Another piece of the puzzle
Anxiety, depression and paranoia turned me into a hermit. .
I wouldn't go anywhere alone. Food was my comfort, I was turning to chocolate, alcohol and crisps.
Last year something clicked, I would drink alcohol and be even more depressed the following day so I decided that enough was enough. I went from drinking 3-4 days a week to once a month, I realised that it wasn't worth it.
Secondly I decided that I was sick of feeling constantly exhausted and needing naps in the day due to my poor diet. I couldn't bear the sight of myself in the mirror and knew that my weight was only going to creep up if I didn't do something about it. I joined Slimming World. Just two weeks into it and I don't need my afternoon naps! I can now go to bed and fall asleep within half an hour, before it took two hours to drop off!
A few weeks ago my friend gave me some advice, she said that if I continued the way that I was and only left the house if another person was with me then I would never get better. At first this came as a shock and I thought she was being mean. After some consideration I realised that she was right, I had to do something about it. So in the past week I have began going out alone and it hasn't been anywhere near as bad as I had expected.
I've been going to college and have just finished my course and I begin my second one tomorrow.
I think of my life as a jigsaw puzzle and each new thing I achieve is another part completed. Hopefully the pieces will all come together eventually!