So as the above states, i need to confess. I am soo ashamed and could cry whilst i type this but i cant cus im sat in work and doing it secretly!!
So today should have been Week 4 WI but i failed miserably sat/sunday and monday!! I stuffed my face full of all kinds of cr ap and i literally hate myself! Ive let myself down, my bf down and you lot!!
Today was a new day (id been off work but back today) so im getting back into the routine... I am really going to try today as i need to get back into ketosis before the weekend so i dont fail that again!!
I have a docs appt next friday so i need to be 100% between now and then in case they weigh me and i also want to stay 100% so i look good on V tines day for my BF!
I havent told an friends or my BF ive eaten cus i know theyll have something to say so ive been secretyl eating which is horrendous!! Why do i do this to myself, all i want is to be like everyone else and be healthy and look good! Cant even manage that cus im a big fat slob!!
Really want to do exercise but NO ONE will come with me! Im too unfit to do anything alone... just feel like im a complete failure and no one can help me out!