Thread: Rozie's

Hello Everyone,

Some of you may recognise the username- as you can see from my statistics I am not a new member.

I have been a part of the SW realm twice now, however I fail to break through my 3 stone barrier.

I have my old diary, but feel like I should creat a new one:

a) to attract new members to my diary
b) to start afresh
c) to get rid of the negativity of my old diary.

My name is Rozie- i live in middlesex and have been for nearly 5 years ago. I am married, to a wonderful and supportive husband but no children.

I started SW originally online- there was no light bulb moment. I remember thinking, I need to lose weight and I need to lose it now.. I had seen SW in the newspapers various of times so i thought why not join?.. I was very good at the weight loss malarky. Between March 2011- September 2011 i lost more or less 3 stones.

I then had a big operation that has changed my life. I had 2 cysts removed- I was bed bound for 4 weeks- I now have chronic back pain which i have been suffering with since November 2011. It has taken an affect on me emotionally, physically and psychologically.

I rejoined SW after the op- i had put on a stone when i thought i'd join a class this time and loss about a stone or so but lost my way again... the class was crap, my consultant was rubbish and again, i put on weight.

I started my weight loss journey at 22 stone 10.
Currently I am 21 stone 1.
Ive been at my lowest at 19 stone 7.


My back pain is psychologically very draining- it has affected me so much that i have becomed depressed. I went to the doctors this week and she gave me a prescription of anti depressants- citra- something or another. But i refuse to take them until its the last thing I need to do.

My body feels like it has weights at the end of my arms and legs- i cannot get out of bed. I went from working full time to part times (3 days a week) and even that it difficult. I worry about losing my job because i have been off work because of my back so much. I worry about my weight but i cannot seem to get control of my eating. I feel sick and tired all the time. I feel so sad and so teary that i worry that my relationship with my husband will be ruined.

But i know that losing weight will lift my mood- will ease my back pain- and will make me happy.

I want to become a mother- but even that doesn't arouse any motivation.

I want to be a good wife- but even that doesn't spur me to lose weight.

I want support. I want love. I want.. I want something, like a light switch to go off in my head and for things to be NORMAL again.

I want to be my old happy chirpy self.

I want to be thin. To feel beautiful. To feel competent.

So- I decided to go to a hypnotherapist to help me lose weight- I have had my first session with her out of 6. She is going to be doing the hynoband on me so hopefully that will help me reduce my portions.

I have been to the doctor who has given me the medication- and if i do feel like i am not getting better i will take them.

And I am joining class again.

My local class' consultant has changed, and it was fate- she emailed me the day that my back pain specialist told me that the only way my back pain will go now is with weight loss. So i've been emailing her and decided to join class again.

Today i prepared the weeks meals etc SW style and will start my SW journey again tomorrow, although obviously it was officially start when i go to class on tuesday.

I need more support than I have ever needed- emotionally support more than anything. My self confidence is at rock bottom at the moment (and if you were to ever have the pleasure of meeting me lol) you would never think that. I have issues that will be worked through with my therapist hopefully which should bring my mood up, but the medication is always there if i think there is no way out.

I am hoping that you will stay with me on this journey- again. For those of you who have been there for me before- thank you. Without your support i wouldnt have even lost the weight i did.

But for those who do not know me- I am a nice person, just a little sad at the moment.

Here's hoping to a dramatic change in my weight loss hey?

Love of love.
Rozie xxx

Hello Rozie, good to have you back hun, I can really identify with all you have been and are going through, from the cysts...I had polycistic ovaries and while most people don't even know they have them, I was in constant pain for many years until I had my Oopherectomy..which was a god send and thankfully cured that. I too have really bad back pain after an accident and I have days when I am really good and really able to do lots and days that I can do very little or nothing. And I have have had severe depression, I did take anti depressants for a short while but they didn't help so I too went to see a therapist, which I found helped, but my biggest healer was talking about my problems, even now I do it ...on my diary I write down everything I feel, not because I want everyone to know but because it helps me to get it out of me and I talk and talk to anyone who will listen because for me that is by far the best healer.
I am so happy to see you back my lovely and I will be here every step of the way, not every day as that isn't possible for me, but always at the end of a message and I will pop by as often as I can ...glad you're going back to class, hope it really works for you this time, I couldn't live without my class it's my lifeline ...and one final thing you can (we can) do this sweetie, just keep on trying we will get there in the end xxxxxx

Morning (just) Rozie, hope all's well with you and yours hun, Happy Monday xxxxxx

Hey, I'm just popping in to subscribe.
I cannot begin to understand the pain you must have gone through with your back, but I'm here to support you in whatever way I can.

