KD

..........that makes all common sense go out of the window?

Yes...eaten way too much of the beige food. Don't feel guilty, just confused.

I now feel really sluggish and tired. Bloated and 'muggy'.

Nope. Didn't manage to IE over Christmas. Didn't eat just when hungry. Didn't stop when satisfied. Certainly didn't chose foods according to what I wanted, just what I presumed I wanted.

Can't wait to start eating normally again and getting some energy back.

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Barb

Can't wait to join you! Have done all of the above and then some! It's weird isn't it? You think your head is in a safe place then it breaks out and goes potty!

I have eaten a vast array of chocolate/shortbread/stuffing - not together, I'm not completely mad! I have also drunk a vat of champagne (no regrets, it was lovely) and if I'd had any babycham KD, I would have put a slug of brandy in and drunk to you!

Having said that, it's been great, it is what happens after all and it doesn't mean that good habits can't be re-established after all the madness!!

I didn't expect to be as bad as I have, but I'm not beating myself up about it, after all it's only me and about 98% of the rest of the Uk, so I'm not alone being a piggy!

I know that the next few days will probably be fairly naughty too but thats ok, come the 2nd of Jan the rest of ' my fabulous new life challenge' commences and it's going to be great. Whats a few extra lbs to knock off in the great scheme of things?

Here's to a happy and healthy 2008!!

Love

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Barb xx

13th October - start of looking after self more!


Week One - lost 3lbs
Week two - STS, but thats ok!
Week three - lost 2lbs!
Week four -1lb on

Eileen

I wish i knew as i have done the same, i feel fat & bloated. I gave myself a good talking too before i dragged myself out of bed this morning.No chocolate today be sensible. well that lasted about 1 hour.I think what i need too do is eat all the chocolate & get it out of the way.

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KD

Indeed One thing I'm doing very differently this year though. I'm not having a starting day to get back on track with making good choices.

I'm living now. This is my day, minute, hour. I don't have to continue to self-destruct just because it's Thursday 27th December. My body doesn't know that. It thinks it's just a normal day and will gain and lose whatever I put into it.

There's still a load of food left, and I'll probably eat a fair bit of it, but that's up to me. I'm not going to make my choices according to the day. Each time I eat whether it's Dec or Jan, it's up to me what I want to eat, what I decide is best for me. Whether I want to feed myself crap and take the consequences, or feed what my body wants and feel well and energetic again.

If I have a starting day, then I'll probably have a stop day too. I don't want to go back into that pattern. I'm pretty sure I'll make some dumb choices over the next few days but that's my choice and hopefully I'll gradually get back into tuning in each time I chose to eat

That's the plan anyway

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DQ

Very well said

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KD

Cheers DQ.

Tell you something (that I'm sure we all know), knowing the answers is a damn slight easier than applying them.

I'm still not chosing a day to start, but making sensible choices seems not to have clicked just yet

Breakfast: M&S toffee apple and blackberry porridge. Very nice. Usually make my own porridge, but thought I'd have it for a change. Not a bad choice at all

Lunch: Go to get veg soup out of fridge. Have to move cheesecake, mini mince pies, double cream and brandy butter to get to it.

Eat cheesecake, mini minces, dc and bb, put veg soup back.

Ummm. Come on KD...you can do better than that. Didn't use 'pause'. Didn't think about it (well...maybe a second or two). Didn't chose what would make me feel better in the long run.

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KD

Yesterday didn't turn out too bad after all. Had the cheesecake etc etc for lunch. Missed out on the veg soup because I wasn't hungry. Did a bit of crooked thinking about how I would die without my veggies so I should have it anyway, but decided against.

Went until dinnertime when I felt hungry again. Did a 'pause' to be sure. Decided on pizza and chips with salad. Seriously missing some normal food in our freezer at the moment

Dished up pizza, salad. Took chips out of fryer and ate one. Yum. Decided that the first one was always the best so any after that wouldn't be as good.

