emmaedes
Gold Member
Hello,
I have been on this site many times before but not for a while.
A little background on me, i'm 24 and recently single. I was with my ex from when i was 19 for 4 years. When i met him i was a size ten and i would say very happy in my own skin, unfortunately as relationships do you get comfortable with takeaways and dinners out the weight piled on and before i knew it i was a size 14/16 and 15 odd stone. The relationship between me and my ex was not good, my confidence from the relationship is completely shot. While we were together i lost count of the amount of times i would see girls appearing on his phone, or on nights out etc. He was extremely selfish as well. We got a mortgage together i was 22 and he was 26.....i literally turned into a house wife, never went out, he was always out doing what he wanted, i would be cooking and cleaning and looking after our puppy. I would then eat to comfort myself and also i was lonely. I moved further away from my friends and family and his were 5 minutes away! Basically in the time i lived there i don't think i can say i ever felt happy, but because of the type of person i am i stuck at it not wanting to fail or give up. In the end enough was enough and on March 3rd i just said it's over, i can't do it anymore. I then moved back in with my mum on 6th March, since the day i left i can honestly say i haven't missed my ex at all. Now i'm giving so much background on this because it really has had an effect on me and my weight.
When i moved out i dropped a stone and a half without trying. For the past few months i have been on anti-depressants, we are still going through solicitors to have me removed from the mortgage, something that should be straight forward but unfortunately my ex has gone to a Family and Matrimonial lawyer instead of a property lawyer as i have. So, i am receiving letters that are in the tune of a divorce settlement and not a property, even to the point where he had asked to see the dog every sunday going forward.....yes ridiculous....seen as he never even walked the dog!! So, anyway its an extremely stressful time for me and very difficult something that i hate to know i'm having to go through when im just 24. I put my all into the relationship and didn't get it back. To sum it up i moved out on 6th March.....by the beginning of April he had a 21 year old staying there....surrounded by my stuff....i still own the flat....so shows what type of person he is. Whereas i have figured now i would rather wait forever than settle. That is my moto now.
So, where i am now, i am back working full time (took half days etc when on anti depressants because i wasnt sleeping at all) and i am now just wanting to get back to myself. I don't feel myself, i don't feel happy in my own skin.
I have done s&s briefly before but never stuck at it, now i am wanting to get rid of this weight and get it gone for good. I'm determined to do it for no one else other than myself.
Haven't weighed yet so will weigh at lunchtime for my start weight. I plan to do shake for breakfast, meal pack for lunch, protein meal with veggies for dinner and then a bar for after.
I am not going to lie to myself and pretend this will be easy, it will be hard, i will struggle but i HAVE to do this now. My goal is to feel the best i've ever felt on my 25th Birthday (May next year) and for that to mark my new chapter truly beginning.
I am very proud of myself when i think about it for leaving the relationship, no matter how hard its been, i've had to change my whole life completely but i'm not there .... therefore i am happier and better off.
Anyway, would be lovely to get to know people on the same journey! and for some much needed support!
Lots of Love
Emma x x x
I have been on this site many times before but not for a while.
A little background on me, i'm 24 and recently single. I was with my ex from when i was 19 for 4 years. When i met him i was a size ten and i would say very happy in my own skin, unfortunately as relationships do you get comfortable with takeaways and dinners out the weight piled on and before i knew it i was a size 14/16 and 15 odd stone. The relationship between me and my ex was not good, my confidence from the relationship is completely shot. While we were together i lost count of the amount of times i would see girls appearing on his phone, or on nights out etc. He was extremely selfish as well. We got a mortgage together i was 22 and he was 26.....i literally turned into a house wife, never went out, he was always out doing what he wanted, i would be cooking and cleaning and looking after our puppy. I would then eat to comfort myself and also i was lonely. I moved further away from my friends and family and his were 5 minutes away! Basically in the time i lived there i don't think i can say i ever felt happy, but because of the type of person i am i stuck at it not wanting to fail or give up. In the end enough was enough and on March 3rd i just said it's over, i can't do it anymore. I then moved back in with my mum on 6th March, since the day i left i can honestly say i haven't missed my ex at all. Now i'm giving so much background on this because it really has had an effect on me and my weight.
When i moved out i dropped a stone and a half without trying. For the past few months i have been on anti-depressants, we are still going through solicitors to have me removed from the mortgage, something that should be straight forward but unfortunately my ex has gone to a Family and Matrimonial lawyer instead of a property lawyer as i have. So, i am receiving letters that are in the tune of a divorce settlement and not a property, even to the point where he had asked to see the dog every sunday going forward.....yes ridiculous....seen as he never even walked the dog!! So, anyway its an extremely stressful time for me and very difficult something that i hate to know i'm having to go through when im just 24. I put my all into the relationship and didn't get it back. To sum it up i moved out on 6th March.....by the beginning of April he had a 21 year old staying there....surrounded by my stuff....i still own the flat....so shows what type of person he is. Whereas i have figured now i would rather wait forever than settle. That is my moto now.
So, where i am now, i am back working full time (took half days etc when on anti depressants because i wasnt sleeping at all) and i am now just wanting to get back to myself. I don't feel myself, i don't feel happy in my own skin.
I have done s&s briefly before but never stuck at it, now i am wanting to get rid of this weight and get it gone for good. I'm determined to do it for no one else other than myself.
Haven't weighed yet so will weigh at lunchtime for my start weight. I plan to do shake for breakfast, meal pack for lunch, protein meal with veggies for dinner and then a bar for after.
I am not going to lie to myself and pretend this will be easy, it will be hard, i will struggle but i HAVE to do this now. My goal is to feel the best i've ever felt on my 25th Birthday (May next year) and for that to mark my new chapter truly beginning.
I am very proud of myself when i think about it for leaving the relationship, no matter how hard its been, i've had to change my whole life completely but i'm not there .... therefore i am happier and better off.
Anyway, would be lovely to get to know people on the same journey! and for some much needed support!
Lots of Love
Emma x x x
