BED - Recovery Journey of Binge Eating Disorder

Skulldilocks

Skulldilocks

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BED - Recovery journey of binge eating disorder
I wrote a huge introduction but my computer decided to delete it all >.< so I guess I'll just keep it brief this time round.

  • My name is Lily. You may recognise me, as I've been here before.
  • I used to do Slimming World and lost 2.5 stone.
  • I quit due to mental illness and was diagnosed with BED. My consultant tried to help but I wanted to concentrate on my mental issues before piling it on her.
  • In just under a year, I have gained 4 stone due to bingeing and being off the plan and I am the heaviest I have ever been by far.
  • I have been seeing a private therapist for anxiety and depression since summer and things have improved immensely. I am no longer on any medication and feeling better
  • Now we've covered that, my therapist and I will be covering the emotional eating/food addiction side.
  • She wants to try Hypno band on me, but needs me to prove I can motivate myself before we do it.
  • I have joined a gym and have an induction on Thursday.
  • I will be rejoining Slimming World tomorrow with a friend
  • My old consultant has left and even though I love her and she was amazing, I want to rejoin as a NEW member with no expectations or talks or LAST time.
  • I don't feel I will ever be mentally at peace with myself until I get to a healthier weight. It currently effects my relationship with my boyfriend, my physical appearance, my health and more importantly - my relationship with MYSELF.


If there are any other BED former/current sufferers, I would love to be in touch and share journeys, as I have never met anyone else diagnosed.
I'm hoping I'm in the right frame of mind for it to happen now <3 Here is today's food. I know I don't start til tomorrow but this will be my first binge free day in a LONG time. I will need to be re-acquainted with certain foods' syn values as I know they change. I will also be using My Fitness Pal to log my food. My username is StrappingYoungLil

Tuesday EE Day:
Breakfast:
35g Shreddies (HEX B) with skimmed milk (HEX A)

Lunch:
Mugshot Mexican rice (1)
Apple (S)
Mullerlight toffee

Dinner:
Quorn burger (0.5) topped with cheese slice (1), 2 rashers of bacon, fat removed
SW chips
Onions in frylight (S)
Ketchup (1)

Drinks:
1x bottle of 7Up Free
1x Bottle of Pepsi Max
1x litre water

Total syns: 3.5​
 
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Glad to have a day on plan yesterday. Was mega hungry though. Just goes to show how much I've been eating lately when not on plan! I know I can eat more syns and snacks but I am pretty skint at the moment so can't afford other fruit or snacks atm. Joining group tonight, scary stuff! However I'm rejoining with one of my best friends. she lost 5 stone with SW before and wants to lose the last couple now with me :)
I got some bargain shopping done yesterday in Lidl. 2 whole chickens, 8 pork loins, 500g extra lean mince, 500g turkey mince, 2 chicken fillets and 10 eggs for £15!! Crazy stuff! Going to make the superspeed "Heinz" soup and mushy pea curry sauce at some point.

Wednesday EE Day:
Breakfast:
35g Shreddies (HEX B)
Skimmed milk (HEX A)

Lunch:
Mexican rice mugshot (1)
Mullerlight toffee
Apple (S)
Iced finger (6.5)
Dinner:
Chilli con carne with rice
(Extra lean mince, chopped toms (S), puree (S), garlic (S), chilli (S), mushrooms (S), peppers (S), onions (S), red kidney beans (S) ). a sprinkling of cheese (2)

Total syns: 9.5
 
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Right weigh in and rejoin done. Stats updated and starting pics taken (gags). Time to get on it! Going to the gym tonight will take it easy to start and just see what I can manage. Glad I joined when I did, 12 weeks of Christmas!
Currently mega skint so couldn't do a countdown and can't really buy anything in terms of snacks and fruit but still going to be as on plan as possible. :)

Thursday EE Day:
Breakfast:
35g Shreddies (HEX B)
Skimmed milk (HEX A)

