Thread: Dizzy's Diary - Fitness First! Weightloss too now.

Aw Dizzy, I'm sorry your not feeling too good hun....those stupid bluddy emotions eh?! Wish I could help with your confusion, but I am generally the most confuzzled person on the planet!

Hope you feel better soon

Hi Dizzy

Im sorry you're feeling low today.

You have achieved so much with the diet - I dont know you but I know you have 3 boys and from the posts I have seen on here I can see that you are a great Mum and also a very friendly and caring person.

It's very hard when you get into a slump - maybe you could try writing down what it is you want to do / achieve/ change and then start thinking about steps that would make these things happen.

Also - I know from my own emotions that it can be a bit of a see-saw and that sometimes all you need to do is go with the flow and come out the other side.

Hope you feel better soon

Tasha

xxx

Originally Posted by dizzy-n-mizzy

Hi Tasha

Thanks for asking.

I'm not feeling great today actually. Physically a little tired but it is the emotionally I'm not feeling good. I think this is the worst I have felt since starting CD. I am so confused or maybe not maybe it is also now that I have lost the weight I have no excuse for not getting on with life. But my deep rooted fear of failure means that I am scared and holding back.

I can't open up too much yet. Little by little, step by step I guess I will.

I too am one of those perfectionist types but have never been able to live up to my own impossible standards and have therefore given up or in more recent years not even tried in the first place. I know this is a significant factor in my eating problems. I am disappointed in my self and my eating often feels like a punishment.

I know I need to change my focus from losing the weight. It was nice to have a few months of feeling successful at something and now that has ended. I think today I am realising that and accepting it. I need to focus on other things in my life I want to change. I've been hiding away for too long. I also need to have the confidence to focus on more than one thing at a time.

Eating wise I've been OK today.

I hope you are still doing well with your calorie counting.

Dizzy x

Di, you silly girl! You are far more successful than you realise!

Firstly concerning dieting, you have far more control than me, and you dont let your weight get as out of hand as me!

Secondly, you have a wonderful family unit, and a very successful marriage, something i am sooo jealous of. You have 3 fabulous boys that are a credit to you, and now they are at school ,you have an opportunity ahead of you to choose what you would really like to do with your life concerning work, and it's not out of necessity like me!!

You're doing brill girl, in all ways, not just dieting!

Love ya, xx

Thanks Bex

I'm know I'm having a silly day or two. The crossroads with the diet is tough. I know I am a really lucky girl and have it so easy in many respects this however, does make me feel worse often because I feel guilty about feeling bad! get it?!

I needed a good talking too, Thanks! I have planned a busy day tomorrow which should help.

TOTM is due too so that is also a factor.

love to you back!

Diana xx

Boy I'm glad this is the start of another week. Last weeks little experiment was pretty. But taught me a lesson. I am not to be trusted to make these decisions moment to moment. I am going to have to have plans and strategies. I knew this but didn't realise quite how bad I'd be. Carry on like that I would soon put all the weight back on and be as miserable as sin in the process.

But now I have seen for myself I have more idea what I have to do. Get back on track now and get used to a plan that I can use forever.

Phoned the gym his morning going for a look around in 30 minutes then will book an introductory session while I'm there. During the day today I am just going to have CD shakes then this evening I will make a plan for the week and plan out meals for myself and the rest of the gang. Mizzy is doing OK, his weight has stabalized and he looks so much better than when he was sole sourcing as he looked quite gaunt in the face and his hair was dry and unkept. He is looking years younger than just a few weeks ago and it's also nice to see him back in 34in jeans with no overhang.

Good on ya Mizzy!

Nintendo wii arrived this morning so a little more exercise there for all the family. This house will be so excited later when the guys all get home, it will be like Xmas all over again.

Must go, got that appointment at the gym.

Dizzy x

Hi Dizzy

I said I would get here - a little late but better than never. I can relate to so much of what you have put.

I too sat down last night and did a food plan and tesco.com shop for the rest of this week. If I don't have a plan, I over eat - simple!

I also today worked out an exercise time table too. An hours swim on a Monday morning, either a dance class on Tuesday or Wednesday (I have friends that do both nights so am going to decide which I prefer, I did the Wednesday night one last week and really enjoyed) and then on Friday I am going to do an hour in the gymn followed by a swim. Saturdays we take the kids swimming.

I went swimming this morning and feel amazing now, so much more energy and vitality and have had a great morning at work as well as I actually feel motivated to work rather than just doing nothing or surfing!

I think you are bang to rights - you need to plan. Your meals need to be laid down in writing and you need to have the food in, that should all help you in the long run even if it takes up a bit of time straight away.

Good luck, I think you are probably just feeling a bit "anti climax" - I keep saying that the focus for 21 years has been to get thin - now I am almost there is scares the living daylights out of me because I just never thought about "what next".

Right I must get back to work, I shouldn't even be on here!

Hi Di, good luck at the gym! Sounds like you have your head screwed on...

Say congrats to Derek from me, bet he looks brill! xx

Originally Posted by thetimeisright

Hi Dizzy

I said I would get here - a little late but better than never. I can relate to so much of what you have put.

I too sat down last night and did a food plan and tesco.com shop for the rest of this week. If I don't have a plan, I over eat - simple!

I also today worked out an exercise time table too. An hours swim on a Monday morning, either a dance class on Tuesday or Wednesday (I have friends that do both nights so am going to decide which I prefer, I did the Wednesday night one last week and really enjoyed) and then on Friday I am going to do an hour in the gymn followed by a swim. Saturdays we take the kids swimming.

I went swimming this morning and feel amazing now, so much more energy and vitality and have had a great morning at work as well as I actually feel motivated to work rather than just doing nothing or surfing!

