Thread: I want.... ♫♥♫ Addibelle's diary ♫♥♫

Started Slimming World in October 2010 and lost 3 1/2 stone by the new year. Until March/April time I lost 6 1/2 lbs so never reached the 4 stone mark.
Then as of April I lost it. I have put on nearly a stone. I will check in the morning and go from there as I couldn't weigh this morning.

Yesterday was my 24th birthday.
On my last birthday I weighed over 21stone and I am now about 18stone so I have achieved my goal of being slimmer by my next birthday. Again, this year, I want to be slimmer by my 25th.

I don't expect miracles (anymore). My weight loss was quick and easy between October 2010 and December 2010. Then it slowed and I lost interest. I am over that. A pound a week is healthy and manageable and I can do that. I will do that. And I will be happy with that!

I was on track with my points today and I intend on doing this every day from now on! I know I will make mistakes and slip up but I will do my absolute best.

I want to be happy.
I want to start a family which I wouldn't/couldn't do at this size.
I want to feel good when my huband wants to take me out.
I want to not sneak in an extra bag of crisps or bar of chocolate when he takes the dog out or goes for a shower.
I wanna say "No" in work when they ask if I want sweets or buns.
I want to cook my food, its always nicer anyway!
I want to be active and to not have to get my husband to do anything.
I want to walk into work not sweaty and tired from the 10 minute walk from the train station to the office.
I want to not have to ask my husband to leave for work early to bring me in to avoid this walk.
I want to feel confident going shopping.
I want to feel confident going for that promotion in work and not think they think I look lazy because I am fat.
I want to not BE lazy, because I am.
I want to prove myself right, that I have the strength to do it.
I want to say "Thanks" when people comment on my weight loss and not say "Well I still have a long way to go"
I want to wear the cute dresses in the window.
I want to not have to wear the bin bags because they don't make clothes properly for larger people.
I want to not look to food for comfort and to improve my mood or to reward myself.
I want to not have achy knees and back because I am too big for my bones.
I want to not have to worry about the bed breaking again under my weight.
I want to believe that my wonderful husband could love someone like me and find me attractive.
I want to be someone that I think is good enough for him.

I want to do this.

Breakfast: Scrambled egg & 3 slices of lean bacon

Lunch: SW curry with lots of veg and cous cous (1)
Snack a jacks (4.5)

Dinner: SW curry with lots of veg and pasta
Mayo (4)

Snacks: Wotsits (5)
Kiwi
Apple
Fibre Plus Bar (HEB)
Milk (HEA)

Syns: 14.5


I know I need to up my fruit and veg. A lot.
Thats the type of thing I dont think about til I see it written down.
Will work on that tomorrow!

Breakfast: Porridge (HEB 1 & 5syns). Milk (Hea 1/2). Banana.

Lunch: SW curry and rice. Wotsits (5)

Dinner: SW curry and pasta with salad, Mayo (5) and cheese (Hea 1/2)

Snacks: fibre plus bar (heb 2) Quorn chicken slices. Muller light.

Syns: 15

Finished my batch if curry. Finally. Hehe.

For yesterday.

Breakfast: Porridge. (heb & 5) milk (Hea)

Lunch: Rice and lots of mixed veg with soy sauce.

Dinner: Bacon and onion rosti's with mushy peas and big salad. Mayo (4)

Syns: 9

Whoop! Rosti's were sooo good too. Put bacon, onion, garlic salt, black pepper, salt and chives in. Soo yummy!! And didnt snack all day. Yay.

Grr. Slipped a bit on syns today.

Breakfast: porridge heb and Hea and banana

Lunch: pasta with veg and passage and bacon

Dinner: potatoes&butter (2), chicken breast, salad, veg and sauce (4) Mayo (2)

Snacks: ice lolly (2) melon banana kiwi 2 ryvita 1 tea spoon of seriously strong cheese and 2 teaspoons of branston pickle. Have no idea how many syns in the last bit. It was a moment of weakness. I will flex it and try to only have 10 over the next few days.

\Didnt do this over the weekend as I was celebrating getting a promotion in work and was rewarding myself with food.
Old habits die hard, right?

So back to it.