Lunch:
Chilli con carne with rice
(EL mince, onions (S), mushrooms (S), peppers (S), chopped toms (S), Puree (S), garlic (S), chilli (S), red kidney beans (S) )
Apple (S)
Mullerlight vanilla

Dinner:
Chicken breast (S) stuffed with 25g cheese (5) and jalapenos (S), wrapped in bacon.
New potatoes in buttery frylight
Broccoli (S)
Ketchup (1)

Total syns: 6
 
A great start....well done! Stopping binge eating is so so hard. I look forward to sharing your journey with you :)
 
Kally88 said:
Hey Lily, here to sub :) so inspiring to see you being so honest about everything, good luck :) xx
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Thanks so much Kally. I used to have a diary on here before and I loved the community. I wanted to take a break from it because it started taking over my life but I feel I am a lot more in control now so fingers crossed :)
Still awaiting Ebay money so food is boring in some respects today. Fully aware of the lack of superfree but trying to make up for it today with superspeed curry sauce! Was going to make soup but didn't have time last night. This weekend will be a huge cooking fest!

Friday EE Day:

Breakfast:
2 slices 400g wholemeal toast (HEX B) with reduced sugar strawberry jam (1)
2x tea with skimmed milk (HEX A) and sweeteners

Lunch:
Cheese and broccoli pasta and sauce
Apple (S)
Vanilla mullerlight
Pepsi Max
Propercorn (4.5)

Dinner:
Tesco healthy living sausages (2)
SW chips
Curry sauce - mushy peas (SS), baked beans (SS), chopped toms (S), curry powder
Broccoli (S)
Mini milk (1.5)
Indulgence hot choc (3) with cream (0.5)

Total syns: 12.5
 
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*sarahlou87* said:
Hey Skulldilocks here to follow! I have heard of BED before. They thought that I had it before I was diagnosed with bipolar and ocd. Here to follow your journey :)
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Thanks :) I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression first but I was adamant there was more to it and finally go to see more of a specialist. Now I see a therapist and she believes I suffer with PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder) and this triggered the BED. all very confusing. I just want to get rid of all of them haha :) xx
 
I just turned down a glass of wine at work. We never get offered wine at work. WHAT IS HAPPENING AND WHY DID I Turn it down?! haha.

Here is the plan for tomorrow, will update later

Saturday EE Day:
Breakfast:
Bacon
Scrambled eggs
Beans (SS)
Onions (S)

Lunch:
Speedy tomato soup- tomatoes (S), baked beans (SS), carrots (S), pickled onion (S)
2x slices of toast (HEX B) topped with cheese (HEX A)

Dinner:
Sweet and sour pork - pork, tomatoes (S), peppers (S), onions (S), mushrooms (S), garlic (S)
Dried egg noodles
1/2 bag of Tesco Prawn crackers (5)
Aero white choc mousse (5)

Total syns: 10
 
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Skulldilocks said:
Thanks :) I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression first but I was adamant there was more to it and finally go to see more of a specialist. Now I see a therapist and she believes I suffer with PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder) and this triggered the BED. all very confusing. I just want to get rid of all of them haha :) xx
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Yeah mental health problems are so confusing I was diagnosed with a million different things before they finally pin pointed it. I'd love to get rid of mine too. But atleast they make us unique. :)
 
Food was as planned before and dinner was amazing . Feeling good :)
 
Today's food. I've already cooked off some Italian chicken and tomato soup and a whole chicken for next week :) off for a long walk with my mum and the dog this afternoon.

Sunday EE day
Breakfast:
2 healthy living sausages (2)
Scrambled eggs
Beans (SS)
2x toast (HEXB)

Lunch:
Speedy tomato soup - tomatoes (S), carrots (S), beans (SS), picked onions (S)
Apple (S)
Wotsit zombie fingers (4.5)

Dinner:
Chicken jalfrezi - chicken (S), onions (S), peppers (S), mushrooms (S), tomatoes (S), garlic (S), chilli (S)
Rice
Sharwoods mini naan (5.5)
Mini milk

Total syns: 13.5
 
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Skulldilocks said:
Today's food. I've already cooked off some Italian chicken and tomato soup and a whole chicken for next week :) off for a long walk with my mum and the dog this afternoon.

