dizzy-n-mizzy

Hi Tasha

I am certainly feeling a lot calmer and in control today with the 'no rules' rule. If today is good I'll do it for the week. To be honest if I have a week of eating with no rules and making sensible choices and eating sensible quantities then that would be more of an achievement than losing x pounds on a CD plan for another week. I do want to get back to the real world and maybe this week will give me the confidence to know I can do it (or not!).

Dizzy x

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dizzy-n-mizzy

The day was fine yesterday but the evening didn't go as well as I hoped and I lost a bit of control. There were no rules so that's OK and I was back down a pound this morning. But I am not confident enough to commit to a week with no rules yet so am just going to see how another day goes first.

This morning I have had porridge made with water and a spot of milk on the top and spinkled with seeds.

2 cups of green tea.

Still not drinking water (why?)

Will go have some now.

Dizzy x

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tashy100

Hi

Your breakfast sounds yummy - I have ordered some porridge mix from the Food Doctor site - so plan to do similar to you but with yogurt!!

Why dont you try having a glass of water every half hour or every hour - just set an alarm and then do it. I try to do that every hour although it works best when am at work - also I find it much easier to drink warmed up slightly in the microwave - I hate cold water especially in the winter.

I have also decided to wean myself off of CD (and anyway - have only got around 20 packs left)

So far today have had 2 bananas , 3 biscuits with my tea at work and 2 small chocolates . Am having soup for lunch and am trying to stick to around 1200 cals per day.

Hope today goes well for you

Tasha

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dizzy-n-mizzy

Hey Kazz

I had 4 litres today! + green teas. I can hardly believe it. It is such a relief. The 2nd glass was when I felt the relief after that it was easy. I also measured the amount of water in my glass and realised I've been drinking more than I realised. (until I stopped ofcourse!)

I really feel drinking the water is fundamental and I can't understand why I stopped but I feel that it is becasue of that I failed my New Year start. I will try keep up the good work tomorrow.

Eating wise, could be better, could be worse but no rules so not allowed to complain. I am using this experience to learn about me, how much have I changed since starting CD how much can I trust myself. Observation and analysis. Don't suppose there wil ever be a definite conclusion!

Will pop by your place later.

Dizzy x

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dizzy-n-mizzy

Hi Tasha

I really love your Meez you. What a cute dance and that waist to die for! We are a right pair aren't we? Will be watching out for your diary and how the rest of your day went. Evening are the most tricky. If I start popping bit in my mouth when I'm cooking I'm in trouble. Tonight I was popping in Chocolate and yoghurt raisins that the boys have for snacks for school. I've not been too bad today but some improvement needed. I am loving the porridge. I have always loved it and breakfast is my favourite meal. Maybe that was because my constant snacking has always ruined the other meals of the day for me? It is a treat to have breakfast again though and is a pleasure not to continue eating from that moment on throughout the day and be completely satisfied with one measured amount of porridge.

Must go MacKenzie needs help with a Kandoo!

Dizzy x

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tashy100

Yeah - just wish my waist was like that!!!!!!!!

I wonder why it is that some people (like me) have to be constantly vigilant about what they put in their mouth - otherwise it would be a complete binge all the time and why other people seem to be able to eat in tune with their body and stop when they are full???

Guess if I had the answer for that I would be one very rich woman!!!!

Well done on the water - I think it is easy once you have started - but also easy to stop the habit (if that makes sense)

Oh god - am rambling now - must go put the kids to bed!!

Sleep well

Tasha

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tashy100

Hope you are having a good day

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Current weight 11 stone 3.5lbs

dizzy-n-mizzy

Hi Tasha

Well not brill!

I woke up with a stinker of a headache. Not sure if it's because TOTM is due today or because I ate rather a lot of pickled onions last night! LOL Me and pickles!!! They are gone now thank goodness. Yes I have a long way to go I long to be 'normal' but I haven't given up hope at all and will keep trying to get there. I don't want to be living on food packs forever.

