Blonde Logic

Hi peeps

I am going to start this thread, similar to my Stream of Consciousness thread - just so I can record thoughts, experiences, etc., all in one place. Decided not to add to my other thread as I will be discussing food and thought that might be unfair for the other users not yet to this stage.

Today is day 4 of RTM, and it's all going rather well. After day one's upset.

Having gotten so ill after my first meal, I must say I was less then excited to eat on day 2. Considering how long I have waited to eat, it was really something on Day 2 to shudder at the thought of food - but I managed.

Day twos meal did go better then day 1, but was not wonderful. IT was chicken, and I found it a huge effort, all that chewing!!

Day three - however - was a day worth waiting for. To be able to have some fresh veg - well, celery and lettuce leaves - but what joy! And lemon juice! I had a Green salad with a little salmon on top, 2 small spoons of cottage cheese and dressing diluted wit lemon juice.

Oh.......it was Nirvana. I told my OH I could happily live on just that every day for the rest of my life!! LOL

I love that the idea of simple food is so nice. I am hoping I have purged my desire for really fussy food - food that requires a lot of prep, seasonings, etc. I just want to get back to basics. At least for awhile. And that's how I felt last night. It felt so good.

I had a real wobble yesterday while soaking in the bath. I started worrying about hos I have transfered my eating habit to a shopping habit. I laugh, but, if I am honest, is is a serious problem - and that needs addressing. BUt the important peice - is I got myself so worked up and stressed out - and thought this would have been an opportunity to go stuff myself in previous times - so I acknowledged that and though, "What a stupid thing to do, that would be,m to go eat - beacuse of THIS?? Waht would that even solve - why did I ever think it would solve anything!!??" Was quite pleased with that.

S0 - we carry on.

It's so wonderful though - every bit, of each new food - each forgotten flavour that dances across my tongue - it all tastes mainly of one thing: success.

There's no sweeter taste.

Here's to more adventures ahead!

X

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Began LL on 8-1-08:

281 pounds (20 stone)
Size 26/28 BMI: 44.7
Class: Morbidly Obese

Completed Foundation on 29-09-08

154 pounds (11 stone)
Size 10/12/14 BMI: 24.5
Class: NORMAL




My Weight Chart:



BL's Diary: http://www.minimins.com/lighter-life-forum/27465-blonde-logics-stream-consciousness-diary.html
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minilady

Hi Jan

Glad I had a peep at the new posts and found your thread!

Re swapping eating for shopping I think it's something everyone goes through and it's not surprising. Just think of all those years of wearing clothes because they cover us up and we can get them in our size. Now we can try on and wear almost anything and there are soooo many styles and colours You now can buy clothes because you like them and feel good in them and for no other reason It feels bloody fantastic far better than eating a choccie bar any day.

I guess the money thing could be a bit of a problem, but then I probably have ate about £25 - £30's worth of sugary, fatty foods pre diet what with all the takeaways I would have So some new clothes when the mood takes me is n't so bad. Is it

Cant wait to read more on how you're getting on.

Tracey
xxx

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18 months at goal

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Blonde Logic

Hi Mini! Thanks for looking in!! Always nice to 'see' you! Thanks for your comments!! If the money being spent were simply onclothes, that might be one thing.... But my euphoria seems to have crossed those boundaries! - though I shouldn't be

I am feeling a bit more adventurous today, an ddecided to actually think out how I would prepare me tea tonight. So, what fun! I made a little marinade for my swordfish using red chilis, lime juice, garlic, ginger and a bit of soy......paired with a GORGEOUS selection of salad leaves and cabbage and celery!! Yum yum!!!!

Last nights salad was the best thing since canned beer I tell you!! SO looking forward to tonights too.

My inlaws asked if I would be sad they were all having a roast dinner. I told her not at all!! I got the better end of the bargain!

Feeling good today - finding I am so relieved that the hunger is not really any different then in abstainance....at the moment. Its a relief. Its just going very easily.

Had a coupe of stressful moments the last two days - and on each occassion, the only food-related thught I had was: I don;t even want or need food! phew!! Lets have more of that - a lifetimes worth please!!!

