New Year new start.. and getting slim for my wedding!
Right, well Iíve started a food diary so might as well start a weight loss diary too! :)
My problem has always been that I love my food waaay too much. The amount I can eat, I donít know how Iím not a lot bigger/heavier than I actually am. I was always one of those people you hate that can eat whatever they like and not get any bigger, so I got used to bad eating habits. When I was about 18 I worked at a vets surgery so food was always very much Ďgrab something and goí, I used to eat crisps and chocolate if we got a tea break mid morning, for lunch it would be a ready meal or Iíd go to the chip shop round the cormer, usually followed by more chocolate! Awful really when I look back! It was when I got a job in an office (and have been in office jobs ever since) and was suddenly sat down all day that my weight started going up. I was a size 8 for years then all of a sudden I was a 10, then a 12Ö Iím now a 14 which is the biggest Iíve been Ė OK not massive I know, but fact is I just donít feel happy. Iím short so any extra pounds just donít look good on me Ė any bigger than a 10-12 and I donít feel happy in myself.
I had my first baby in December 2008 and when I was on maternity leave with her I used to just eat through boredom really. I never really lost the baby weight from her and then I fell pregnant with my son who was born in March 2011. I joined Weight Watchers in summer 2011 and lost just over a stone, I started at 10st 10 and got to 9st 7. My goal weight was 9st but when I got to 9st 7 I realised I was a size 10 for the first time in years and felt great so I decided to stop losing. I went back to work in December 2011 and unfortunately thatís when it all went wrong again. All of a sudden I was juggling work and 2 children and didnít have time to go to WW meetings, and of course it was nearly Christmas, there were lots of lovely cakes, biscuits etc in the office and of course it was that age old thing of ďnever mind, Iíll enjoy myself after Christmas and then be healthy afterwardsĒ. Of course that never happened, I fell into old habits and carried on eating badly, was kind of in denial for ages and didnít weigh myself for a good while! It was only when I realised none of my size 10 clothes fitted and I was back in my old 12s and was actually struggling to even get in them Ė I had to go and buy size 14s Ė and thatís what made me realise! I weighed myself and was 11st 9 which is my heaviest ever! So Iíd put all the weight back on plus just over another stone!
Iíve tried a couple of things Ė tried My Fitness Pal but despite sticking to the calorie allowance each day I just kept losing and gaining the same pound every week. Lose 1lb, gain 1lb, lose 1lb.. etc. I decided to try WW again but joined online this time. I lost a few pounds but, I donít know what it was Ė my heart wasnít in it, I wasnít sticking to the propoints allowance (my own fault I know), I was having too many Ďcheatí days Ė I just wasnít in the zone.
So after enjoying Christmas 2013 and eating far too much as usual Iíve decided this is it, once and for all Ė I have less than 5 months until my wedding in Greece and I need to get my butt in gear! So as from New Years Day I cut out all the usual crap from my diet and swapped it for healthy things. For example, at work is always a bad/tempting time for me Ė a typical dayís food at work used to be: Instant latte when I got to work at 8:30am, at 10:00am me and my friend would go downstairs to the cafť and Iíd get 2 slices of toast (usually peanut butter/Marmite etc), a caramel latte, and quite often a biscuit/flapjack etc too. Lunch would be a sandwich or wrap from the cafť or sometimes a hot meal like chilli/curry, chips etc. Then crisps or chocolate. Thereís always biscuits and treats lurking round the office so usually in the afternoon Iíd usually have one of those! Dinners in the evening were 50/50 really, weíd have healthy things like stir fry or chilli, low fat curry etc but then other nights it would be pizza and chips.
So when I came back to work after Christmas that was it, all change. A typical day since then has been herbal tea when I get here, water throughout the day. Breakfast Ė usually a bowl of special K or porridge. Lunch Ė WW or homemade veg soup, packet of quavers, 1 jaffa cake. Then dinner in the evening as healthy as poss. I also joined the gym at the beginning of January so I am aiming for 3 times a week Ė I did that last week. I lost 2.5lb last week.
I have now decided to try Slimming World Ė Iíd always thought it sounded too complicated but I went round a friendís house last week and looked through her booklets about it and realised it actually sounded quite good. So I started that a couple of days ago, Iíve planned my meals for the week and have been shopping to get it all, Iíll carry on with the gym 3 times a week too and see how I do on this. I canít quite get my head round SW and how much you can eat on it, I donít understand how you actually lose weight (I think Iím struggling to get out of the Weight Watchers mindset where pasta and jacket potatoes are very high in propoints values and yet they are Ďfreeí on SW) so Iíve half got it in my head that Iím going to gain weight this week. BUT Iím giving it my best shot, so letís see what happens! I weigh myself on a Friday, so 4 more days to go. Iím doing to SW Ďextra easyí, the red/green days look too confusing at the moment and the extra easy means me and my partner and children can eat the same meals most of the time.
So letís see what happens come FridayÖ