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minilady · 2nd March, 2008

Have been too ashamed to write in diary

I am still smoking and don't know how to change the blooming title of my diary! So it's there taunting me as I haven't had the will power to succeed

As for maintenance, well where do I begin. Still at goal so that's a good start I guess. But the binges have started to come thicker and faster again

I have been judding and although I appreciate this works for many, I don't know if it's for me or not. I feel it's sort of giving me license to binge and then diet the next day to compensate.

When will I ever feel bloody normal

I bought a health magazine the other day and there was a big article on Binge Eating Disorder. There was a checklist to see if you could have this disorder and I checked every box

Since I've checked loads of websites about binge eating disorder and I think the way forward for me is to contact my GP and discuss this and find out if she can reccommend a good therapist that perhaps could help me, cognitive therapy seems like the way to go, but to be honest I'm scared

Tracey
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KD · 2nd March, 2008

Awww tracey. It's far from easy isn't it. Bloomin' binge monster

Would be good if your doctor could recommend someone, but while you wait, you know you can do this. It's in you. Have faith in your ability to fight this. Look what you've done so far

Lost this wait. Maintained for ages. Perhaps you need to give yourself another challenge. Would that help?

Shame about the ciggies, but one problem at a time eh.

Oh. to change the title, you need to go back to the maintaince forum page and double click just near it. I found it took a bit of practice. If you let me know what you want it to say, I'll do it for you if you can't get it to work.

x-Katie-x · 3rd March, 2008

Tracey get yourself to the doctors, you've got yourself to a healthy weight on your own and should definitely be entitled to some kind of help to try and ensure that you stay there. I'm sure your doctor would do the best he/she can to give you the support that you need.

minilady · 3rd March, 2008

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Originally Posted by KD

Awww tracey. It's far from easy isn't it. Bloomin' binge monster

He's just as stubborn as me, but I'll beat him in the end!

Would be good if your doctor could recommend someone, but while you wait, you know you can do this. It's in you. Have faith in your ability to fight this. Look what you've done so far

Thanks for your faith. I sort of know inside that I'll stay at goal, I just don't like the way I've been going about it

I have had 2 terrible binges in the past week and have to say that thinking about them is making me blush. To compensate I've near on starved myself

Lost this wait. Maintained for ages. Perhaps you need to give yourself another challenge. Would that help?

Eeeek not sure about this one. I did give myself the challenge of giving up smoking, that didn't go so well. I have just joined the gym though! So I guess the challenge is to go 3 times a week as I've promised myself.

Shame about the ciggies, but one problem at a time eh.

I think you're right

Oh. to change the title, you need to go back to the maintaince forum page and double click just near it. I found it took a bit of practice. If you let me know what you want it to say, I'll do it for you if you can't get it to work.

Thanks Helen

I managed it.

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Originally Posted by x-Katie-x

Tracey get yourself to the doctors, you've got yourself to a healthy weight on your own and should definitely be entitled to some kind of help to try and ensure that you stay there. I'm sure your doctor would do the best he/she can to give you the support that you need.

Thanks Katie I know she will, she's very good. i thought about ringing this morning, then made up a reason to put it off

I will definaely phone tomorrow, it's just a bit embarrassing confessing all face to face with someone! Even my closest friends don't know about this. It's so much easier telling cyberfriends

Something I did do last night was email a hypnotherapist, another miniminer has started a thread regarding this and it got me thinking. I poured out some of my story in the email and asked if he thought he could help. He has emailed me back and has offeed me an initial meeting free of charge. Lol I haven't rung him yet, but I will.

Tracey
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minilady · 3rd March, 2008

I rang the hypnotherapist

I bombarded the poor man with lots of questions and I'm sure he thinks he's dealing with a complete fruit loop

He was lovely, I told him I was worried that I wouldn't be a good candidate for hypnotherapy of this kind as I find it so hard to a) relax and b) open up to strangers. I have been hypnotised before but this was for past life regression and was also performed by a friend. We have an appointment booked to talk about the problems and for him to I presume assess me as a suitable candidate and find out how best to deal with me

All a bit scary!

Had a mini binge this evening but have managed to nip it in the bud before it turned into a full blown session

Today I booked a trip for hubbys birthday

4 nights in Venice in August, I can't wait!!! Just me and H, DD1 will look after the house and pets while we're away and the other smaller chilblains will stay with my Dad. The hotel looks amazing, really oldie worldie and overlooking the Grande Canal.

Also went online and booked to do the race for life in July. I've thought about it every year and never done it, mainly because I never thought I'd manage it. But this year I have no weight excuse.