Originally Posted by Harebell Fairy

Here to stay :-)

Hello darling,

How are you? I was thinking about you the other day. Was going through my phone book in my mobile and you're still there hehe.

And thank you *hugs* it really means a lot to have you here xxx

Originally Posted by Lily42uk

Hello Rozie, good to have you back hun, I can really identify with all you have been and are going through, from the cysts...I had polycistic ovaries and while most people don't even know they have them, I was in constant pain for many years until I had my Oopherectomy..which was a god send and thankfully cured that. I too have really bad back pain after an accident and I have days when I am really good and really able to do lots and days that I can do very little or nothing. And I have have had severe depression, I did take anti depressants for a short while but they didn't help so I too went to see a therapist, which I found helped, but my biggest healer was talking about my problems, even now I do it ...on my diary I write down everything I feel, not because I want everyone to know but because it helps me to get it out of me and I talk and talk to anyone who will listen because for me that is by far the best healer.
I am so happy to see you back my lovely and I will be here every step of the way, not every day as that isn't possible for me, but always at the end of a message and I will pop by as often as I can ...glad you're going back to class, hope it really works for you this time, I couldn't live without my class it's my lifeline ...and one final thing you can (we can) do this sweetie, just keep on trying we will get there in the end xxxxxx

Oh Lilly...

I had a wee tear in my eye when I read your message. First of all, thank you for welcoming me back hehe

I was the opposite with the cysts- I had absolutely no pain before and all the pain after!

The back pain is crippling as you fully well know. It's just the worse pain ever. And like you said, it's draining. I feel so tired because of it.

I still had the prescription for the anti depressants. I've told myself that I'm going to wait another month and see how I feel- ill have done a month of SW for eating better/ no junk etc and that will give enough time for my body to have detoxed all the nasty junk food I've been eating. It'll also mean (fingers cross) ill have lost at least 7 lbs so my back pain may reduce even if its a little bit.. But if I'm still feeling really bad ill go on the meds.

I was taken to emergency last week because I had very bad chest pains and palpitations. Doctors did all the tests but said it was nothing heart related and that it was due to stress. The chest pain was like a stabbing pain in my chest. Was an awful feeling..

And is happily take the meds to see if they helped but I'm worried about the side effects- I don't want to take any more time off work..

Originally Posted by Lily42uk

Morning (just) Rozie, hope all's well with you and yours hun, Happy Monday xxxxxx

Happy Monday love xx

Originally Posted by lauralozzle

Hey, I'm just popping in to subscribe.
I cannot begin to understand the pain you must have gone through with your back, but I'm here to support you in whatever way I can.

Hello Laura thank you so much for subscribing look forward in getting to know you more soon xxx

So- Monday afternoon, at work on my lunch break.

Good start to the day so far... I made a load of stuff with hubby yesterday- kebabs, chicken tandoori, chicken and pepper curry, and veg and noodle soup.

Ill be doing EE because its just easy for me- but I might add a couple of Red days just to reduce the carb intake. But I'll see how it goes.

Monday 11 Feb 2013

Breakfast:
2 nimble toast (hex b)
2 boiled eggs
1 pint NAS squash

Lunch-
Mixed veg and noodle soup

Supper-
Kebabs
Boiled veg
Rice
Mayo light (3 syns)


Snack-
Blueberries
Pineapple
2 clementines
Apple
Banana

4 crackers (7 syns)
Philly light (part hex a)
Smoked salmon

Syns- 10
Water-2 litres


(Now if you see anything today that's wrong, let me know- I have done SW before but I'm sure things have changed. I have class tomorrow so ill be up to speeds with everything then)

Just good to see you back hun, missed you....I would stay off the meds if you possibly can I don't really think they help in the long run. You're right the sooner you start losing the weight the better you'll feel...after a disastrous year last year I put a st back on and boy can I feel it, so this year back on track and full steam ahead xx

Food looks good to me hun , Just add a few more syns and it'll be perfect xxxxxx

Hi I'm joining sw tonight so just joining a through threads for info

mmm. I love pineapple. It's so yummy! Wow, you're really prepared making all that food in advance. I should perhaps do that... lol. Your food looks great (although a few syns would be better!).

