I've battled all my teens into my adulthood with my weight. My mother had an eating disorder and growing up watching her binge or starve was so hard and has caused so many of my own demons. But I want to break the cycle, I now have children of my own and I don't want them to be like me. I want them to be healthy and well. I need to change, not only for me, but for my family, for their futures ... this has to be the last time I do the yo-yo dance. I can do it .... I will do it ....
I started my mission again today - Veg Soup, Choc Shake, Chilli with cucumber, lettuce & green pepper + Lemon bar. 3 litres of water, 2 sml coffees (milk from allowance) and 1 cup of green tea.
How did I feel - tired, lethargic, couldn't concentrate at work, edgy with the children .... but I know that this is a carb withdrawl ... I binged heavily over the weekend, secretly eating.
How am I going to feel tomorrow - I expect pretty much the same as today, but knowing that I have made that all important start to the life that I want, that I deserve and most importantly that my children should have.
What do I wish for ... ketosis would hurry up and kick in .... and that I get use to the water intake and not have to go to the loo every 5 mins !
One day at a time ... here's to a good day tomorrow ! x