Thread: Diary of an eternally obese girl

I made a diary on another part of the forum but though it would be good to make one here as I am doing Slimming World for the second time.

I've been overweight all my life, in primary school I remember people saying how much they weighed and that they were "fat" and there was me refusing to tell them my weight because I was a few stone heavier.

Last year I was finally diagnosed with PCOS after 5 years refusing to go to the doctors. At 14 stone 11, I was the lightest I'd been since I was 13 but still overweight. 2 years before I was closer to 18 stone, but after a year on slimming world losing half pounds and 1 pounds every week i finally got to 14 stone 11 and then gave in because I just didn't have time to food optimise.

Well since I was put on the pill to help my PCOS I get random depressive, verging on psychotic mood swings, most days I'll be fine but then the SLIGHTEST thing will set me off for an hour or so. This is the thing that is motivating me to lose the weight, my doctor has agreed when I get down to 11 stone she will take me off the pill as hopefully my body will be able to take care of itself when it is within BMI range.

So now I'm 14 stone 6, since joining 4 weeks ago I lost 5.5 pounds (put on half pound last week), I need to lose another 43 pounds. I have lost weight with SW before so time to do it again. Lets hope its not as slow progress as last time though. Hopefully before I go on holiday in august I will be able to squeeze into the size 10 jeans I bought (currently in a 16 (was in a size 22 2 years ago).

Really got the chocolate craving going on today. Had my usual mini cadburys chomp but still craving

So far today I've had porridge with 1 tsp honey for breakfast (instead of my usual weetabix and banana), my mid morning apple and chomp that my boss moans at me about cos i'm not suppose to eat at my desk (oops) and just eating my lunch of 4 homemade mini quiches and salad, followed by melon and grapes.

Oooo and Steak and kidney pie for tea. I'm not usually a fan of red days but I quite like this one!

Good luck you can do this

I love reading the diaries it gets me all motivated

I'll be following yours!

xxx

Reading other peoples stories gives me some more motivation too

Just got into work, but it feels like another one of those days where I'm going to crave chocolate all day. And I feel ill this morning. Ate my porridge though (was having it with cinnamon and maple syrup but ended up jut cinnamon cos I couldn't get the lid off the syrup) and brought my banana to work.

Hopefully the day won't be as bad as it feels.

Not looking forward to weighing in on saturday, I don't feel like I have lost anything this week even though I have stuck to the diet despite my cravings.

The one thing about working in an office is as soon as my belly rumbles, i can think about nothing else. Usually an apple at 10 o'clack satifies me, but this morning it didn't. Good job I brought a yogurt and banana (which I don't usually do). Think I managed to get rid of the chocolate craving a little with my malteasers mini bunny (3 syns) with my lunch. By the time I get home though my craving will have returned no doubt, especially with it being shopping night, always seem to get a craving on shopping days.

Hiya, i have serious choc cravings too... Have you tried aldi choc and orange cereal bars, two as hexb and theyre like flapjacks... But nicer! Is it wrong that im doing a green day today just so i can have more... Lol x

Ooo no i've not tried them, I'll see if I can get some tomorrow, no its not wrong at all, i do it to, I don't like extra easy days just because I can't have that extra HEb lol.

Yesterday only had 12 1/2 syns, usually end up having the whole 15. Today my mission is not to eat chocolate (before tea anyway), i'm on an extra easy day and already used my HEa and b for breakfast, but we're having burger and chips for tea, so if I want that cheese on my burger its going to have to be syned, same with the bun, i can live with the bun but its not right to not have cheese on a burger, and if i don't want to use all those syns before the end of the evening, gonna have to not eat my usual mid day chocolate in work. I will do this.

Everyone's eating either chocolate or oatcakes around me, finding it hard to resist, but I need to *THINK CHEESEBURGER*.
Cheese > Chocolate.

How did you get on? Cheeseburger or chocolate.. Im having the same dilema, chocolate or take away lol x

Cheeseburger I managed to avoid the chocolate so I could have my cheseburger.

And it was weigh in today, I was sure I hadn't lost after gaining last week...but I lost 2.5 pounds, and now I have my half stone award Now to celebrate by making my dad breakfast of boiled egg and soldiers

Decided to have a sort of my wardrobe, some of the stuff is to big and a lot of it is never worn, so though i might as well sort it out and put it on ebay. I found a shirt I bought last year for my holidays, when i bought it just wore it over the top of a vest because it wouldn't do up, i put it on today and didn't need to vest, it pulled a little but did up nonetheless.

Now thats done, i'm enjoying my favourite meal (very studentish and one i used to eat nearly every night as a student), a bowl of pasta with cheese and baked beans. Probably a fruit salad for dessert I think

Oooo and I have enough syns left for rolos later!

Gone oveer my syns for today because I decided I wa going to have a packet of rolos and then finish the other half of my dads too. Opps. I shall take the extra 3 off tomorrows syns. I shouldn't have gone over today beacuse I am going a concert on tuesday and know I will be going over then as it will be either subway or mcdonalds for tea (subway I hope).

I don't like sundays, i never know what to do with myself. Though this morning, after a breakfast of weetabix and banana, I did go shopping for new bra's. In the last 4 months i've gone up two cup sizes thanks to the pill (not that i'm complaining, not used to actually having a bust). We were going to eat out but unless it was full of fat there was nothing really too have, and since I have a work "team building" meal on friday, i don't want to waste my syns this early in the week. So we came home, and had bacon butties with cheese. Heaven! Followed by a dose of Disney movies... lazy sunday haha

Red days are always a struggle for me, I love meat, but i'm so fussy when it comes to vegetables i like i struggle with them a lot, never knowing what to have, so today I have resorted to chicken and bacon with salad.

Looking forward to my Chocolate Cherry Roulade for dessert though (4.5 syns a portion).