I'M FAT. I won't sugarcoat it because i'll eat that too.
I just logged into this for the first time in about a year and the first thing I did was look back at my previous posts. I've had so many attempts at weightloss that i can't remember one from another and seeing it in black and white is incredibly depressing.
Anyway - this time there'll be no massive declaration of this being THE LAST TIME. I know it won't be easy and i'll have ups and downs. However, I have promised myself that i will do my best and stop dicking about with my body and health. Last night i weighed myself and found that i am now 18 stone. Although I've become so used to hating myself and how i look and becoming used to my constant failures to resolve it, I have to admit that seeing my weight in a whole new, all time high bracket stung like crazy. It shocked me into doing something and the box of Slim and Save i've had, discarded in the kitchen cupboard for the last 3 weeks, has come out and i'm 2 packs in with no urge to stuff myself stupid for once.
I'm taking it day by day and I have lots of goals to aim for. But right now i am seriously worried about my health and mental wellbeing and I know that I have to do this in order to take ownership and take control of my life.