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Well here I am, following the SW plan yet again! lol I'm determined that this time I WILL get to goal before falling off the wagon and failing to get back on again. I'm determined to eat this way forever. I am determined that once I've ditched this weight, it's flipping well staying off!
I've been all sizes and weights in my adult life. I've been up and down like a flipping yo-yo for the past 20 years. Well, no more! lol
I've lead a charmed life really, my weight has never been an issue to those who love and care about me. I've always been an hefty person, even when I was in high school I weighed around 11 stone, which was ok as I'm fairly tall and can carry it well.
I gradually gained weight when I left high school, left sports behind and went to Uni where my lifelong yo-yoing weight turned into a constant battle, which I managed to keep on top of........just.
I got married, became a mother and that was that basically. I lost myself. Lost the freedom to do as I pleased and found I was spending my entire life/time looking after other people, the house, shopping..........everything! lol Between that and going to work (the paid kind! lol) it was a major operation to find time to do anything for myself. I was at the back of the queue (or that's how it felt) and as a result I neglected myself. Long gone were the days when I went for an early morning swim or called for one on the way home from work. Long gone were the badminton/squash matches I used to participart in. My husband (now my ex husband) worked awkward shifts and it was impossible to work round them with any regularity as he was also often on call. When I moaned about my increasing weight, my husband never encouraged me to lose it, or helped me in any way. He loved me the way I was and saw no reason to "eat grass" as he put it! That coming from a bloke who can eat a spud more than a pig and not gain one single ounce, used to make my flipping blood boil! lol And when I did lose weight, he would sabbotage me - bringing me chocolate when he called for a newspaper - bringing me bottles of wine when he 'passed' the booze shop. I could have strangled him! lol Anyway, instead of strangling him, I divorced the selfish, unsupportive, unhelpful pig!
Thinking about it ya know, I don't think marriage is/was for me. I know lots of people are very happily married, but for me there's just too much compromise. I must be selfish......
I love being single, and have done for quite a few years now! Love it, love it, love it! lol My son is now a young adult, so it's my time now. Time to buckle down and lose this weight once and for all. Time to spend on myself. Time to ditch those old eating habits and comfort eating for good!
In the past when I've fallen off the wagon, I've stayed off. So, I've decided it would be a good idea to start a diary on here. Hopefully it will help me stay on track and get back on track if I have blips, which I'm sure I'll have my fair share of. It's a place where I can record my food, which will help keep me focused and accountable. Also, it will be a place where I can have a grump and a moan if/when I'm struggling and hopefully get some much needed support, encouragement, kicks up the bum when I need it. Oh and a place to come when I need someone to 'talk me down' off the top shelve of the fridge
Sorry for blabbing on
So....I started this (my last lol) SW journey 3 weeks ago at my heaviest EVER weight of 19st 7.5lb. In that 3 weeks I've lost 12lb and plan on losing another 89.5 of those lardy lumpsAtm I'm feeling very, very optimistic and positive. I can do this! I will do this!
So, this is my food plan for today - 29th January
Red Day
B/fast
2 weetabix (hexb)
banana
FF natural yoghurt
Lunch
Mushroom and red pepper omelette
Cheese (hexa)
salad
EL Salad Cream (2 syns)
Dinner
1 tbsp Olive Oil (hexb)
Chicken
Stir fry veggies
1 tbsp sweet chilli sauce (1.5 syns)
Strawberries
0% total
Mint chocolate Options (2 syns)
Snacks
2 Clementines
Fudge Alpen Light (3 syns)
Total syns = 8.5
(2stone 9.5lb 
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just popping in to say hi 
you going to join us doing the 3 positives each day?? 
