 pounds (20 stone) Size 26/28 BMI: 44.7 Class: Morbidly Obese Completed Foundation on 29-09-08 154 pounds (11 stone) Size 10/12/14 BMI: 24.5 Class: NORMAL My Weight Chart: BL's Diary:** http://www.minimins.com/lighter-life-forum/27465-blonde-logics-stream-consciousness-diary.html >

1st February, 2008	#39 (permalink)
Blonde Logic Best Friends :) Blonde Logic's Profile Albums Blonde Logic's Photo Gallery Looney Tunes Mahjong Champion! Join Date: 28th November, 2007 Posts: 4,680 My Mood: Rep Power: 103 Diet: Lighter Life	Good luck today Lesley!!! Wishing you lots of luck, and sending you good vibes!!! Let us know how you get on. __________________ Began LL on 8-1-08: 281 pounds (20 stone) Size 26/28 BMI: 44.7 Class: Morbidly Obese Completed Foundation on 29-09-08 154 pounds (11 stone) Size 10/12/14 BMI: 24.5 Class: NORMAL My Weight Chart: BL's Diary: http://www.minimins.com/lighter-life-forum/27465-blonde-logics-stream-consciousness-diary.html >

31st January, 2008	#31 (permalink)
Greenockgal Likes to post Greenockgal's Profile Albums Greenockgal's Photo Gallery Join Date: 5th July, 2007 Location: West Sussex Posts: 354 My Mood: Rep Power: 9 Diet: Lighter Life	Hi Julie, Thanks for your note. The undertaker just rang, he said that mum WAS wearing her clothes, he said he came in the Saturday before the funeral to do it himself, and without me asking, he also said that he had put the colour on her hair for her. He said it was a standard bill, and he apologised that it hadn't been taken off. He also said that not many people actually ask for their loved ones to wear their own clothes, I'm surprised at that though, maybe oit's just a thing we do in my family?? So, I feel a bit better, just having a strawberry shake with hot water, and I'm putting a load of my summer clothes that are too big for me on Ebay, it's making me think of the nice holiday we had, even though I felt like a beached whale! And making me think of the holiday coming up - there's 8 of us off to Egypt for my 40th birthday in May - when i WILL be 11 stone!!!

31st January, 2008	#34 (permalink)
Greenockgal Likes to post Greenockgal's Profile Albums Greenockgal's Photo Gallery Join Date: 5th July, 2007 Location: West Sussex Posts: 354 My Mood: Rep Power: 9 Diet: Lighter Life	Hiya, we're going on a Nile cruise for my 40th birthday, hubby and me and 6 other friends. It'll be my 5th time to Egypt, I just love it! We;ve done Luxor, Taba (that was an experience, we had an armed guard escort us dwn the mountains in our bus with no lights on to avoid snipers - but they told us they put the lights off so we could enjoy the moonlight!!), Hurghada and Red Sea and cairo, so we've done the tombs, the red sea and the pyramids, so next thing is the Nile Cruise, just like Agatha Christie! I remember my old boss saying to me that once you've been to Egypt once you'll be hooked, well she certainly got that right!

31st January, 2008	#36 (permalink)
Greenockgal Likes to post Greenockgal's Profile Albums Greenockgal's Photo Gallery Join Date: 5th July, 2007 Location: West Sussex Posts: 354 My Mood: Rep Power: 9 Diet: Lighter Life	Thanks hun, I feel a bit better now, although I lapsed at lunchtime - grrr! I'm soooo mad at myself now! But, even though the weather is horrid, i dragged myself to the baths and did 20 lengths, fist time I've swum properly in years, normally it's a flop about in the pool on holiday, thena bit of a doggie paddle up to the pool bar! Then I rewarded myself with 2 goes on the water slide, I must have looked a right sight, there was me with about 20 kids!!! But, hubby is out tonight, and all that is going to pass my lips is green tea and water - I WILL NOT GO TO THE CHINESE!!!!

31st January, 2008	#38 (permalink)
Greenockgal Likes to post Greenockgal's Profile Albums Greenockgal's Photo Gallery Join Date: 5th July, 2007 Location: West Sussex Posts: 354 My Mood: Rep Power: 9 Diet: Lighter Life	Thanks, that really did help, tomorrow I'm going to be very organised (acknowledgement for the paper, flowers etc), and then I'm going to the gym, will keep myself busy and occupied. I know I can do it, that's the annoying thing!!! Reflecting back one thing I know I'm rubbish at!), I can see it was the whole Undertakers thing that set me off - but at least I'm acknowledging that fact and can aim to change it. On completely different note, you going to watch the prog on CH 4 at 9.00? Might be intersting!! A year in the life of the fraud investigators at a certain big insurance company!!

1st February, 2008	#40 (permalink)
Greenockgal Likes to post Greenockgal's Profile Albums Greenockgal's Photo Gallery Join Date: 5th July, 2007 Location: West Sussex Posts: 354 My Mood: Rep Power: 9 Diet: Lighter Life	Yep, feeling positive at the moment, one big glass of water dow, here's to a bucketful more!!

