Hi.. My names cornishwed.. and Im a binge eater, secret eater, selfish -no-share- eater, picky eater, emotional eater, mama to one, wife to be and desperate to get back in my size 10s.
Im no stranger to slimmingworld, even though it feels like it right now. Back in 2008 I walked into my first SW class. I never believed it would work, but it did. A few months later I found myself here and classes and this forum became a huge part of my life. It was key to my success. In September 2009 I made it to Young Slimmer of The Year final 6 and I was a perfect size 10. Happy and healthy. I successfully maintained my weightloss and then, in the following September I got engaged, and shortly after found out I was carrying our first baby. It's be an incredible couple of years. Our beautiful daughter arrived August 2011 and I have struggled *understatement* with my weight since. I lost a stone or so in the months following her birth with a new sw class, but lost my way and although I re-joined at Christmas, I gave up two weeks later and now.. it's march and my eating is the worst it's been in a really long time, my clothes don't fit and emotionally- it's getting to me big time. It's time to sort it out. As my nicname suggests, the wedding was originally planned for next year, however we've decided to push it to 2015. So although it's an aim, my main focus is my old wardrobe and my old self back.
I've been on one awful, self -destruct binge for at least 3 weeks now. Truth be told I feel Ill from the amount of crap I'm shoveling in.I suffer from IBS- or atleast i did when I was bigger, it went when I lost the weight, and then it hit me like a tonne of bricks a few months back and eczema. I leave for holiday on Monday, but I can't go on like this and I can't face another week of chocolate, biscuits, and general rubbish. It's self catering, so I've done our food shop and prepared.. It's time! Anyone who is a binge eater will identify with the inability to stop consuming rubbish, even though we don't really want it. It makes no sense, does it?
anyways, enough rambling!
So here I am!
We leave for hols on Monday, and I have planned:
Monday: Burgers & Chips with balsamic salad.
Tuesday: Paprika chicken with wild rice and steamed veg
Wednesday: chilli con carni
Thursday: OH's birthday, so I expect we will eat out.
Friday: Home! Jacket spuds.
I've also picked up some gorgeous fruit, alpens, yogurts and hot choc sachets.
Im not expecting it to be plain sailing on holiday, but we'll see. I suspect I will need classes to keep on the straight and narrow but I work 11 hour days so this is tough. I think for aslong as I can I will do it from home, I have the up to date books and hopefully can tap into the wealth of knowledge from fellow minimins members ;-)
Wish me luck. I need to 'officially' weigh so I know my actually starting weight, my stats atm are a guess though i suspect most likely correct.