Originally Posted by Lily42uk

Just good to see you back hun, missed you....I would stay off the meds if you possibly can I don't really think they help in the long run. You're right the sooner you start losing the weight the better you'll feel...after a disastrous year last year I put a st back on and boy can I feel it, so this year back on track and full steam ahead xx

Food looks good to me hun , Just add a few more syns and it'll be perfect xxxxxx

Yeah I plan too- need control back on my life. I've been feeling so fuzzy.. Like I'm looking at me from above and haven't been able to recognise who I am so definitely will avoid them for as long as I can.

Originally Posted by Harebell Fairy

Fpod looks good hon. And as lily says, enjoy a few more syns x

Thanks love- gonna add a few syns as a treat later on.. Some sugar in my latte me thinks! Heehee x

Originally Posted by PinkieG

Hi I'm joining sw tonight so just joining a through threads for info

Hello

I hope your weight loss is steady and goes in the right direction xx

Originally Posted by lauralozzle

mmm. I love pineapple. It's so yummy! Wow, you're really prepared making all that food in advance. I should perhaps do that... lol. Your food looks great (although a few syns would be better!).

Hey Laura

I love pineapple too!! I really wanna eat some permison- have I spelt that right? But my local tesco doesn't have any..

The best thing that worked for me last time was preparation. If you're prepared you don't have the excuse of calling the takeaway for good because there's nothing at home to eat!

Monday 11 Feb 2013

Breakfast:
2 nimble toast (hex b)
2 boiled eggs
1 pint NAS squash

Lunch:
Mixed veg and noodle soup

Supper-
Kebabs
Boiled veg
Rice
Mayo light (3 syns)

Snacks:
Blueberries
Pineapple
2 clementines
Apple
Banana

4 crackers (7 syns)
Philly light (part hex a)
Smoked salmon

Syns:- 10
Water-2 litres

Updated today's diary with syns.


First day in a few weeks where I've felt good, really pleased about that.

Been reading the Thrive book as prescribed by my therapist.. And an amazing quote that I read and should be everyone's mantra:

Every day in every way my life is getting better and better- Coué

Oh I wanna sit and tell you all about my first day at group but its too late and I'm tired so ill publish me foodage and write about it tomorrow..

Tuesday 12 February 2013

Breakfast:
2 nimble toast (hex b)
Scraping of Philly light (part hex a)
2 boiled eggs
500 ml NAS squash

Lunch:
Mix veg and noodle soup

Supper:
Chicken kebabs
Mixed salad
Couscous
Fat free dressing
500 mls water

Snacks:
Banana
Apple
Clementine
Grapes
Blueberries
Belvita breakfast bar (11 syns)

Fluids total (including at work):
2 litres

Syns: 11

Originally Posted by Roziee

Oh I wanna sit and tell you all about my first day at group but its too late and I'm tired so ill publish me foodage and write about it tomorrow..

Tuesday 12 February 2013

Breakfast:
2 nimble toast (hex b)
Scraping of Philly light (part hex a)
2 boiled eggs
500 ml NAS squash

Lunch:
Mix veg and noodle soup

Supper:
Chicken kebabs
Mixed salad
Couscous
Fat free dressing
500 mls water

Snacks:
Banana
Apple
Clementine
Grapes
Blueberries
Belvita breakfast bar (11 syns)

Fluids total (including at work):
2 litres

Syns: 11

Oooh can't wait to read it, hope you've had a good day...food looks great xxxxxx

Hi Rozie found your new thread, glad to see you are on the right track, I am trying sw again but finding it hard to get back into it, we will have to support each other, we can do this lol. you are a lovely lady. Jane x