Feeling more positive tonight

x-Katie-x · 3rd March, 2008

Wow what a day you've had! Brilliant and totally positive one there.

Great news about the hypnotherapist, funnily I'd just read the thread you mean before I came to your thread so had seen that you were considering it. It seems to be doing well for Sam so far! This kind of thing really interests me and it's definitely something I would look to doing in the future.

Well done for booking the trip - sounds heavenly ----- how lovely to be just the two of you, I'm sure you'll have a great time. I've never been to Venice but funnily enough am planning to go in July/August though probably only for the day. We're going camping for a month in the north of Italy (about 100 miles from Venice) and Venice is one of the cities we're planning on visiting.... I'll be looking out for you on the Gondola

And last but not least

good on you for signing up to the race for life --- today has definitely been your day!

minilady · 4th March, 2008

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Originally Posted by x-Katie-x

Wow what a day you've had! Brilliant and totally positive one there.

Great news about the hypnotherapist, funnily I'd just read the thread you mean before I came to your thread so had seen that you were considering it. It seems to be doing well for Sam so far! This kind of thing really interests me and it's definitely something I would look to doing in the future.

It's quite fascinating how quickly your mind can be influenced. I hope it's as quick for me as it's been for Sam! If I don't do something soon, I know the weight will creep back on and that just isn't an option!

Well done for booking the trip - sounds heavenly ----- how lovely to be just the two of you, I'm sure you'll have a great time. I've never been to Venice but funnily enough am planning to go in July/August though probably only for the day. We're going camping for a month in the north of Italy (about 100 miles from Venice) and Venice is one of the cities we're planning on visiting.... I'll be looking out for you on the Gondola

Lol we could go for a quick coffee!!

That's really strange you should say about the camping, we have toyed with the idea of camping in Italy too and were thinking about it this year, but hubby is off on his own to Chicago with friends they are petrol heads and into old American cars so are planning a trip down route 66 trawling breakers yards as they go! The kids and I weren't too keen on the idea, so while he's away I think we may go to cornwall for a small holiday of our own

Italy has been postponed but am hoping to go next year with the family, we love camping!!! It'll be great to hear about your holiday.

And last but not least

good on you for signing up to the race for life --- today has definitely been your day!

Thanks Katie, I feel a lot better today. It all boils down to the control thing again, I felt I was losing it, but doing something positive lets you take hold of the reigns again

Tracey
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x-Katie-x · 4th March, 2008

Okay so now I want to go to Italy but also fancy the idea of going with your hubby (in the nicest way of course) along route 66 - sounds like a brilliant trip though not something I'd want to take kids on. We went to America last year and drove from San Francisco to LA to Vegas to Yosemite and then back to SF - we took 3 weeks and stopped at places inbetween, me and hubby took our 14 yr old son with us and though he was good as gold it weren't really the trip for him - think he found the travelling/car rides boring whereas me and hubby loved them ----- so this years camping is all for him (though I can't wait for it - and hopefully to be slim while there and be able to try things such as waterskiing on the lakes etc!).

As for Cornwall I love it, my b-i-l and s-i-l live there and I love visiting the --- and one of my fave places is Looe, great memories of my kids crab fishing there

jane · 4th March, 2008

My dear Tracey, you have the resilience of a rubber ball. Ground down by an unintended row on line I inability to quit B the cigs one day. Now you're booking romantic breaks, hyponotherapy sessions, CBT & the racefor Life.

with this sort dynamism & determination what demon can stand a chance ?

Go for it gal. I'm right behind you (but probably only walking ).

minilady · 4th March, 2008

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Originally Posted by x-Katie-x

Okay so now I want to go to Italy but also fancy the idea of going with your hubby (in the nicest way of course) along route 66 - sounds like a brilliant trip though not something I'd want to take kids on. We went to America last year and drove from San Francisco to LA to Vegas to Yosemite and then back to SF - we took 3 weeks and stopped at places inbetween, me and hubby took our 14 yr old son with us and though he was good as gold it weren't really the trip for him - think he found the travelling/car rides boring whereas me and hubby loved them ----- so this years camping is all for him (though I can't wait for it - and hopefully to be slim while there and be able to try things such as waterskiing on the lakes etc!).

