My diary. My mission to not struggle.
A little bit about me. I have been here before. Back in 2008. In that time i have been pregnant 7 times and have two children. They are 14 months and 2. I piled on the weight during pregnancy. Both pregnancies were difficult and i ended up in a wheelchair with my pelvis on my second. I also have arthritis in my back.
Being this weight now is a struggle. It is not fair on my children. I will not go into photos with them. I cannot play with them like i would like. I love my children to pieces, they are little miracles after 6 years trying to have them. My life should be starting, not feeling like its ending because i am fat. They deserve to go swimming and here and there, and not a mother who is terrified and ashamed to get into a swim suit.
So like i said i did this before. I lost over 9 stone. 6 by healthy eating and gym, 3.5 with lipotrim. Here are the pictures from that time. I lost another stone after that 'after' picture. I want to enjoy life again. I have 8 stone to go again.
I am struggling to get through day 1. I am on day 1 for the third time. I am not going to give up. I do not know why i keep caving. I am not hungry on Day 1.
