im surprised this thread got so few replies but I suppose its because many of us wouldn't know where to begin, we have had those realisations repeatedly over the years! in my case I chose to ignore those massive realisations all along as best I could. ive had 1000s!!! dont get me wrong, ive tried diets more often that I can count but had little or short lived success. my first most memorable was a class swimming lesson at school when I was about 8. I was in adults swimming suit size 12-14. I was , even at that age, very aware that I was so much bigger than the other girls and I remember dreading getting out of the pool and having to change clothes in the communal room.
over the years theres been so many, not going to my debs/prom because at size 22 I was too embarrassed, needing the extension belt on the plane to a beach holiday with my 2 size 8-10 friends (horrible feeling), currently not being able to be weighed at the pharmacy as im over 23.7st limit.
but the thing that finally did it for me this time, after all this time, it was this summer when we had unusually amazing weather and at 26+ stone I was far too ashamed to take my child to the beach. that actually broke my heart. I knew I would hardly be able to plod thru that sand and I knew id never keep up either so it wasn't an option. a whole summer went by and I felt so guilty I cried many nights and just wished for rain so I could feel better . Im a single mom but luckily family and friends did take the kids out a lot.
but I said to myself never again will I let somebody else suffer because of me. never again. something so simple like that and I couldn't bring myself to do it. that's not the mother I aspire to be. I want to be the best I can be because im all they have.
so here I am. and next summer, they will enjoy every damn day!!! hail rain or shine!!!!
best of luck to all on their journeys. sorry about the big essay there!