I know Scott will have a wonderful time, he's never been to America (neither have I) He has a friend who is living in Chicago, they moved due to his girlfriends work 3 years ago, Although Adam comes back to blighty quite a bit, Scott has never visited him. So the plan is to stay with Adam for a couple of Days and then take Adam's clapped out campervan along the highways

Lol I'm envisaging a male version of Thelma and Louse

Hey there's no 'hopefully' about it

You WILL be slim

As for Cornwall I love it, my b-i-l and s-i-l live there and I love visiting the --- and one of my fave places is Looe, great memories of my kids crab fishing there

I love Cornwall too! The coastline is fantastic and I am fascinated by the standing stones that seem to cover the whole of the county, plus there is so much for the children. I think if I had to pick a favourite place it would be Tintagel.

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Originally Posted by jane

My dear Tracey, you have the resilience of a rubber ball. Ground down by an unintended row on line I inability to quit B the cigs one day. Now you're booking romantic breaks, hyponotherapy sessions, CBT & the racefor Life.

with this sort dynamism & determination what demon can stand a chance ?

Lol!!! I will beat the bugger in the end

Go for it gal. I'm right behind you (but probably only walking ).

Thanks Jane, I'm so glad you're back on Mins posting again

I always read your posts with a smile, perhaps you might consider opening your diary again

Tracey
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minilady CDC minilady's Profile Albums minilady's Photo Gallery Bola Champion! Coffee Breaker Matchup Champion! Animal Connect Champion! Tournaments Won: 8 Join Date: 12th February, 2007 Location: Kent Posts: 1,869 My Mood: Rep Power: 50 Diet: cambridge diet	Have been too ashamed to write in diary I am still smoking and don't know how to change the blooming title of my diary! So it's there taunting me as I haven't had the will power to succeed As for maintenance, well where do I begin. Still at goal so that's a good start I guess. But the binges have started to come thicker and faster again I have been judding and although I appreciate this works for many, I don't know if it's for me or not. I feel it's sort of giving me license to binge and then diet the next day to compensate. When will I ever feel bloody normal I bought a health magazine the other day and there was a big article on Binge Eating Disorder. There was a checklist to see if you could have this disorder and I checked every box Since I've checked loads of websites about binge eating disorder and I think the way forward for me is to contact my GP and discuss this and find out if she can reccommend a good therapist that perhaps could help me, cognitive therapy seems like the way to go, but to be honest I'm scared Tracey x __________________ Lost 4 stone thanks to CD 18 months at goal (Cambridge Diet Counsellor)

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KD Super Moderator KD's Profile Albums KD's Photo Gallery Typing Master Champion! Join Date: 22nd July, 2006 Posts: 11,676 Rep Power: 294	Awww tracey. It's far from easy isn't it. Bloomin' binge monster Would be good if your doctor could recommend someone, but while you wait, you know you can do this. It's in you. Have faith in your ability to fight this. Look what you've done so far Lost this wait. Maintained for ages. Perhaps you need to give yourself another challenge. Would that help? Shame about the ciggies, but one problem at a time eh. Oh. to change the title, you need to go back to the maintaince forum page and double click just near it. I found it took a bit of practice. If you let me know what you want it to say, I'll do it for you if you can't get it to work. __________________ 8 Stone gone Cambridge Diet Counsellor (Bournemouth) August Wilson, "As my spirit grew bigger, my demons got smaller."

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x-Katie-x Needs a life x-Katie-x's Profile Albums x-Katie-x's Photo Gallery Join Date: 7th January, 2008 Location: Lancashire Posts: 2,322 My Mood: Rep Power: 44 Diet: Cambridge Height: 5' 2" Start Date: 26/11/08 Start Weight: 264lb Current Weight: 254lb Goal Weight: 140lb Goal Date: 01/07/09 BMI Information: Current BMI: 46.5 Start BMI: 48.3 Goal BMI: 25.6 Statistics: Total Weight Loss: 10lb Weight to Lose: 114lb % Lost 3.79%	Tracey get yourself to the doctors, you've got yourself to a healthy weight on your own and should definitely be entitled to some kind of help to try and ensure that you stay there. I'm sure your doctor would do the best he/she can to give you the support that you need. __________________ Started on Cambridge 26/11/2008