Well, my neck has been really awful the last two days - worst its been in a few months. Started out as mys hip - now my neck is worse. So - gonna go have a hot soak before packing up my bits to cook at the outlaws.

Hope all are well tonight!

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Began LL on 8-1-08:

281 pounds (20 stone)
Size 26/28 BMI: 44.7
Class: Morbidly Obese

Completed Foundation on 29-09-08

154 pounds (11 stone)
Size 10/12/14 BMI: 24.5
Class: NORMAL




My Weight Chart:



BL's Diary: http://www.minimins.com/lighter-life-forum/27465-blonde-logics-stream-consciousness-diary.html
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bexnkev

Hi BL, hope you are ok? Sorry to hear your neck has been bad! Glad to hear that your eating adventure has improved!! I've been toodling along nicely... I think I had too much salad last night!!! but it was lovely and I did leave some of the tuna steak which I felt was a little large!! I did have less salad tonight, cut it up in a cereal bowl (still seemed too much but ah well). Tonight I ate seafood medley with a salad of rocket, lettuce, cabbage, celery and herbs plus a red chilli and a green chilli... it kinda blew my head off!! My lips are still tingling but it was lovely! Got company tomorrow so I think I might have marinaded chicken... looking forward to that!! I haven't wobbled yet!!! Sure I will though!! (Sorry for putting such a big post on YOUR adventure!! still so excited!!)
Hope your weekend is great

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Starting weight 24st 4lbs or 340lbs - 22/11/07

A total of 5 stone 6lbs lost in foundation





Target - 11 stone lost - busted 12/08/08
Target - under 13 stone -busted 26/08/08
Target - 12 stone lost - busted 30/09/08!!
Into RTM - 30/09/08
Target - half my original body weight - Busted 07/10/08
Target - under 12 stone

Kaalin

Hi ladies...sorry if I'm gate-crashing. So glad you're both getting on so well. I have had a great couple of days rainbow trout, salmon and chicken with some herbs for flavour and a salad of rocket and watercress with a tiny bit of balsamic vinegar! Delicious!!! Anyway, will stop writing in your space BL. Hope you have a great weekend xx

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Blonde Logic

Ladies - write on here as much as you like!

I would say more, but I am going to bed. HAve had a really reallllly rough night with my neck - worst it has ever been I can barely even swallow its so painful. I have been crying for the last hour - just so tired of hurting. It hurts every day anyway - but this - well, this is beyond torture. I have taken three codeine - and one muscle relaxer - and nothing. No joy whatsoever, I can't raise my head - have to life it off the pillow with my hands. Oh I am having a right old pity party I am..... but..... owwwwwwwwwww

This is SO not how I had envisioned myself feeling when I lost all my weight. Just sh*tty timing this whole bloody diagnosis.


ugh. really feeling pathetic now. lol

nite nite ladies will wrtime more tomorrow.

xx

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Began LL on 8-1-08:

281 pounds (20 stone)
Size 26/28 BMI: 44.7
Class: Morbidly Obese

Completed Foundation on 29-09-08

154 pounds (11 stone)
Size 10/12/14 BMI: 24.5
Class: NORMAL




My Weight Chart:



BL's Diary: http://www.minimins.com/lighter-life-forum/27465-blonde-logics-stream-consciousness-diary.html
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laststraw

((((((BL))))) So sorry to hear of your pain. Really hope you feel better soon.x

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Foundation: 02/09/08 - 26/10/08
Total loss: 12.5kg/ 27.5lb

RTM: 27/10/08 - 24/11/08
Total loss: 3kg/6.6 lb Own RTM plan

Goals achieved:
- Maintain healthy body weight: 58 - 62 kilos (9 stone 2lbs - 7 lbs)
- Looking good in size 10 jeans
- Cycling 17 miles
- Running 5 miles

Goals to achieve:
- Cycle 30 miles and run 7 miles
- Make and complete daily plan with reward
- Start swimming lessons in January

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bexnkev

Hi BL... I really hope your pain is more under control today!!! sending hugs your way

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Starting weight 24st 4lbs or 340lbs - 22/11/07

A total of 5 stone 6lbs lost in foundation





Target - 11 stone lost - busted 12/08/08
Target - under 13 stone -busted 26/08/08
Target - 12 stone lost - busted 30/09/08!!
Into RTM - 30/09/08
Target - half my original body weight - Busted 07/10/08
Target - under 12 stone

Blonde Logic

Hi Bex - thank you. Unfortunately its no better, and slighlty worse. Just taken 2 tramadol. Hope that helps - codeine did nothing for it last night. Guess I should start upping my psylllium to counter the pain meds.

