Sick of carrying 2 hitchikers, Part 2....1 down 1 to go !!!!!!!

Lily42uk

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Hello everybody and welcome to the 2nd installment of my diary, as I said in my previous one I believe that losing weight is not just about what you eat and the exercise you do, it's also about your mindset and I have been stuck in a rut for 10 months now, so today is the 1st day of my new weight loss regime.

All my life I have always told myself I can't do this, I can't do that and I genuinely believed that was to do with my weight and my disabilities. I discovered during my holiday my ability to walk and exercise was not as restricted as I had convinced myself it was....I have known for a few years now that I was determined to get this weight off and that nothing would stop me even if it took 10 years (believe me it's been a much longer time putting the weight on).
I have and had closed my mind to my capabilities....how many of you that have been on this journey with me, have heard me say I can't walk, I had an accident 15 years ago and it left me unable to walk, I also have severe palmoplantar pustulosis (psoriasis )and when that's bad I can't walk with that either....well I have discovered I am deluding not only you but myself again...while I was away on my holiday I had one of the worst outbreaks of the
palmoplantar pustulosis that I have had in a long time on both my hands and my feet, which in the past would have left me feeling sorry for myself and saying I can't do this or that...and my back was bad in the last 3-4 days of my holiday too, again this in the past would have resulted in me sitting on my butt feeling sorry for myself, but despite my family telling me to take it easy all the time (bless them I had brainwashed them too), I was determined not to sit in the chalet the whole holiday, so I bought bandages and I bought elasticated bandage socks and even socks and dressings too and I used my ointments and creams and everything else I could find and I bandaged my feet and I wore gloves on my hands (I got some really weird looks when it was really hot lol) and I got out and I walked and I walked and when I couldn't walk any further I sat and waited for the pain to subside and I walked again, I even bought what my daughters laughingly called Granny sandals because they were more comfy than my own sandals and I carried on walking....in the whole week I spent just 2 evenings (I had been out walking all day on the said 2 days) in the chalet as I just couldn't walk another step, so I creamed and creamed my hands and feet and the next morning I got up and off I went again.
Now just over a week ago had anyone said to me that if my feet and hands were that bad that I would still have carried on I would have and even did say that I would stay in the chalet everyday if needed to be, it was going to be a break even if I sat inside 4 different walls....but I didn't I got up and I got on with my life and I feel amazing, yes I have gained a few lbs this week while I was away, but I gained a lot more respect for myself and I now want to start afresh with my journey, hence the new diary...I had 20st to lose on this journey, I have lost 11st 12bs and I am going to lose the other 8st+ with a new gained knowledge of my capabilities and with more determination than I ever knew I had and I really hope you enjoy this ride as much as I know I will.

Onwards and downwards from here to target xxx:hug99:xxxx
 
Thank you lovelies, well I am off to get myself ready for wi but I will be back tonight and I will be making more of an effort to keep up with all your diaries as well as my own.

Have a fab day all :hug99: xxxx
 
Hi lily , il join in too I've messed around since December up down up down and still heavier than I was 9 months ago , it has to change , xxxx
 
yay! new start new diary :)

and still here mum :) we need a good catch up soon!! i miss you!!!

love you lots- we're all here to cheer you on to target!!! :D
 
Hello lovelies, just s quickie to let you know how I got on tonight, I gained 7lb, I was astounded but I really think at least a couple of pound of that is to do with water retention, my ankles are mahoosive right now and I am going to go put my feet up for an hour or so, then I will be back and will catch up properly. I'm not phased by the gain, as I said earlier new diary for a new start. So cya all later xxx:hug99:xxx
 
I'm here lovely lily x I may start a new diary as I have been messing around for most of this year :-( and I have shingles very very painful but as always you inspire me hope to catch up soon x x
 
I have stalked you on your old diary. I have laughed, cried, related with you in many ways over the year I have been here. You are a lovely, honest, caring, 'say it how it is' sweet lady that has been the inspiration/motivation for me to pluck up the courage to start my own wee food dairy, I might even get to the stage where I share my thoughts and feelings about things as it certainly has worked a treat with you.

I wish you all the very best lovely Lily in your part 2 of your journey..... If anyone can LILY can!

 
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