Needing support and encouragement - STW about to be ordered
Hello, I apologise in advance if I go on a bit
My name is Charlie and I am seriously in need of losing a ton of weight. I have always been overweight but it has got to the point where I have reached my heaviest ever (even heavier than when I was in the last stages of pregnancy).
I feel so uncomfortable, my self esteem is at an all time low and I am embarrassed by how I look. My friends and family often see me as big and bubbly, but inside I am cringing. I put on a front for everyone. I want to be happy :(
I have tried (and failed) at every diet under the sun, but have finally reached breaking point where I really need to do something about this. My GP was worse than useless when I went for help, so went away and put on more weight instead:confused:
My husband is always telling me he loves me whatever size I am, but at 18 stone 3 pound I don't see how he can even bare to look at me. I try very hard to not let him see me naked and our sex life has all but disappeared as I feel so gross and don't want him touching me. I am snoring dreadfully and he has told me I stop breathing sometimes. Really don't want sleep apnoea on top of everything else
I tried CD about 3 years ago and managed to lose about 3 stone over about 4 months and felt great but struggled with lack of food. I have spent time researching other VLC diets and have come across STW. From what I understand you have 3 shakes and a low carb meal, is this right?
I have always struggled to lose weight, even when sticking to an eating plan. Had my thyroid tested, but GP said results were within normal parameters. Was hoping I could use that as an excuse for not shifting the weight, but obviously not!!!! I am so tired all the time (don't think it probably helps I work full time nights, I have done this for years now) and am hoping that by shifting the excess weight I will get more energy.
I am rubbish at exercising (and I hate it) but do try to cycle a little and love gardening. Really hoping that STW will work for me. From reading what I have written, has anyone else felt the same? IS STW right for me? Can I have 3 shakes and a meal or should I just cut out food totally? I am quite a social person and found the no food with CD a real problem as we often have people over for dinner or go to friends and we had to stop that whilst I was doing CD.
It is 1st Sept and D-day. As of midnight I am cutting out the rubbish from my diet, eat healthily and going to reduce my intake right down with the aim of commencing STW.
Advice would be greatly appreciated. Once again, sorry for going on. Was good to write it all down. Didn't really realise how rubbish I had been feeling