I just wanted to share a little story with you. I'm hoping that it MIGHT inspire a few people. Maybe it won't, I don't know.
I've always been fat and I mean always. As a 14/15 year old I was buying size 18/20. Within a couple of years I'd ballooned up to a 24. A tight 24. There are lots of reasons behind it but I won't bore you with those, they're not really what matter not.
About 3 years ago I bought a dress for my aunt's wedding. I'd been dieting, I did Cambridge and lost 3 stone, put some back on, was working to get it off by health eating. I didn't have long to buy a dress as I had to wait for my first pay slip from my summer job so I had to go and buy something that day. I tried debenhams, nothing fit. Next, TK Maxx, everywhere, nothing fit. Nothing in 'fat people shops' was suitable. So I went to Monsoon and tried on the only dress I could afford in the biggest size they had. It didn't really fit, it was tight, uncomfortable but it would have to do. So I wore the dress, I just stood up and at up very straight and tried not to breathe out too much! Nice then I've never worn it again.
I put on a couple of stone again. Worked it off with calorie counting and now S&S. I'm currently 3lbs away from my lowest ever adult weight. A weight I probably haven't been since I was 14/15. So I decided to try on the dress with, to be honest, a mind full of dread preparing myself for the disappointment. To my surprise, it fit. It doesn't 'just' fit. It fits comfortably. I can slide it on without tugging hard and without even undoing the zip. I can bend, slouch and even breathe like a normal person!
You're probably wondering what my point is so I'll hurry up and get to it! Never in my life have I felt beautiful. Never in my life have I felt proud of myself or my body. Never in my life have I really felt like I was worth something. Today I do. Today I've realised that losing weight and getting to where I want to be isn't a far off dream, it's not something that's just an unreachable and unattainable wish. Today I realised that I might not be where I want to be YET but I can sure as hell be proud of where I've come from. That was actually a very emotional moment for me. I've never felt those things. So if you're like me, if you think those things too, I just want to say to you that you can do it. It might take a while, there will be ups and downs but you can do it. If I can, anyone can.