Thread: Crumble's Wipe The Slate Clean diary

Hi there!

I've always admired the bravery of those that write diaries on here, the struggles with the triumphs, so I've decided to toughen up and write my own.

I'm a teensy bit scared as I've found that after a good initial success I have generally always failed in my challenges in the long term and its embarrassing to think others might see, I'm used to eagerly beginning challenges, doing well to start and then slinking off after the second week hoping no one remembers me.

Well, today I got this strange feeling.. could it be described as 'fire in my belly' and I've decided to Wipe The Slate Clean, forget my last 30 odd years of failures and sort this thing out once and for all! I was fat at forty and I really don't want to be fat at fifty, so that gives me a couple of years to nail this.

So, my challenge I've set myself......

Lose weight via SW but..
*It must be healthy eating

*I need to work on a small budget, working my menu plans around lots of reduced price foods I buy. (I can stretch the budget enormously when it comes to meat/fish/fruit doing this)

* I want to include in my plan ways of socialising/having hols, days out/ afford non food treats on the cheap to stop me isolating myself and becoming withdrawn (a big problem for me which doesn't help in the long run in my weightloss journey).

* Need to find exercise that I can do with achy knee joints that limit my mobility somewhat.

Wow, that looks a load of wants. Hark at me, that one who never sees a challenge to the finishing line.

I do have a family that really want to help and DH and DS are joining me in SW. I do SW online and after losing several stones and then putting most of it back on, I think I'm ready to take this seriously and not get over confident this time.

Like many I have a real problem with comfort eating and the last few years have been stinkers but things have eased somewhat so I'm ready to take advantage of that and learn how to weather the storm in future.

OKAY... I'm giving myself this weekend to prepare and Monday begins the challenge.

Now off to get out all my past SW mags and books and plan, plan and plan some more!

Hiya

You sound ready to go and planning is the key to this. It's good to set goals - even if you don't achieve them all in the time frame you want. You will get there if you persevere.

This brings me to the point you made about slinking off - don't. If you go off plan draw a line under it and get straight back on. Most importantly stay on here. We will all help and support you get your head back in the game

Good luck and I look forward to reading your diary

Thanks so much for the encouragement, Tilly. And well done on all those pretty loss flags! I want my lovely orangey one back again.

Hi, I too have just started my diary today. It is scary to think others are reading about your ups and downs but I think in the long run it will help keep us on the right track! Looks like you've set yourself some good atainable goals. Good luck with your new start, lets hope were both skinny minis soon! x

Thanks Hayzl, must have a look-see at your diary.

I hoping too that it will keep us focused and I think I need to notice where the problems lie, which I might discover more through reading my own thoughts, if you get me.

Tis scary tho, isn't it?

hi there, look forward to following your progress I know all about using food for comfort i could have written that part myself. But writing on these boards for better or worse helps to keep me on track because i can just start again- we'll all get there together xx

Originally Posted by Crumble

Thanks Hayzl, must have a look-see at your diary.

I hoping too that it will keep us focused and I think I need to notice where the problems lie, which I might discover more through reading my own thoughts, if you get me.

Tis scary tho, isn't it?

Scary but in a good, positive way! I love looking through everyones diaries. The support everyone gets is so encouraging. Even when people do fall off theres always someone to motivate them to get back on. x

Originally Posted by Haylz4684

Scary but in a good, positive way! I love looking through everyones diaries. The support everyone gets is so encouraging. Even when people do fall off theres always someone to motivate them to get back on. x

Yep there's always someone there with a hug or a kick up the bum. I'm more into kicking people than hugging so be afraid ladies

Originally Posted by tillymax

Yep there's always someone there with a hug or a kick up the bum. I'm more into kicking people than hugging so be afraid ladies

Feel free to when needed.

Thanks everyone for cheering me up. Wasn't at all sure I'd done the right thing starting this diary but I can see now just how helpful it will be.