I just feel really rough. And my head feels soooo heavy. Wish I could take it off for a while.

But thanks hon.

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Began LL on 8-1-08:

281 pounds (20 stone)
Size 26/28 BMI: 44.7
Class: Morbidly Obese

Completed Foundation on 29-09-08

154 pounds (11 stone)
Size 10/12/14 BMI: 24.5
Class: NORMAL




My Weight Chart:



BL's Diary: http://www.minimins.com/lighter-life-forum/27465-blonde-logics-stream-consciousness-diary.html
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bexnkev

Really sorry to hear that BL... I hope the tramadol do more good... bless you... perhaps the doc can give you something stronger for times like this!!! It's a nightmare!! My Mum suffers from nerve problems in her neck and back and has had surgery once already...I've seen the pain she suffers!! I'm sure there is something they can give you to control the pain better... as a former dispenser... I know there is!! Take care x

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Starting weight 24st 4lbs or 340lbs - 22/11/07

A total of 5 stone 6lbs lost in foundation





Target - 11 stone lost - busted 12/08/08
Target - under 13 stone -busted 26/08/08
Target - 12 stone lost - busted 30/09/08!!
Into RTM - 30/09/08
Target - half my original body weight - Busted 07/10/08
Target - under 12 stone

Blonde Logic

Well, the dark cloud that is my neck pain has finally started to lift. A welcome relief.

As a result of being on pain meds all week, I have been constipated all week. This showed up on the scales and I gained nearly two pounds!! lol I knew I was going too be up - I could just feel it in my body. I know its not for eating because I ate very little due to the pain involved when swallowing. But was still a bit dissappointing in that I don't have a true value for what week 1 was all about. But next week should catch me up.

I have discovered Littel Gem lettuce through all of this and I love it. They are like mini romaines. So I have thoroughly been enjoying salad. More then the protein. And today I am so excited because I can have a red bell pepper - which is something I have been longing for for months!! And oh, broccoli and cauliflour....I love all verg raw, so that will not deter me. I am going to play with some yogurt for a dip.

So, all things considered, I am very happy how week one has gone. There was no real hunger pangs which I feared,and smaller portions were more then adequate - again a relief.

Also relieved that while it has been such a hard week physically, not once did I think about having a little extra for a "treat" to make me feel better, etc. Food never entered my thoughts. Very chuffed with that.

Roll on week3 - APPLES - oh my god - I can't WAIT for nect week. FRUIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Cool stuff.

Thanks again for all your sympathy and support these past few days....its really been rough but you all helped me to at least keep smiling.

XXX

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Began LL on 8-1-08:

281 pounds (20 stone)
Size 26/28 BMI: 44.7
Class: Morbidly Obese

Completed Foundation on 29-09-08

154 pounds (11 stone)
Size 10/12/14 BMI: 24.5
Class: NORMAL




My Weight Chart:



BL's Diary: http://www.minimins.com/lighter-life-forum/27465-blonde-logics-stream-consciousness-diary.html
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bexnkev

Hi BL, glad you are starting to feel better... the weight will show next week. I have had a good week but I am struggling with portion sizes... I guess I still have a greedy streak!!! It's something I'm gonna have to deal with!! but at least I recognise that there is a problem!! Enjoy ya day and catch up soon

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Starting weight 24st 4lbs or 340lbs - 22/11/07

A total of 5 stone 6lbs lost in foundation





Target - 11 stone lost - busted 12/08/08
Target - under 13 stone -busted 26/08/08
Target - 12 stone lost - busted 30/09/08!!
Into RTM - 30/09/08
Target - half my original body weight - Busted 07/10/08
Target - under 12 stone