Would it be worth it putting my portion on the plate to accompany the pizza? I had only prepared a small amount, but decided that I'm not that person anymore. Not the one that eats because it's there, so DS2 and DH got slightly more and I just kept to the one chip that I took before dishing up.

Midnight: I have a box of thortons chocs beside me. Should I have one because it's my birthday. Yep...it will be nice. Yep, I think I can now manage just the one (but maybe not).

Went for the pause again. I could have it if I wanted. I could finish the whole box if I wanted. My choice. Decided that I'd give it a miss for the moment, then promptly forgot about them

Might have one or two today though

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Barb

It's interesting what you said about the 'start day' becasue the same things have been coasting through my mind, about the same time as the chocolate marzipans actually. Although I have kind of set this whole 2nd of Jan thing in my diary I am also thinking that I canb actually start(or not) whenever i like, that it is still all my choice. What I think I cannot allow for is the impact of having a housefull of goodies that keep calling my name!
I also have not told you of the great Thorntons disaster. I ordered 6 boxes of chocs as pressies online, they didn't turn up so I checked with thorntons who could find no record of the order, so I went in the shop and bought them. Then on Christmas Eve they turned up! Emailed Thorntons and they said to enjoy the extra boxes with their compliments! Well, it would be rude not to, wouldn't it!!!!
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

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Barb xx

13th October - start of looking after self more!


Week One - lost 3lbs
Week two - STS, but thats ok!
Week three - lost 2lbs!
Week four -1lb on

KD

Oh..ummm. Enjoy That'll last you a couple of years

Right. Got to tell you my news. Concerned that it might sound a little insensitive towards a couple of very brave members I'm so pleased though I'm sure, but it'll just confirm your belief that I am indeed barmy

Got seen by a junior doctor this morning. ECG, blood tests etc. She then asked me to strip waist up. Decided that I wouldn't do the normal apology for the state of my stomach...explaining how it got that way. I mustn't keep doing that! So I kept quiet.

She prodded and poked. Checking the size of my liver (she said), though I'm pretty sure she wanted to see if she could deflate my lungs by pushing it up enough. Then she felt the pulse in my groin Didn't like that either

Anyway, she didn't look horrified when she saw me half naked. When excess skin isn't bad, it can be a little hard to know what sort of condition it is. The last time I was slim, I was in my teens and my stomach/boobs don't look anything like they did then

So, time to get dressed and answer loads of questions.

Dr: Any recent weightloss?
Me: Well...not recent, but I did lose 8 stone a couple of years ago if that counts.
Dr: (picking jaw up from floor) 8 Stone!!!!????!!
Me: Well yes (wondering why she looked so shocked)
Dr: But you would expect at least a little excess skin after a loss like that.
Me:
Me: You don't think I have much?

Okay...That does sound weird. I just can't tell because it wasn't bad.

Dr: No, not at all
Me: Okay....so you really don't have to be kind. I have no intention of wearing a bikini. My excess skin is my war wound. I'm kinda of proud of it! You can be 100% honest with me.
Dr: Sorry, but I didn't notice anything different compared to other slim ladies your weight.

Oh gosh!! I was so surprised! How come I'm so lucky!

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Dom1979

Maybe you DID have some when you lost weight originally, but it's cheekily shrunk back very slowly when you weren't looking?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY by the way!

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KD

Very possibly. I don't look at myself very often

BTW, she asked me how I was maintaining, and I told her that I was doing 'intuitive eating'. She had never heard of it, so I explained. I ended with "you know....like normal people eat"

Well....Miss Junior Doctor aka Miss Body Beautiful 2007 said "oh, I don't do that. I eat until I'm in pain, then as soon as the pain is gone I eat again. I spend 90% of my life in pain". She giggled. I so wanted to call her a rude name

Cheers Dom, and when my family stop wanting to use me as a taxi driver, I might get to open my cards and watch the film I had planned

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