1st February, 2008	#41 (permalink)
Blonde Logic Best Friends :) Blonde Logic's Profile Albums Blonde Logic's Photo Gallery Looney Tunes Mahjong Champion! Join Date: 28th November, 2007 Posts: 4,680 My Mood: Rep Power: 103 Diet: Lighter Life	Cool! Hoping you are still going strong!! Was really busy at work today - no time at my desk really so could'nt log on!! Hope you are doing well today!! X __________________ Began LL on 8-1-08: 281 pounds (20 stone) Size 26/28 BMI: 44.7 Class: Morbidly Obese Completed Foundation on 29-09-08 154 pounds (11 stone) Size 10/12/14 BMI: 24.5 Class: NORMAL My Weight Chart: BL's Diary: http://www.minimins.com/lighter-life-forum/27465-blonde-logics-stream-consciousness-diary.html >

1st February, 2008	#42 (permalink)
Greenockgal Likes to post Greenockgal's Profile Albums Greenockgal's Photo Gallery Join Date: 5th July, 2007 Location: West Sussex Posts: 354 My Mood: Rep Power: 9 Diet: Lighter Life	Well, so far so good! Have had 2 packs, a load of green tea, and enought water to sink a ship. I walked to the Aquarena, did 8 lengths then did an aqua aerobics class, thats was a bit embarrassing, my boobs kept nearly falling out my cossie! I had a bit of a sit down on the seafront and a bit of a cry, but not a good idea when the sun is blinding you and you have no sunglasses! I saw Clive from reception too, so had a long old chat with him. Just got home and rescued my neighbours kids who were home alone and couldn't turn their tap off, then let them come in cos they'd locked themselves out, so they came in and used the phone, then went and checked on my other neighbour, she's an old dearie who's losing it a bit, she's had a final "pay us now or we'll cut you off" electricity bill, so sorted that out as well - seems I've turned into a rescuer today! Plus, sorted out the flowers to send to a friend (the lady who opened up her hotel so we could have my mum's wake there, she did scotch broth and a steak pie dinner - so Scottish!) and did the acknowledgemnent for the Blackpool paper, so that's going in on Monday. Just got home and a load of my Ebay stuff has sold, so am going to parcel all that up. Oh, and stopped by the charity shop and got a load of jeans and jumpers and tops for £3 the lot!!!! 9 items! Some are Per Una as well, I couldn't have got into any of them a few months ago, so that's cheered me up! Hope you've had a good day, the demons have been in there trying to direct me to the fridge, but I've been fighting them all the way!!

1st February, 2008	#43 (permalink)
Blonde Logic Best Friends :) Blonde Logic's Profile Albums Blonde Logic's Photo Gallery Looney Tunes Mahjong Champion! Join Date: 28th November, 2007 Posts: 4,680 My Mood: Rep Power: 103 Diet: Lighter Life	THats great news Lesly!!! I am really pleased you are managing today!! Not long now, and that's once successful day und your belt - will just get easier from there! CLive is nice. I like talking to him. It was hectic today - incentives and boards, and what not kept me busy and on my feet most of the day! I got a horrible cramp in my foot!!! errrrrr. Just got in, hubby working nights tonight so a nice chilled evening = just me and that cats. Keep it up girl!! XXX __________________ Began LL on 8-1-08: 281 pounds (20 stone) Size 26/28 BMI: 44.7 Class: Morbidly Obese Completed Foundation on 29-09-08 154 pounds (11 stone) Size 10/12/14 BMI: 24.5 Class: NORMAL My Weight Chart: BL's Diary: http://www.minimins.com/lighter-life-forum/27465-blonde-logics-stream-consciousness-diary.html >

1st February, 2008	#44 (permalink)
Greenockgal Likes to post Greenockgal's Profile Albums Greenockgal's Photo Gallery Join Date: 5th July, 2007 Location: West Sussex Posts: 354 My Mood: Rep Power: 9 Diet: Lighter Life	Hiya, me and my cats as well at the moment, how many have you got? I've got 3, I've even set them up on their own page on Facebook, under me, they're on Catbook! Bit sad really! Now here's a demon for you, my friend just rang, having a chat with her, her and her pal are off to Brighton tonight, she was going to ring her dad and ask him to drop them off about 10pm, but I've offered to do it. Don't mind in the least dropping them off, but then the voices started, "stop at the chines on the waaay baaaaaack" - nooooo! I suppose I'll have to go out with no purse, but I've got a bit of a phobia about doing that incase I break down or something daft!!! Sounds ridiculous now I've just typed that! Right, off for another wee and another cup of tea and another water!! God, I feel quite virtuous at the moment, hope it lasts!!!

1st February, 2008	#45 (permalink)
Greenockgal Likes to post Greenockgal's Profile Albums Greenockgal's Photo Gallery Join Date: 5th July, 2007 Location: West Sussex Posts: 354 My Mood: Rep Power: 9 Diet: Lighter Life	Aw bless, the lady next door and her daughter just came round with a bottle of wine to say thank you for helping them out earlier! Don't really know them, they've only been there since October, so don't know their names or anything! Wasn't expecting that at all! Ah well, in the cupboard it goes until the alkyhol is allowed again!!!