My old diary is in the diaries section, but I feel its time to start a new. For the last 2 months I haven't stuck to plan, I've been struggling dealing with everything, i found myself binge eating again, unable to fight my depression off. Thankfully in the 2 months I have have been drifting along, i have only put on a few pound thankfully.
Anyway, so as I said i resorted back to binge eating, and by that i mean, 4 or 5 chocolate bars in one sitting, a stack of biscuits and anything else unhealthy i could get my hands on, barely moving off the sofa at home or office chair in work. How I have not put more than 3 pounds on i'm not sure. But talking to my best friend/guy who possibly wants to be my boyfriend yesterday, I think finally I am ready to at least try and get back into some kind of normality and it kind of struck me that if I am to have any chance of getting on meds for my PCOS that don't either turn me into more or a manic depressive than I already am or cause migraines, then i need to get my butt into gear and get this last 3 stone lost. So first thing first is breaking my binging, so that means getting back onto slimming world, and I am also attempting to get my creative side back into action to stop me eating for the shear hell of it, yesterday I made a soft toy dragon, today I have started another one, I have new knitting naterials on order and a few cross stitches to do, should keep me busy and keep my mind off food.
So, those of you that don't know me, hey, I am Ally (well Alison if you must use my full name), I love music (especially rock, punk and metal, though as my friend got baffled by yesterday I will listen to anything (he found it amusing when one second i was listening to bruno mars and next bullet for my valentine)), crafts, computers and books. I work as a web designer (yes a female web designer shock horror), do a bit of photography, put my hand to all kinds of crafts, love to read, have an obsession with vampires and mythical stuff, own two mad pet rats and I am obsessed with gigs (nothing like a good night out at a gig). Just to warn you, I have an obsession with the band Bowling For Soup who I have met multiple times (i've been hugged and kissed 3 times by the lead singer now and he knows me by name), and I tend to mention them at least twice to day to anyone who will listen (or aren't listening in most cases)
So theres a bit about me if you don't know me...and if you do already know me I HAVE RETURNED.
So lets get down to it, my weigh in is saturday morning at home, I don't go group and not a member on line anymore (though my saturday weigh in has carried on from when i was online). I wasn't exactly on plan yesterday though I was better than I i've been in ages. Today I have been on track though
Breakfast - All bran choc crunch (HEb and some from A), melon
Lunch - Bacon and cheese sandwich (HEb, 1 syn butter, 1/2 HEa for cheese slice), grapes
Tea - Chicken, bacon and and prawn omelette/fritatta type thing topped with cheese (1/2 HEa) with salad
Snacks - Milky way funsize (3.5 syns), freddo (5 syns), spearmint sweet x2 (4 syns)
Total syns = 13.5