Sunday EE day
Breakfast:
2 healthy living sausages (2)
Scrambled eggs
Beans (SS)
2x toast (HEXB)

Lunch:
Speedy tomato soup - tomatoes (S), carrots (S), beans (SS), picked onions (S)
Apple (S)
Wotsit zombie fingers (4.5)

Dinner:
Chicken jalfrezi - chicken (S), onions (S), peppers (S), mushrooms (S), tomatoes (S), garlic (S), chilli (S)
Rice
Sharwoods mini naan (5.5)

Total syns: 12
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Amazing sounding food and body magic! Sounds like you have a lovely sunday planned! Enjoy!
 
Thank you, nice to meet you :)
Here's today's food, I'm starving for some reason today and work is manic!

Monday EE Day:
Breakfast:
Shreddies (HEX B)
Skimmed milk (HEX A)

Lunch:
Speedy tomato soup - carrots (S), tomatoes (S), baked beans (SS), pickled onions (S)
Apple (S)
WW vanilla yoghurt
Wotsit zombie fingers (4.5)
Gingerbread green tea

Dinner:
Chicken pasta bake -
chicken (S), tomatoes (S), onions (S), mushrooms (S), peppers (S), Leeks(S), garlic (S), cheese (HEX A) and pasta obvs
Aero white choc mousse (5)

Total syns: 9.5
 
Looking forward to weigh in tomorrow. Been fully on plan so no excuse not to have a big loss to start me off. Just got to make sure I don't get despondent if it isn't as much as I hope. I'm desperately avoiding my scales at home in case its different to the ones at group.

Tuesday EE day:
Breakfast:
35g Spooky shreddies (HEX B)
Skimmed milk (HEX A)

Lunch:
Italian chicken and tomato soup - tomatoes (S), onions (S), puree (S), chicken (S)
Apple (S)
Weight Watchers toffee yog
Wotsit zombie fingers (4.5)
Costa mini muffin (2.5)
2x gingerbread green tea

Dinner:
Herby pork loins
Cous cous
Roasted veg in garlic Frylight - onions (S), peppers (S), mushrooms (S), leeks (S)

Total syns: 7
 
Skulldilocks said:
Looking forward to weigh in tomorrow. Been fully on plan so no excuse not to have a big loss to start me off. Just got to make sure I don't get despondent if it isn't as much as I hope. I'm desperately avoiding my scales at home in case its different to the ones at group.

Tuesday EE day:
Breakfast:
35g Spooky shreddies (HEX B)
Skimmed milk (HEX A)

Lunch:
Italian chicken and tomato soup - tomatoes (S), onions (S), puree (S), chicken (S)
Apple (S)
Weight Watchers toffee yog
Wotsit zombie fingers (4.5)
Costa mini muffin (2.5)
2x gingerbread green tea

Dinner:
Herby pork loins
Cous cous
Roasted veg in garlic Frylight - onions (S), peppers (S), mushrooms (S), leeks (S)

Total syns: 7
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Good luck for weigh in today love :)
 
Thank you! I jumped on my WW scales at home this morning and was down 3.5lbs but really I'm hoping for more. I have no idea what the difference is between my scales and the group scales so kind of still as oblivious. I know I've been 100% on plan though so I deserve a good first loss!
Got a whole week til payday to get some fruit and veggies in though :(

Wednesday EE Day:
Breakfast:
2x Alpen light double choc bars (HEX B)
Apple
Small White hot choc with skimmed milk (6)

Lunch:
1/2 portion of Italian chicken and tomato soup - chicken (S), tomato (S), onions (S)
Vanilla WW yoghurt
Halloweenies choc biscuits (5)


Dinner:
Chicken and veg pasta bake
- chicken (S), tomatoes (S), onions (S), mushrooms (S), peppers (S), leeks (S) puree (S) and cheese (HEX A)

Total syns: 11
 
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