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minilady CDC minilady's Profile Albums minilady's Photo Gallery Bola Champion! Coffee Breaker Matchup Champion! Animal Connect Champion! Tournaments Won: 8 Join Date: 12th February, 2007 Location: Kent Posts: 1,869 My Mood: Rep Power: 50 Diet: cambridge diet	I rang the hypnotherapist I bombarded the poor man with lots of questions and I'm sure he thinks he's dealing with a complete fruit loop He was lovely, I told him I was worried that I wouldn't be a good candidate for hypnotherapy of this kind as I find it so hard to a) relax and b) open up to strangers. I have been hypnotised before but this was for past life regression and was also performed by a friend. We have an appointment booked to talk about the problems and for him to I presume assess me as a suitable candidate and find out how best to deal with me All a bit scary! Had a mini binge this evening but have managed to nip it in the bud before it turned into a full blown session Today I booked a trip for hubbys birthday 4 nights in Venice in August, I can't wait!!! Just me and H, DD1 will look after the house and pets while we're away and the other smaller chilblains will stay with my Dad. The hotel looks amazing, really oldie worldie and overlooking the Grande Canal. Also went online and booked to do the race for life in July. I've thought about it every year and never done it, mainly because I never thought I'd manage it. But this year I have no weight excuse. Feeling more positive tonight __________________ Lost 4 stone thanks to CD 18 months at goal (Cambridge Diet Counsellor)

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x-Katie-x Needs a life x-Katie-x's Profile Albums x-Katie-x's Photo Gallery Join Date: 7th January, 2008 Location: Lancashire Posts: 2,322 My Mood: Rep Power: 44 Diet: Cambridge Height: 5' 2" Start Date: 26/11/08 Start Weight: 264lb Current Weight: 254lb Goal Weight: 140lb Goal Date: 01/07/09 BMI Information: Current BMI: 46.5 Start BMI: 48.3 Goal BMI: 25.6 Statistics: Total Weight Loss: 10lb Weight to Lose: 114lb % Lost 3.79%	Wow what a day you've had! Brilliant and totally positive one there. Great news about the hypnotherapist, funnily I'd just read the thread you mean before I came to your thread so had seen that you were considering it. It seems to be doing well for Sam so far! This kind of thing really interests me and it's definitely something I would look to doing in the future. Well done for booking the trip - sounds heavenly ----- how lovely to be just the two of you, I'm sure you'll have a great time. I've never been to Venice but funnily enough am planning to go in July/August though probably only for the day. We're going camping for a month in the north of Italy (about 100 miles from Venice) and Venice is one of the cities we're planning on visiting.... I'll be looking out for you on the Gondola And last but not least good on you for signing up to the race for life --- today has definitely been your day! __________________ Started on Cambridge 26/11/2008

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x-Katie-x Needs a life x-Katie-x's Profile Albums x-Katie-x's Photo Gallery Join Date: 7th January, 2008 Location: Lancashire Posts: 2,322 My Mood: Rep Power: 44 Diet: Cambridge Height: 5' 2" Start Date: 26/11/08 Start Weight: 264lb Current Weight: 254lb Goal Weight: 140lb Goal Date: 01/07/09 BMI Information: Current BMI: 46.5 Start BMI: 48.3 Goal BMI: 25.6 Statistics: Total Weight Loss: 10lb Weight to Lose: 114lb % Lost 3.79%	Okay so now I want to go to Italy but also fancy the idea of going with your hubby (in the nicest way of course) along route 66 - sounds like a brilliant trip though not something I'd want to take kids on. We went to America last year and drove from San Francisco to LA to Vegas to Yosemite and then back to SF - we took 3 weeks and stopped at places inbetween, me and hubby took our 14 yr old son with us and though he was good as gold it weren't really the trip for him - think he found the travelling/car rides boring whereas me and hubby loved them ----- so this years camping is all for him (though I can't wait for it - and hopefully to be slim while there and be able to try things such as waterskiing on the lakes etc!). As for Cornwall I love it, my b-i-l and s-i-l live there and I love visiting the --- and one of my fave places is Looe, great memories of my kids crab fishing there __________________ Started on Cambridge 26/11/2008

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jane Opinionated jane's Profile Albums jane's Photo Gallery Join Date: 30th January, 2007 Location: Worcestershire Posts: 3,335 My Mood: Rep Power: 66 Diet: cambridge	My dear Tracey, you have the resilience of a rubber ball. Ground down by an unintended row on line I inability to quit B the cigs one day. Now you're booking romantic breaks, hyponotherapy sessions, CBT & the racefor Life. with this sort dynamism & determination what demon can stand a chance ? Go for it gal. I'm right behind you (but probably only walking ). __________________ Jane Cambridge Diet Counsellor CD Start date 9.1.07 CDss is really quite fun (I think it makes me high..shhh don't tell anyone or it'll be made illegal)... though it can get just a little dull after a while. Since Aug 07. Maintainer-ish. 'til recently. Currently + many lbs (but minus 5 1/2 stone ) Urgent CD Repairs Started 27.5.08.

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