I am new here so hope it's ok to start a diary. I am hoping it helps me keep on track. Here is my story.
For the last 3 years I have told anyone that would listen that I was joining slimming world, I was going to lose weight and be healthy. No one believed me and I didn't either. I come from a big family, in both numbers and weight. My Dad is a big man. My younger sister on the other hand is a skinny minnie. 5'9 and a size 12 (lucky girl!!). We always had family gatherings with so much food and for as longs as I remember it was all deep fried. I have always been bigger than the average person but it didn't really bother me. I fell pregnant with my eldest daughter at 15 in 2003 and suffered with terrible post natal depression, this is where the real issues started. I become a comfort eater almost over night and no longer went out much to get any form of exercise. By the time I was 18 I was working 2 jobs and drinking all weekend. I met my husbans in November 2007, he is also over weight. I remember we used to have a 'junk draw' filled with crisps, chocolate, popcorn and so much more. We would refil it almost daily.
We had been together a while when we decided to start trying for a baby, 3 miscarriages followed within 2 years. The doctors diagnosed me with lupus anticoagulant. I almost jumped for joy knowing it wasn't down to my weight. A few months later we found out we were expecting again, feeling a lot more positive this time around due to new medication. 3 days later we were married. I was so happy even though I wasn't wearing the dress of my dreams due to it not being big enough. I was still honoured to be his wife. Unknown to us at the time a few short months later our world would be destroyed.
2 weeks before Christmas 2009 we were given devastating news at our 20 week scan. Our baby boy was very poorly. On January 22nd 2010 our son was born sleeping. Our much wanted baby had died. Although I had my eldest I could barely look after myself so she moved in with my parents for a few months. I seen her every single day. I ate and ate and ate, then I ate some more. I was depressed and it was my comfort.
Since losing our son we went on to have 2 more daughters. They are nearly 2 and 6 weeks old. It is because of my children I am here now. Why I am on my journey to be free of the way food controls me.
2 weeks ago on the spur of the moment I joined slimming world. I was so scared about going, I called the leader before hand and arranged to go a little earlier. I tipped the scales at a whopping 22st 2lbs. That was a turning point for me, I want to see my babies grow into beautiful women and become a grandmother. I am scared that if I don't lose weight I won't see that.
I went back last week for my first weigh in and had lost 8lb. Everyone told me how well I had done but in my head I knew you lost the most in the first week so this week will tell me more. I am aiming for slimmer of the week this time and I am so focused on getting it.
So, this is my journey. Feel free to follow, stalk or comment
For the last 3 years I have told anyone that would listen that I was joining slimming world, I was going to lose weight and be healthy. No one believed me and I didn't either. I come from a big family, in both numbers and weight. My Dad is a big man. My younger sister on the other hand is a skinny minnie. 5'9 and a size 12 (lucky girl!!). We always had family gatherings with so much food and for as longs as I remember it was all deep fried. I have always been bigger than the average person but it didn't really bother me. I fell pregnant with my eldest daughter at 15 in 2003 and suffered with terrible post natal depression, this is where the real issues started. I become a comfort eater almost over night and no longer went out much to get any form of exercise. By the time I was 18 I was working 2 jobs and drinking all weekend. I met my husbans in November 2007, he is also over weight. I remember we used to have a 'junk draw' filled with crisps, chocolate, popcorn and so much more. We would refil it almost daily.
We had been together a while when we decided to start trying for a baby, 3 miscarriages followed within 2 years. The doctors diagnosed me with lupus anticoagulant. I almost jumped for joy knowing it wasn't down to my weight. A few months later we found out we were expecting again, feeling a lot more positive this time around due to new medication. 3 days later we were married. I was so happy even though I wasn't wearing the dress of my dreams due to it not being big enough. I was still honoured to be his wife. Unknown to us at the time a few short months later our world would be destroyed.
2 weeks before Christmas 2009 we were given devastating news at our 20 week scan. Our baby boy was very poorly. On January 22nd 2010 our son was born sleeping. Our much wanted baby had died. Although I had my eldest I could barely look after myself so she moved in with my parents for a few months. I seen her every single day. I ate and ate and ate, then I ate some more. I was depressed and it was my comfort.
Since losing our son we went on to have 2 more daughters. They are nearly 2 and 6 weeks old. It is because of my children I am here now. Why I am on my journey to be free of the way food controls me.
2 weeks ago on the spur of the moment I joined slimming world. I was so scared about going, I called the leader before hand and arranged to go a little earlier. I tipped the scales at a whopping 22st 2lbs. That was a turning point for me, I want to see my babies grow into beautiful women and become a grandmother. I am scared that if I don't lose weight I won't see that.
I went back last week for my first weigh in and had lost 8lb. Everyone told me how well I had done but in my head I knew you lost the most in the first week so this week will tell me more. I am aiming for slimmer of the week this time and I am so focused on getting it.
So, this is my journey. Feel free to follow, stalk or comment
