I do pole fitness. I've done it for a while but only recently started putting effort into it. A little over a week ago I completed a routine course and was presented with a video of myself doing my first routine.
Though I was shocked at how far I'd come I realised I was sick and tired of looking like a fat blob on top of two rather attractive legs (thanks Mom!!). I've lost about two stone after coming out of a rather terrible relationship but am struggling to loose the rest.
A friend of mine suggested SW as he had done it and lost loads so I contacted the most convenient consultant and went along last week.
If I'm honest I didn't think it would work for me. Part of me is still stressed about the fact that my consultant encouraged me to eat (think part of my issue is I don't eat then binge on junk). However given the amount of times I've felt like I don't deserve my new (and amazing) boyfriend or had a panic attack over going shopping for clothes and sobbed into a packet of crisps I know I need some support.
During the first meeting I wasn't really convinced at all but thought I'd stick it out. After having a row with my mother at the weekend over her views on SW I was really down. I cant remember doing it but I text my consultant and she called me straight away and knocked some sense into me.
Tonight is my first proper weigh in. I'm not sure I've lost anything. I've eaten more than I normally do and even though it's healthy stuff I still feel like my body is telling me no. I also ate a lot of junk on Saturday because I didn't feel like I could turn anything my mother offered down else start another fight.
At most all I feel I've achieved this week is not eating crisps and having a fight with my mom over a can of cider.
I'm really freaking nervous about tonight in fact.