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HappyBunny2013

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I really hope that this diary will one day have loads of pages and be filled with successes because I'm utterly miserable at the moment, food brings me no comfort whatsoever despite what I might tell myself to excuse myself from whatever plan, diet, lifestyle change etc.

I've always got some excuse up my sleeve and I'm just so fed up, I'm worth more than the way I'm treating myself with rubbish food and no exercise. I've such a huge amount of weight to lose that I'm just going to say 5 stone (still a massive amount to lose, but better than the 9 or 10st I should ideally lose!)

I will look more like me when I've 5 stone gone, I actually don't recognise myself anymore. I used to be feminine and confident now I just feel like a huge big frump and I look a good ten years older than I am. It's gone so bad I'm hiding away from more and more people because of how big I've gotten. In fact, it's the perfect time to start because I don't want to socialize right now or go out for meals etc.

I feel very hesitant to even say "I'm starting in the morning" because I've said it so many times before!
 
Hi happy bunny.. Have you stated today? I started on Tuesday so far so good.
felt bad reading your post. I have felt like you. I've nvr had 9 stone to lose but at my heaviest I think I got to 15st10. That was horrible for me as I was always a size 8/10. I also became a recluse. Never saw evn my cousins or aunties. Never went to asda etc. avoided the outside like plague. I know how awful n lonely it can feel. Just tell urself u will do this and u want to do this. It's a choice that u have made. No1 is forcing u. U just have to stick to it. U will lose the weight.
I'm about 12.11 now still far away from where I want to be but I will get there. I don't feel happy being big and I can't settle for buying size 14 clothes and think I look awrite.
Just think in 6 months time u will be completely diff inside and out.
Best of luck to you!! Xxxx
 
Thanks for your reply and well done on your loss, it must feel great knowing you're getting there.
I've just been getting bigger and bigger, I'm heavier than I was when I was 9months pregnant! I honestly don't know how I let this escalate so badly.

Forgetting about the physical and health aspects which are obviously huge, I just can't believe the affect it's had on my personalty. I know lots of heavy people who maintain a good social life, have loads of confidence (not put on at all) but I'm a different kettle of fish altogether.

I'm going to start tomorrow, something just clicked in me today, just like what you said I do actually have a choice in this! There's nothing but myself stopping me and the longer I chop and change between plans, the more weight I end up gaining! So this is it, I'm starting tomorrow and going to do everything I can to motivate myself!
 
That's great hun. I feel for you. I know what it's like to feel so depressed and just hopeless. It's a horrible feeling. Like a big black cloud over you nothing makes it go. U seem ok for a couple of hours but then it comes back. Ur weight is doing this to u and I'm so glad ur going to do something about it.
I also don't know how some ppl can be ok with it still socialise go out etc. I was so different at my heaviest. Even now I don't want to really go out. For some people like u n me our weight is directly linked to our self esteem and when we are hating ourselves and berating ourselves for eating n eating it's a vicious cycle. Just tell urself enough. Life will be so much better wen ur slimmer. It won't be perfect but will easier to work on n get to where u want to be. Good luck and hope we can all do this!! Xxxx
 
Hi there and welcome to the mad house. We're all here for the same reason and I've found the support here fantastic in my last 3 weeks. My heaviest was 15st 2lbs but I managed to lose a few pounds last year and stayed around 14st 9lbs until October this year. I came back from Florida and deleted every photo I was in as I couldnt stand the sight. I'm only 5ft tall so the weight really shows on me. I decided at that minute that I was doing this diet and I wasnt stopping until I'm happy with how I look.
Best of luck and look forward to seeing your progress xx
 
Aw girls thanks so much! I really really hope I can do this, it would make the world of difference to my whole life.

So here we are, day 1 officially underway! I've got no social commitments coming up and I feel so rubbish in myself that even if I did I wouldn't want to go. The *only* thing that can get in my way is food, boring junk food that I've eaten a million trillion times before.

I've got so many reasons I need this so I have to get on with it and enjoy the ride!
 
