I totally know what you mean about wanting to talk about it as Im same and my husband will look at me enough to say WHAT?! lol He has started getting his head around different syn values though which is quite good lol. I agree with Capri_girl, fill up on free foods and do use the lifetime online tool. Its great for finding syn values and recipe ideas. LAst but not least ask on here as there is always someone on here that knows the answer to your question lol. One useful thing I found that is delicious today is Muller light Luscious Lemon Greek Style yoghurt, 4 for £1 at farmfoods and only half a syn for a pot

Great as a snack or with fruit after a meal

Anyhoo good luck with your weight loss journey and yes its understandable you will be nervous at first meeting but there will welcome you with open arms. It truly is a great place to go to and the best bit is you don't feel like you are on a diet

Win win situation

All my best wishes Wendy