Hi Crumble

I read your first post and thought 'this could so easily be me' I didn't want to be fat at forty - but I am and I definately don't want to be fat at 50. I have failed more times than I've had hot dinners

I suffer with my knees so my exercise at the moment is all walking. Can highly recommend the Next tone up trainer thingys. So comfy and supposed to tone up as walk and I can feel it in my legs. I am already noticing how much fitter I feel

You can do this. Yep I slunk off earlier this year when I failed but this time I am determined not to do that but to keep this diary and pick myself up and draw a line under any blips

Look forward to following your diary and helping to keep you motivated
xx

Hi Jackie, really helps to know others are in similar positions. Looking forward to settling down on Monday to read some of these diaries and grab as much inspiration as I can.


Trying to decide a present whether to give up certain foods ( not best good at that ) or to use my syns for the things I won't go without. ie extra bread, my fav yogurts, wraps etc.
Not really unhealthy foods but all things that won't work into my HXBs in the quantities I want. By I'm a greedy so and so. I don't want 2x 400g slices I want 2x HM seedy bread slices which are at least 2x 800g slices.

I know doughnuts are unhealthy but occasionally I love a custard doughnut or a cinnamon and raisin toasted bagel. Now I know they can be worked in to my plan with syns but is this the way I want to go?

I've noticed diaries where people cut them out completely and seem to do very well and others that believe (as I did) a little of what you fancy occasionally is fine. Hmmmm... what to do?

I seem to have a million and one questions running through my head that I need to answer. As each attempt to lose weight in the past has taught me something, I need to now gather all the experiences together and work out my plan for success this time round.

Have you ever gone back and read your own old posts from before? I found myself looking back and was shocked how much stuff I've learnt and then forgotten.

I found a lovely recipe I had for Spicy Coleslaw that was lovely and had completely forgotten about. Could have done with that recipe recently, too.
Obviously must be my age so I've now begun a book to gather my recipes in the front and tips in the back.

Hope things are all going well with your weeks.

I blame my age all the time. I forget things all the time. Take friday an author emailed asking to chat to me and could he ring. I said yes. He rang and we chatted he then asked me to email him something, so I asked for his email address He said you have it, I argued I hadn't and felt such a numpty because of course I had.... Think I've lost the plot.

I wonder about giving stuff up totally. I had given up crisps and most choccie just having the odd curly wurly. Today I comfort ate and what did I have? chocolate and crisps. Stupidly, ie stuffing my face until I could eat no more. Now I feel guilty, but would I have done this had I been having the odd one as syns? I don't know... rethink time. It also frustrates me that even when I stick to plan I only lose about 1lb a week at the most generally,

I am waffling, but I think to a point a little of what you fancy is important. Then we in theory wouldn't crave it?

I have a file of recipes I am collecting too as I often forget about some of my favourites. I then flick through for inspiration same with old SW magazines etc.

Wishing you lots of luck, we can do this

Originally Posted by JackieN

Today I comfort ate and what did I have? chocolate and crisps. Stupidly, ie stuffing my face until I could eat no more.

I had a similar experience this week. No idea why I did it. I went to the supermarket and was almost manic, throwing in chocolate creams and thick ridge crisps. I even went one worse and grabbed a HUGE fresh cream sponge that was reduced as an after thought.
The next morning I felt positively from my food hangover.
Now that's something I thought I'd stopped doing long ago so what was that all about??

Don't you think its funny that we seem to only forget the things we wish we could remember and never the things we'd rather forget.

I haven't banned any foods. I know if I did I would want it all the more.

Most of the time I choose wisely and manage to stay within my syns. I think we all have days where we are hungry and nothing seems to fill us and we end up binge eating.

Like you say some people cut everything out but that really wouldn't work for me.

You have to work out which option works best for you.

The spicy coleslaw sound nice - how do you make it? I can't wait to see the other recipes you've got

oh my god i have just ate that much i have really fell off the wagon oops , but im that full i cant get back on it lol oh well gonna have a pudding and jump straight back on it tomorrow