Tall and fat! New to EE and in need of help and support!- My ramblings xx
Hello anyone that may be reading this...
I dont know if Im posting in the right bit or really where im meant to post or if anyone will read this.
I just thought that Id try to write down how im feeling and if anyones about thatd be great.
I live in the North East of England, im 24 but soon to be 25. I never appreciated being thin as a teenager and during uni the weight crept on. I did a diet and lost weight and vowed never to be a fool that put it all back on, yet wait I am that FOOL and its so so easy to let happen!
So here goes...
October 2011 I started a different diet (am I allowed to name names?!) It was very hard going but within a few months I had dropped down from 15.7 to 13 and was over the moon. The weight stayed off and in March ish time I was a size 12! It was strange though I didnt really recognise that I was despite being able to buy that size. I think when I stopped the diet and the weight stayed off I got abit cocky and started having the wrong foods again from May time I knew id put a little back on, by July I knew id put alot back on then I sort of just stopped thinking about it....
UNTIL! December 2012 I got weighed and ID PUT IT ALL BACK ON AND MORE!!!!
I could have cried and have done a few times since!
Ive been making excuses for myself like well im moving house in about a month so dont start yet and its my bday in a few weeks etc but enough is enough. Theres a SW group on Tuesday and Im going to go.... Im scared, v v scared. I dont like the thought of being the fat one in the room or of failing.
Ive been online and looked at things and it seems like you can eat soooooooooooooo much which is what is confusing me I think, how can you have unlimited pasta?? surely everyone knows that carbs are from the devil??
Im determind to go on Tuesday.... ekkkk.
One of my friends (new to our group) txt me the other day saying how fat she was and that she was huuuuuuuuuuuge, I said she wasnt at all which is true, shes chubby but not fat like me, she replied saying she was 14 stone, I was sat at my desk thinking god id LOVE to be 14 stone, I once WAS 14 stone! I feel like im currently so big im going to take over the world!!
I know people will be bigger than me, and smaller than me but we are all in the same boat, wanting to loose weight for one reason or another.
If anyones reading this, please please please keep me right!
Thanks and byebye x