I think you are bang to rights - you need to plan. Your meals need to be laid down in writing and you need to have the food in, that should all help you in the long run even if it takes up a bit of time straight away.

Good luck, I think you are probably just feeling a bit "anti climax" - I keep saying that the focus for 21 years has been to get thin - now I am almost there is scares the living daylights out of me because I just never thought about "what next".

Right I must get back to work, I shouldn't even be on here!

Thanks for dropping by and your wise and calming words. I know you are a busy girl. Planning, planning planning. Still not there but a little better. Certainly feeling happier and more confident. My diet does have a significant affect on my mood. More and more I'm thinking it is not just psychological but may have some biological significance.

Started the gym at last today and amazingly I loved it!!!! I'm so happy I did. I used to love going to the gym I belonged to one most of the time between age 17 and 27. Packed it in when I got pregnant with my first son. I used to use the gym but mostly enjoyed the classes. I loved aerobics the high impact classes particularly. In the last ten years the machines in the gym have changed some for the better I think I will enjoy the gym side more than before. Will swim tomorrow (if I can still move) and try a class on Thursday (hope I can keep up!)

It's a relief to have enjoyed the gym so much today, I feel like a little bit of me that I thought was long gone may still be there after all. In some ways the last ten years have been very full and I've had great experiences. In other ways I feel like my life has been on hold for 10 years and that realisation is shocking and scary.

Will try harder with the schedules.

Thanks again for dropping by.

Dizzy x

Hey Dizzy....how you doing today??

Well done on joining the gym! I used to love going to the gym!¬

Hi Kazz, Yes I need to get into the habit of updating this diary. I have been chatting so much on the threadstoppers thread I keep forgetting.

I have really turned my focus on exercise now and it is really really making me feel so much better. I am only sad that I gave it up completely for so many years. Maybe I was scared of being disappointed at my performance, struggling and not keeping up. I shouldn't have though. It has been great and I have been performing so much better than I expected to.

Yesterday I spend another hour + in the gym and burnt, according to the machines around 500 calories. Then I had a quick swim and swam 15 lengths.

Today I just popped in for a class, aerobics, step and conditioning. Really pleased not to stand out too much as the new girl and felt those muscles really working.

Diet has been 'OK' taking the focus off has helped + feeling more positive and those happy endorphins from exercising I think are playing there part.

Must go get the dinner on now. Thanks for dropping by.

Dizzy x

Lucky you, i am jealous. Wish i could get out to go to the gym. Need a jealous smilie here!

Originally Posted by wannabeminime

Lucky you, i am jealous. Wish i could get out to go to the gym. Need a jealous smilie here!

Any gyms close by to you? If so you should be able to manage to get to one before very long. I certainly feel better for making the effort but ofcourse it's early days.

Dizzy x

Not been paying too much attention to the diet this week since going to the gym each day. Joined tesco ediets last night as thought that would be a help with maintaining and learning new healthier habits.

My membership starts on Monday so we'll see how that goes. Went to the gym again this morning did just over an hour and burned 550+ calories. As the day has gone on my abs have been getting a bit sore. Haven't been exercising them in the gym but did yesterday in the aerobics class. I could really feel all the individual muscles being worked in that class which was good as I could tell they are all still there and in the right places, just waiting to be woken up from their very long sleep.

I am feeling a bit guilty though about spending my days in the gym, neglecting the house work while the kids at school and hubbie at work. I will have to find a PT job very soon to help pay for all of this as it really isn't fair and the bank balance is looking less and less healthy too.

Will pay more attention to the diet again on Monday at the latest and start reporting on my weight. However, I don't thnk I have gained any this week and my diet although not strictly organised or perfect has not been too bad especially given all the extra calories I have been using.

Dizzy x

A saturday at home today. Kids have had birthday parties to be ferried to and from. DS1 is out at sleepover tonight and DS2 has a friend over for a sleepover. We finally put up the bathroom cabinet and 2 shelves today and bathroom is finally coming together. Lovely to put all my toiletries away and to hand at last. We have a 3rd shelf to fetch from Habitat Bluewater tomorrow then we can put that one up. Wonder how long it will take to get around to that?

Anyone tried buying anything from habitat lately? We always struggle for them to sell us anything these days. They always have a reason they can't sell you one it's crazy. I love Habitat so we still try to buy when we can. To get the cabinet it took quite a lot of effort, then we decided to get the matching shelves and have ended up buying from 2 stores and not our most local one. Bluewater will be quite a trek for us but I've always fancied taking a peak at it so don't mind too much. It just seems mad to have to go so far for something that isn't even discontinued. Ramble over!

Quite looking forward to trip out tomorrow actually but will need to get organised and drop off child and pick up DS1 and get there for Sunday opening. Oh boy, with 3 boys who don't want to go it's going to be tough!

Going to have a bash at the GI diet on Monday as planned for me by ediets. The menu does look great. Will see how good I am at sticking to the plan? mmm!

No exercise today and my abs are tender but not so bad. Monday morning aerobics class was fully booked so will just use the gym on Monday. Monday is the last day of my free week so will then need to join and make a monthly or yearly commitment.

Will weigh myself on Monday morning to start the new plan hopefully I will still be the same weight and not have gained.

Tasha, I was wondering if you'd like to join me with the GI plan I'd be happy to share my menu's with you. Ediets have given me a menu of 1200-1300 calories a day.

Dizzy x

Originally Posted by dizzy-n-mizzy

Any gyms close by to you? If so you should be able to manage to get to one before very long. I certainly feel better for making the effort but ofcourse it's early days.

Dizzy x

Its not the proximity, its the lack of time during the day when the kids are at school as i am at work, and then in the eve i have no one to look after them. I could get a babysitter in, if there was a local one available, which i dont think there is, but it becomes unaffordable then anyway, with babysitters fees and gym fees.