Fed up, demotivated and wish I could give up
So after a 100% week of staying on track I lost the grand total of half a pound.
I have found these last two weeks really hard, all I have done is dreamt of food, not been hungry but serious cravings. I thought in a few days the cravings will pass but all I think of is wanting to eat. Just came back from a school visit and been smelling the yummy school puddings, was awful having to smell it. If I had a ok loss this week I would have been at least motivated to continue. In a nutshell I just want to eat again.
I donít understand as Sunday night I weighed 9st 1, yesterday 9st 2 and today 9st 2.5. How?! I have not changed anything, not exercised at all, and stuck to the plan 100%
Why am I putting weight on??
I feel so teary and emotional and cried a fair bit last night and this morning. I would love to Ďgive upí but I have a special occasion near Christmas with all the inlaws and more at a huge party/even and I really want to show then how fab I look! So canít risk going of track as just want them to all think wow she looks great even though they will never say it to me. The thought of another 2 weeks and 1 week reefed so 3 weeks in total feels like torture. And even than I know I will not get to goal. Iíve always wanted to be a 8 Ė 10 size but doesnít look like that will ever happen. Id say im a tight 10, very comfy 12 now. I have thought about the break over Xmas will shake my metabolism up as mentioned here before and a few more weeks in January might blast that last bit of but honest today has been my absolute lowest point on this diet. Hubby been snapping at me this morning so made me feel even worse and just feel horrendous beyond belief. I canít seem to make sense of it. Donít really know what to do or feel.