This morning with my headache I really wanted comfort food not my usual comfort food I wanted a cambridge shake. I felt it would make me feel better. I decided though that I would stick to my no rules plan again today as I didn't feel I would make a strong enough commitment to going back on Cambridge. Probably wasn't the best idea though not been my best today for making sensible choices. I'm feeling a lot better now though even though my skinny jeans are feeling a bit less comfortable I am going to change them at 11 stone they were even a little loose!!!

Changed my meez today. It does look quite like me, a 'slightly' prettier version and I have been amazed to find items actually in my wardrobe. The house is what I am striving for spacious and TIDY! It's cute and fun it's almost like playing with Sindy 'ah fond memories'.

I hope you are still on course I will be cross with you if you let my day affect you. You know how this can happen sometimes.

I will be back on track full steam ahead very soon, there is no way my ticker is going back up anymore.

Speak to you later.

Dizzy x

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Maintainer

hi dizzy

I meant to post yesterday then I crashed, lost the page and bla bla! I've enjoyed reading your diary and can understand how complicated it is getting back on the straight and narrow after a lengthy Christmas overeating period.

I'm just the same! I lost my weight through a self devised healthy eating period three years ago, yet still lose the plot each and every Christmas (and summer) holiday! Like you, my water consumption hits the floor and I could have started a European clementine mountain, so many did I buy with good intentions yet not eat! (who needs fruit when there's chocolate around?!)

So hang in there. After a week of eating "properly" again, I already feel far more human, even if I still have a few pounds to go to pre-Christmas weight.

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Start weight: 141K (March 2002)
Target weight reached: 67.5K (December 2003)
Maintained until Feb 2007 when I quit smoking and regained 13K+
Now - life long stabilisation - to stay between 63K and 66K.

23/10/08: 66.8K

dizzy-n-mizzy

Thanks for dropping by Maintainer and reading and posting. It is a bit of a confusing time but I have faith in myself for getting through. Glad you had a good week and feel good. Have to dash off but just wanted to say THANKS!

Dizzy x

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tashy100

Hi

Sorry you woke up feeling crap - I am sure that pickled onions would do that to me!!! Reference 'no rules' - surely that means that if you want a shake then you can? After all - they have all the right vitamins etc.

Dont beat yourself up - you have done so well and are still doing well. Being so close to what you want to be surely you need to experiment with what works for you.

Hope you are feeling better this evening.

Tasha

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dizzy-n-mizzy

Thanks Tasha

Not so bad really but i think I need to follow a plan again. Been good for observation purposes not too but now it's time to get back on track. Your calorie counting plan seems OK for you. Has the rest of the day been OK? I'll check yu diary later.

I still drank a few litres of water today so pleased about that anyway.

Dizzy x

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tashy100

Hope your day is okay today

Tasha

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dizzy-n-mizzy

Hi Tasha

Thanks for asking.

I'm not feeling great today actually. Physically a little tired but it is the emotionally I'm not feeling good. I think this is the worst I have felt since starting CD. I am so confused or maybe not maybe it is also now that I have lost the weight I have no excuse for not getting on with life. But my deep rooted fear of failure means that I am scared and holding back.

I can't open up too much yet. Little by little, step by step I guess I will.

I too am one of those perfectionist types but have never been able to live up to my own impossible standards and have therefore given up or in more recent years not even tried in the first place. I know this is a significant factor in my eating problems. I am disappointed in my self and my eating often feels like a punishment.

I know I need to change my focus from losing the weight. It was nice to have a few months of feeling successful at something and now that has ended. I think today I am realising that and accepting it. I need to focus on other things in my life I want to change. I've been hiding away for too long. I also need to have the confidence to focus on more than one thing at a time.

Eating wise I've been OK today.

I hope you are still doing well with your calorie counting.

Dizzy x

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I can now run non-stop at 10 kph for 30 minutes (5 km)!