I've been here too many times to count. I start off well and then I Sabotage myself and put it all back on plus more!
I can't keep doing it! My main reasons for doing it this time final time are
*My children and husband
I've never been the pretty one, i've never been the skinny one, i've never been the popular one, i've always been the fat, bubbly one with a sense of humour that is friends with everyone. In truth yes I am fat, yes I am friends with everyone, yes i have a good sense of humour BUT the reason I am friends with everyone is because I HATE it when people dislike me and I will make it my goal to prove their theories of me wrong. I dislike myself ALOT and so when others dislike me too I can't seem to handle that negativity. If only I could be as honest to the people I love as I am being now but who knows... when I am finally happy with myself, I may just be happy enough to tell them.
I am starting my journey tomorrow and I am ready for it. The only person that knows I am doing it is my husband. He is an amazing man and my prince charming. He doesn't care how big or small I am, he loves me for me and he is my best friend also. He is very supportive and that is why I have told him and not my family or friends. When I tell them I have pressure put on me which I don't cope well with... I will be writing all of my food diaries in here as I am not attending a group (due to lack of money and babysitters) but I will be weighing in at home each week.
Who knew that writing a food diary could be such good therapy?
Hope to see you all around here soon