[No idea of how to keep a diary/food diary as never done one before...so bear with me!]
Dear diary -
This is the first time I have kept a weight loss diary - or any kind of diary - which seems a shame now because I think I think this would have been a good thing to do sooner. But better late than never
So far I have lost 23lbs on SW and feeling so much better for it. Ideally I would like to lose another 10-14lbs to get back to my pre-weight gain weight and size, but going to take it week at a time now (and with that loss at a time I hope) and stop when I feel I have hit a weight I am happy with, but more importantly that is healthy and maintainable. Plus, my boobs are a lot bigger than they were and haven't shrunk during the weight loss so to get to pre-gain weight will result in me being totally out of proportion!
It's not been easy and I really don't want to go back to how I was a few months ago because I've finally began to feel confidence in myself growing after having very little. I don't want to undo all my hard work - I don't think I can face doing this again after getting where I am today.
The past weeks have been the hardest. I've been having stomach issues and the doctor has, after weeks of testing for other things, diagnosed me with stress induced IBS so having to slowly adapt my diet to help with that which hasn't been easy as I eat a lot of fruit. I also need to toughen up to stop me feeling too stressed to help it too - I am either overly sensitive to things or bottle them up and neither is good. But I know that it's not easy to change a fundamental part of who you are and that it will take time, so until then bear with me!
However, this week at WI I finally had a good result - 2lbs loss, Club 10 and SotW!!! It was what I needed - I was feeling low having STS recently despite best efforts on the plan.
I'd like to lose at least 1lb this week, 2lbs ideally. But I had a bit of a blow out last night and had unknown synnage. But, I knew what I was doing and I did it by choice, so not going to beat self up about it. Instead I am going to just make up for it until WI this week and do some further damage control next week incase it lurks to get me later lol.
I need to get to T soon though so I can get some new clothes. I am between sizes again and it's either baggy pants or muffin tops atm! Neither is sexy!
Speak soon -