I'm having a really tough time. I just can't stop eating. It's all on plan but way too many calories. The worst thing is, I know what I'm doing, I can hear Dr Beck talking to me every time I reach for something but my rebellious child is completely out of control and I just keep eating. I know it's an emotional response, I know I don't need it, I feel shocking when I've eaten it, but I still can't stop.
I can hide all this in whatever way I want - perfect time to slow down the losses so my body can catch up, could do with a break, boredom, close to goal, whatever you want to call it - but it's just not true. I think there is a link with receiving compliments, I've had so many of them recently and it's not something I'm used to or comfortable with - that's not to say it's not amazing to receive them, but it feels odd having people say such lovely things to me. I've also started to get people telling me I don't need to lose any more weight - not that it's got anything to do with anybody other than me at all, but I'm not yet into a size 14 and I'm still in the obese bmi category, so clearly I do still need to lose more.
I'm kind of at a loss of how to get that control back again. Never thought this would be an easy journey and this year so far has been a real test of emotions - but I know all that and can't hide behind those excuses anymore - I need some assistance - or some superglue for my mouth