This time I will do it!!...
I don't know if anyone will read this but I've decided to keep a diary on my weight loss - thoughts, foods and pics (when I feel braver!)
Okay so a bit about me - I'm a married, mum of two (a soon-to-be 3 year old and a 4month old) and I work full-time in a stressful job as a Housing Officer.
I have always struggled with my weight and I've tried every diet/gym fad under the sun but have either given up when results weren't quick enough or they simply didn't work.
Before I had children I was about 10stone and a size 10 however my relationship with food was not great - I'd often binge and then be sick, or I would take 'miracle pills' in the hope they would help me slim/maintain my weight. In short, I faced a daily battle of wills - wanting to eat until I was sick and a desire to be slim.
When I feel pregnant with my first child, I had to stop the bingeing and finally felt able to let go and simply eat what I wanted.
I wish I'd listened when people told me not to eat for two.
By the time I gave birth I was over 16st - overeating and pre-eclampia during pregnancy meant I'd put on 6stone.
I joined a local slimming club shortly after giving birth as I was due to get married a few months later, I managed to slim to 12st 7lbs for my wedding but soon piled on the pounds and stayed around 13st 7lbs for the next year.
Then I fell pregnant again - and this time after I gave birth I tipped the scales at 17st 9lbs! Again I had overeaten and suffered pre-eclampsia, putting on over 4st.
I looked in the mirror a few days after giving birth and felt an intense hatred for myself - how had I gotten so big???! How had I let it happen?!!
So I joined Slimming World - AGAIN! I'd made half hearted attempts throughout the years but had only ever stuck to it for a few weeks at a time - this time would be different.
I weighed 15st 7lbs on my first WI, mildly pleased that some baby weight had come off on its own.
I've worked hard and in 16weeks since joining Slimming World I have managed to slim down to 12st 11.5lbs, the lightest I've been in years!
I am so proud that I've stuck to it this time...BUT...I went back to work Monday following my four months maternity leave and instantly I wanted to binge - I wanted to eat and eat and eat.
Thinking on it, I used to eat in secret on the way to/from work and I think I mentally associate food with work.
Its also a stressful job and I don't always have time for lunch, making me super-hungry by the time I get home and stuffing all in sight.
Therefore, I have decided to do this diary - listing my food and thoughts for the day in an attempt to keep me on track and if I can help someone else in the process then all the better.
So...onwards and downwards...hopefully!!
Okay, so food today:
HEx A =Nothing (not a lover of dairy)
HEx B = 20 almonds
SW Vegetable Quiche - made with peppers, mushrooms, onions, green beans, carrots, asparagus, broccoli, chilli, ginger, garlic and eggs
Wild rice and spicy chicken
2x Quality Street 5syns
Ryvita Seed Crackerbread 1.5syns
Whisky (25ml) 2.5syns
TOTAL SYNS = 9 SYNS
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Diet: slimming world
Start Date: 2/2/2013
Start Weight: 14st0lb
Current Weight: 13st6.0lb
Goal Weight: 9st6.0lb
Goal Date: christmas
Total Weight Loss: 0st8lb
Weight to Lose: 4st0lb
% Lost 4.08%
Hi vikki, food diarys lookin good. The quiche is one of my fave meals. I think keeping a diary will help you stay on track. You've done really well to get where you are, focus on the positives xx
13.01.13- 14 stone
20.01.13- 13 st 7lb loss 7lb
27.01.13- 13st 8lb gained 1lb
03.02.13- 13st 6lb. lost 2lb
Thanks Kel. I'm hoping it's going to help.
I really do feel like I have a split personality at the moment, one part of me really wants to be slim and an active mum and the other half of me thinks 'forget it, just eat!'.
I don't think I'll ever get to the point where I'm completly comfortable around food, I think my problem is too deep rooted but I'd like to get to the point where I control food not the other way around.
We will get there! X
I am determined
- Rep Power
Diet: Slimming world
Start Date: 5th March 2014
Start Weight: 17st9.0lb
Current Weight: 16st9.5lb
Goal Weight: 11st0lb
Start BMI: 42.4
Current BMI: 40.1
Goal BMI: 26.4
Total Weight Loss: 0st13.5lb
Weight to Lose: 5st9.5lb
% Lost 5.47%
It's just trying to get back into the mindset but I'm already feeling more positive now I've started the diary. I'm hoping it'll help keep me focused as I know that whatever I eat I'll have to post lol.
Thanks. Hopefully we'll all motivate and support each other xx
Feeling so much more positive today. I even went for a walk with the children and OH and for once I noticed that I wasn't out of breath or counting down the minutes until I could go back to the car - losing weight must be doing me some good :-)
Okay, todays food:
HExA = 40g Reduced Fat Cheddar
HExB = 5 scan bran
Jacket potato and curried baked beans (2 Syns)
Cheese and potato pie (made with my HExA, onions and tomatoes)
Scan bran (HExB) with fat free natural yoghurt, raspberries, blueberries and banana
TOTAL SYNS = 2 SYNS
60 minute walk - admittedly at a slow pace as I had the children with me
What a fabulous loss already I can so relate on that hatred feeling when looking in ten mirro. Can't wait for a day when I can look and quite like myself. Sounds like youve had a great first week x
For me, looking in the mirror and liking what I see is not just about losing weight but also combatting the psychological issues I have with food and how I look.
We'll all get there...
Are you doing SW? I'm on my mobile so can't view profiles...
Definitely I have such a long way to go that I've not even started on that yet lol!
Originally Posted by flabtofit
Yeah I'm a sw'er, another returnee my first wi on tuesday. did it last year til August but then stopped and a stone heavier than last wi! Same old story x
You'll get there hun - its a marathon not a sprint.
Good luck for WI! Let me know how you get on xx
Great day today! Work is going much better now I'm back into the routine and surprisingly my eyes are still open whereas normally after a full days work and a disturbed nights sleep due to two teething children, I'd be flat out! Must be all the water I'm drinking.
Okay, today's food:
HExA = Nothing
HExB = Hi Fi Bar
200ml Low fat natural yoghurt (2syns) with raspberries, blueberries and banana.
Jacket potato and baked beans
SW Vegetable curry - made with mushrooms, asparagus, broccoli, onions, peppers, carrot, courgette and tinned tomatoes.
Also saving an Highlights Hot Chocolate for later so that's another 2 syns
TOTAL SYNS = 4 SYNS
I'm hoping for a good loss this week, I think I've been quite good so fingers crossed!
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