AmandaJayne

Hia Soraya!

Just when you think you are safe, something from the past rears up and bites you on the bum! I hope you're feeling better about whatever upset you the other day.

I suppose we have to realise that we are always going to have to be on our guard, because stuff is always going to happen which could de-stabilize us at any time.

Oh well, I'll just have to take things 'one day at a time'!

Glad you're back with us, anyway!

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KD

Ummm. So sorry I missed this. You know hun, knowing what you should do is only a tiny bit of it isn't it.

I wonder how many of us thought we had cracked it every time we managed to control something.

It just goes on and on tested us doesn't it. Wouldn't it be nice if we passed the test and could just move on to being normal, but it's not like that eh. You just keep get giving new tests.

Some are easier than others, but on the whole the test become less and less.

Good to see you back with us, at least you've stopped it quick. Bet you wouldn't have done that before

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AmandaJayne

"It just goes on and on tested us doesn't it. Wouldn't it be nice if we passed the test and could just move on to being normal, but it's not like that eh. You just keep get giving new tests"

Hear, hear, Karion! It never ends, like ironing!

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Soraya

Thanks for the support guys, it's really helped.

I plucked up the courage to call my brother last night and bless him he spent two hours on the phone confirming that I wasn't mad. It's not a big deal just an instance of not good enough parenting! But it hit me hard for some reason. I spent a few days eating before I realised I was angry not hungry!

Anyway I'm back. it's funny that at one time something like this would have derailed me for months and I'd have put on weight loads of it. At least now I know that there may be other things lurking that you suddenly remember from another point of view and may be upsetting.

But I can't control my past, but I can do something about today.

There's a lady at my gym who started LL today, she's so excited that she'll be in ketosis on Friday. I was wishing I could and suddenly realised I actually could. All of a sudden the switch flipped in my head and there I was on CD and not trying anymore.

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Started Atkins
Easter 2004 220

CD Start Weight 197 June 06
Got to target 145

Total Loss: 73lbs or 5st 3lbs

restart weight 176.6 8 Oct 2009

Soraya

And guess who was in ketosis yesterday Two days ahead of plan. When I looked back although I have been eating, it's been low carb so that's helped.

Now it's time to see the weight leave.

Such a relief to be back in ketosis, there was a stage there when I thought that I would never see it again.

Am away this weekend to see a show in Glasgow but am planning to stick to my lc 790. I know it's possible so let's hope it works.

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Started Atkins
Easter 2004 220

CD Start Weight 197 June 06
Got to target 145

Total Loss: 73lbs or 5st 3lbs

restart weight 176.6 8 Oct 2009

Soraya

OK, despite the sandwich yesterday am down 2lbs and still in ketosis. 6lbs left to get to my pre holiday weight.

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Started Atkins
Easter 2004 220

CD Start Weight 197 June 06
Got to target 145

Total Loss: 73lbs or 5st 3lbs

restart weight 176.6 8 Oct 2009

Soraya

After the weekend away the weight is at 155 - Yay. 5lbs to go to get to my post Christmas weight.

Only deviation from plan over the weekend was two slimline G&T's. Even though we stopped at some great tearooms and things.

Am almost off CD packs now altogether and totally low carb/ low GI and it seem to be working. Two weeks to go to the company weekend away and I hope to be back to the 140's by then.

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Started Atkins
Easter 2004 220

CD Start Weight 197 June 06
Got to target 145

Total Loss: 73lbs or 5st 3lbs

restart weight 176.6 8 Oct 2009

AmandaJayne

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Soraya

Aah, I just noticed a day or two ago that my menu seems to be a bit odd. I'm doing low carb but am currently at 790 cals and the packs seem to have disappeared. I onlt noticed this when talking to my CDC on Monday.

Cals carb
CD pack 137 14.1
brie 30g 79.5 0.2
rondele 16.6g 56.4 0.2
cam 30g 79.5 0.2
smoked turkey 100g 131 1.3
1/2 pack salad leaves 8 0

chicken breast 80g 75 0
mushrooms 100g raw 13 0.4
broccoli 80g raw 48 2.2

9 zero carb meringue pieces36 0
low carb jam 1 tsp 24 0
cream 10g 46.7 0.16
choc ginger 10g 5 0 5

Total 784.14 23.76

I also take a multi vit. CDC and I aren't sure what to do. If I was doing pure Ongoing Weight Loss as per Atkins then this would be fine, but it is not what CD recommend. It is working though as I'm back to losing weight again. But can't seem to stick to CD 790 and it's kind of this or binging so I may stay at this for a week and then bring the cals up to 1000 going through the calories stages again.