Whenever you feel that you can't do this, come back and read what you've put here and remind yourself why you're doing it xx
 
RIGHT, in the interest of honesty and because I want to start as I mean to go on and because I'm more determined than ever to fill this diary up and start losing weight ASAP, I'm going to confess to having a binge after talking myself around (it's my birthday next week so I convinced myself that I'd have one last hurrah because I'll be missing my birthday)

Soon after I started though I literally cleared all my presses of rubbish, I've read loads of success stories and jewel I've just read that you lost a dress size in two weeks :eek: this has encouraged me immensly!

I need to stop convincing myself that all the weight will go back on too because that's a fear a lot of people have in vlcds but I've just read a couple of stories on different websites of people who have managed to, so it IS possible. Hopefully knowing this will stop me talking myself out of things!

I totally understand how I look right now and bets would be against me but I will do this!!
 
I've woken up feeling like a new person :D
I'm going to keep coming on here and reading all the motivating stories and looking at inspiring pictures!

I've gotten out all my unread books and will start being productive in the evenings rather than sitting here eating away miserably. Even watching YouTube tutorials on hair and makeup to start making the most of myself.

Instead of seeing this as a pain in the arse I need to start seeing it as a great excuse to have a complete break from food, which I desperately need, and to start focusing on all the millions of benefits. Instead of turning down invitations to nights out or meeting up with friends and sitting in eating instead, I'll know I'm bettering myself and preparing myself to actually start living again!
 
That sounds really positive. Sometimes although it's horrible to feel you've hit rock bottom it can really motivate you through the tough few days of this diet. It is a huge relief to have the calm if you've been chaotic about food. If you stick with it the results are quick and amazing. We put on weight quickly when we stop taking care of ourselves so well done for making you a priority again and taking back control. Enjoy!
 
How has today gone for you? You sounded very positive in your last post which is great x
 
Hi girls and thanks for the lovely messages!

Oh I feel amazing, I honestly reached a new low last night when I realized I was sabotaging myself again. I felt hopeless and out of control and it was a devastating feeling, I wished I'd wake up with a new zest this morning and I really did!!
I've organised a nice big pile of clothes a size down that I'm so excited about getting into, maybe even by Christmas :eek: I need to focus on the small things rather than the big picture and the small things are getting me really excited :D
 
Glad ur feeling better. Just go for it. Only u can change things for urself. A quote comes to mind. It's not exact but something like.
'If you always do what you've always done you'll always get what you've always got'
I love that. It basically applies to any change in life we need to make. So simple. Yet implementing it is the hard bit.
Just stay focused and keep thinking you want more and you will get it. Amen :) xxx
 
Day 2 and going strong!!

I've just rooted out a couple of pictures of me 5 stone lighter to have handy for inspiration! The difference is amazing :eek:
I know I have more to lose but I'm solely concentrating on getting 5 off first and then maybe tackling the rest with the 5:2 diet just so that by the time all the weight is gone I've actually learned a new way of life if that makes sense.

Going to weigh in on Sundays and try not go near the scales in-between just so it's (hopefully) a pleasant surprise and something to stan focused on :D
 
Chubbymummy83 said:
Glad ur feeling better. Just go for it. Only u can change things for urself. A quote comes to mind. It's not exact but something like.
'If you always do what you've always done you'll always get what you've always got'
I love that. It basically applies to any change in life we need to make. So simple. Yet implementing it is the hard bit.
Just stay focused and keep thinking you want more and you will get it. Amen :) xxx
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I absolutely love this quote and have used it so many times for myself xx
 
Day 3 and feeling great!!
Definitely in ketosis woo hoo :D

Just need to keep myself focused now and keep my eye on the prize and keep reminding myself why I'm doing this and how amazing it'll feel when I get 5.stone off and also how it'll be less than 5 stone come Sunday when I weigh myself!

Hope everyone's doing well x
 
Good stuff! Keep in the zone. Try and think positive. It's all in the mind babe xx
 
Thanks guys!!

Day 4 now and really in the zone now, little bit worried as I had quite bad pain in my side, kidney area last night and it's still there today but less painful but still constant. I can't imagine it being diet related when I'm only on it 4 days but I do think it might be a bad kidney infection so I wonder if I go to the doc should I tell IOS I'm on this, I'd rather not to be honest!!

Other than that I'm feeling really positive!
 
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