Having a bit of a down day today. On day 6 and it's going well, I'm not going to cave or anything as my mind is set now but it just seems so frustrating and never ending!! I've put myself in this position, only I can get myself out of it but it just feels like my life is on hold. I know I sound dramatic, I'm only planning to do 7 weeks so it isn't half the battle some have to deal with, I just wish someone would put me to sleep and wake me up when it's all over!!!
I met an amazing guy who genuinely seems interested in me and we've connected massively but I can't go out with him while I look and feel like this. We met online so he's seen pictures of me a couple of stone lighter than I am now, I have to see this through before I meet him, I can't deal with the possible rejection, he thinks I look completely different so I need to look like that!!
I've told him I've got a few things going on which I need to sort out and he's being pretty patient up until now but I won't deny that if he meets someone in the next 5 weeks I won't be disappointed at what could've been. I'm hoping he doesn't, what's 5 weeks eh and he is ten years older so I have the younger woman card on my side!
Sorry, just needed a rant. I won't go off it, I won't lose weight quicker any other way, it just all gets a bit frustrating!