Monday:
Breakfast: Banana & Porrdige (HEA&HEB)
Lunch: Pasta with veg, bacon and tomato-y sauce
Dinner: Pasta with veg, bacon, scrambled egg and salad.
Snacks: Fibre Plus (5.5) Pasta mix (6.5) Caramel Coins (3)
Syns: 15 - could have been a wee bit more as the pasta mix was pretty bad.

Oh well. Better day today! =)

Tuesday
Breakfast: Scrambled Egg, Tomatos and Strawberries after.
Lunch: Pasta with veg, bacon, scrambled egg.
Dinner: Bacon & Onion rostis, salad, mushy peas, mayo (1)
Snacks: Fibre plus bar (HEB) Choc (2) Hot chocolate (HEA & 2)
Syns: 5

Going to an evening do of a wedding today after work and wanna have something nice at it so trying to go east on syns for the week!

Originally Posted by allie1904

Helllo Again!

Good Luck xx

Helloooo! =)
I'm back at it now hehe.
You too, although you hardly need it with how well you have done!! xx

The wedding food was bad..but so so so good!
I had good start to the day then cause I knew I would be having bad stuff I went nuts. So,

Wednesday:
Breakfast: Cup a soup, pottier (Hea & b)
Lunch: leftover rosti's, salad and mushy peas.
Dinner 6 crackers with cheese and branston pickle on it. Oh dear

Then at the wedding evening do:
Bucket of chips and battered fish with ketchup.
2 buns and a piece of cake.
Day was a write off.

Hopefully I have time to take control before Mondays weigh in and maybe get things going in the right direction. Was so surprised and delighted at my 4lb loss last week. But I will always be happy even with a 1lb. Despite my few bad days I'm still gonna aim for the 1lb!

Aim high! Hehe

So tired now. Didn't even dance!
Night xxxx

Hi.
I am reading your diary with great interest.
You are doing well just try hard not to fall into your old habits of food as a reward unless it is a free or syn-able food reward.

I only say that because it is what I used to do and I fell off the wagon big time. I am not criticizing you at all I think your weight loss to date is fantastic.

See you later

hugs xxx

Originally Posted by fillymum

Hi.
I am reading your diary with great interest.
You are doing well just try hard not to fall into your old habits of food as a reward unless it is a free or syn-able food reward.

I only say that because it is what I used to do and I fell off the wagon big time. I am not criticizing you at all I think your weight loss to date is fantastic.

See you later

hugs xxx

Thank you for the support.
I really need it at the minute.
Having yet another bad day today, just can't seem to make it click in my head that only I can control what goes in or out!
Don't mind me. Just having a bad day.

So, just back from lunch.
Because of the wedding last night I didnt have anything to bring with me today.
Decided to go over to the shop to get pasta n sauce. It exploded in the microwave and I spent half my lunch cleaning it up.
Went back over to the shop and got a "salad".
Got back and it was 5 pieces of lettuce with a bucket of coleslaw over it.
I only had a few minutes of my lunch left and was so hungry that I had to eat it.

I feel like such a failure.
Bad day thats just getting worse.

Sorry, if anyone actually reads this, for ranting and getting on like a brat. I know its my fault and mine alone. I have to say no the bad stuff nand not make excuses.

Okay; damage control.

Hubby has syn free burgers out for us for tea.
Will have them with a big salad and drink lots of water.
Il do a Zumba session or Just Dance session on the wii/xbox then il go for a big walk with hubby. Try to burn off the 234923894729847 calories that was in the mayo I had haha.

love the way you've decided to turn your day round - a weddings a wedding - your supposed to have a blow out - take it as that and blow it away out your head :-)

Dxx

ps a good microwave free lunch option is the ainsley harriot cous cous's (not sure where that apostrophe should be) - only need to boil a kettle and they are super filling - i usually put a spoon of philly through it too - makes it nice and creamy and only a couple of syns - always have these in my desk drawer for emergency lunches

Oh no!! I actually had one of those in my drawer too!! Agh!!!!
Where were you at 1pm hahaha =p

Thanks for the tip! I must remember that. I has a mugshot and porridge with me too.
It's like I WANT to fail hahaha!

Oh come on!!! If you wanted to fail you wouldn't get the rage about it!! :P