Scared to eat again?

Is anyone else genuinely frightened of eating again?

I have nightmares about it and I'm sooo so nervous to go on holiday and drink alcohol :/ I feel so so so far away from where I want to be and I know it's stupid and I shouldn't and ill take things slowly etc but I genuinely don't ever want to eat food again :|

I'm scared too to fully eat again i'm scared it will make me ill since my detox from this diet was major. Even just having a tin of tuna to keep me from feeling weak makes my stomach a bit dodgy. I think it will have to be a very gradual thing like 2 shakes a day with a small healthy meal or something like that xx