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Started Atkins
Easter 2004 220

CD Start Weight 197 June 06
Got to target 145

Total Loss: 73lbs or 5st 3lbs

restart weight 176.6 8 Oct 2009

Soraya

OK - does everyone else have a normal life? I had people staying this weekend, was away the weekend before that and this coming weekend am off to an AwayDay which they're holding in a place renowned for its food. AAAGH.

I'm running out of ways to cope.

Have managed not to put on this weekend, but this coming one is doomed. Also DH is away this week and my old habits when he was away was to go to McD's.

OK - I'm going to eat on plan this week, should be down to 152 by Sat and by the time I get back on Monday will be back at 154 and then I have a few weeks of stability before going offshore in April when I'll be able to lose the last 7lbs from my hols. I hope.

Does this sound reasonable/possible advice would be really welcome or I can see me putting on a lot over this week.

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Started Atkins
Easter 2004 220

CD Start Weight 197 June 06
Got to target 145

Total Loss: 73lbs or 5st 3lbs

restart weight 176.6 8 Oct 2009

AmandaJayne

Phew! I'm just about exhausted reading your post Soraya!'


You have my complete sympathy. I don't know how I'd cope either.

"DH is away this week and my old habits when he was away was to go to McD's."


OLD HABITS, Soroya. But you have new ones now, don't you. New and improved (like DAZ). (Imagine my beady-eyed stare into your eyes). You say "Yes mum" and nod frantically.

"...but this coming one is doomed..."

But is it? Only if you let it be (said the beady-eyed one).

There is no easy answer, is there. I think it may be a good idea to sit down and write the pros and cons of the weekend ahead. That is, divide an A4 paper into four equal parts, write at the top of each part:-

The pros of 'eating' this weekend

The cons of ''eating' this weekend

The pros of 'not eating' this weekend

The cons of 'not eating' this weekend

Take some time to really think about your answers, be honest. You've come a long way Soraya - what do you want your future to be? Is it worth putting your achievement in jeopardy it for this one weekend?

Hope this helps!

AJ

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Soraya

Thanks for that Oh Beady Eyed One

And you're right I do have new habits even though I haven't realised it yet.

I proved it to myself this morn. When I left my packs in the car - as DH phoned a 100 miles away with them with them and let me know. I panicked.

And my CB said what a perfect excuse - eat nothing now and have low blood sugar so you can binge later and it won't have been your fault. Tempted I listened and then went and got a yoghurt and strawberries that give me the calories and carb similar to a pack.

Now I know that I can go away this weekend and eat low carb without gaining weight. And I'm going to arrange to see my CDC on Monday so that I can't start a diet/binge cycle.

Thanks AJ. Guess what I'm not fat and I don't have the same patterns anymore. When did that happen?!

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Started Atkins
Easter 2004 220

CD Start Weight 197 June 06
Got to target 145

Total Loss: 73lbs or 5st 3lbs

restart weight 176.6 8 Oct 2009

jane

thanks for doing this diary.
I'm def going to need to do lowcarb/low GI when I'm at goal(just wrote "when" ,not "if")
you're doing well & leaning all the way & gaining in confidence.
Will be back to see how you get on & learn from the master!

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Jane Cambridge Diet Counsellor



CD Start date 9.1.07 CDss is really quite fun (I think it makes me high..shhh don't tell anyone or it'll be made illegal)... though it can get just a little dull after a while.

Since Aug 07. Maintainer-ish. 'til recently. Currently + many lbs (but minus 5 1/2 stone )
Urgent CD Repairs Started 27.5.08.

Soraya

Hi Everyone, Been away and not been able to post or read the site - didn't realise how much I relied on hearing about everyone elses journeys until this.

Have now managed to get into the 10stones again - only just, so next step is back into the 140's. It' tough being away and relying on airplane and course food overseas. I can maintain but not lose on this.

Had a great day reading everything, but feel a bit out of touch and don't want to add messages in case people wonder who on earth it is!

Jane - so far from being a master at this I can't tell you!

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Started Atkins
Easter 2004 220

CD Start Weight 197 June 06
Got to target 145

Total Loss: 73lbs or 5st 3lbs

restart weight 176.6 8 Oct 2009

AmandaJayne

Glad to see you back, Soraya,

How's it been going for you? And what do you mean we won't remember you! Us chickens have been scratching around here as usual, tryin' to behave ourselves!

AJ

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