Serial newbie here. I've been on these boards many times before. Stayed and lost weight through various diets, strayed, fallen off the wagon and skulked around under the radar for a while. I've also been offered and have refused weight loss surgery (I decided that it will only rearrange my organs but won't fix my head but no disrespect to anyone else that has chosen this method).
Anyway, I have decided to come back and give it my all. I've decided it's going to be different this time (I know you've all heard it before) but this time I am going to be accountable and honest. I've also decided to set myself concrete goals, rather than wishy-washy ones that allow me to stray. I'm not getting any younger and my gall bladder is already giving me jip. I'm fed up of aching joints, sleep apnoea and everything being such an effort. I'm fed up of being the fattest person in the room and of feeling rubbish about my weight. I want to live long and happy life, to get married and settle down and it does not seem like a possibility at the moment. I know that I could meet someone online if I wanted to on some BBW website but they say 'you can't love anyone until you love yourself' and I'm not feeling it at this weight.
I started Cambrdge initially at 29 stone 10 lbs, lost weight, dabbled over Christmas, regained some, started the diet again and at the moment i'm 27 stone 5 lbs. I'm doing the Cambridge diet/with some slim and save evening meal packs with fresh veg also into the mix. Having around 800 calories a day so it's still a very low calorie diet. It helps me to know I have a meal in the evening that I can chew, rather than another shake. I should lose around 1 stone a month or more if I stick to it. So am aiming to be 18 stone 5 by the end of the year. I will have gone from a size 32 to around a size 22. I should also have knocked off at east 10 points off my BMI. My sleep apnoea should be gone, my joints will thank me, as will my wardrobe which has seen far too much black over the years. I plan on reviewing my dieting options again when i've reached this goal and either sticking with what will have hopefully worked or by doing a different Cambridge step.
I'm not loking for a pity-party but I don't seem to have a great deal of support in this diet My family have seen me doing food replacement diets and fail before so don't hold out mch hope. Friends don't seem to get it and don't really need to lose weight. I am the fattest person on my weight consultant's books. So, although I am motivated, I am looking for some positivity and hope. I am hoping to find and also give back support to anyone facing the daunting prospect of having to lose a ****-load of weight.
So, it's nice to meet you all and here goes nothing/everything (again).