I googled my username to see if I could find a decent avatar and I'm not entirely sure I'm comfortable with what I saw.
I'm basically Peppa Pig in a ballet tutu.
So I opted for myself.
My names Kayla, I'm 26 year old postgraduate student who does shift work.
Skip intro: I want to lose 93lbs. I'm sitting at 224lbs 5'6, (previously 270) doing slimming world, joining next Friday. Feel free to chat!
The only time I've been a normal weight was at birth, and even then I was premature so technically a fatty at 8lb something. I've always thought of myself as big, and remember seeing the girls coming out of the church hall in tutus when I was 4 and thinking I was too fat to do ballet. I was bullied, comfort ate, gained, bullied, comfort ate etc. and never really mastered socialization.
At college I managed to grab 4 other girls to attach myself to and by the time I was 18 I dropped my puppy fat and was a comfortable size 14-16UK. Then I went to uni, and met a man (never a good thing), ballooned to 270lbs (2010) ended up in hospital with suspected pulmonary embolism (my worst fear!), it wasn't. They said it was muscular-skeletal or as it turns out, this year, possibly MS or Fibromyalgia, I've not been back for diagnosis.
After that man left me a week before graduation (2010) I dropped about 2 stone, then that christmas my Nan died. She was the light of my life, I put a bit back on, couldn't give a hoot by this point.
In January 2011 I met my new man, and were still together now, just. Were going on our first proper holiday together, in August to Teneriffe, and I'd like to lose around 28lbs for it!
I've never been confident. I don't wear clothes I want to wear. I like quiet pubs to watch the footy in where I can blend in, in jeans and T-shirts with a pint in my hand and maybe a bag of peanuts to nibble on. Clubs give me migraines. I haven't been much of a fan for eating out in restaurants (Oh look! fatties eating again) but since being with my current boyfriend, I enjoy that time we spend together, enjoying a meal and talking, plus he lives in the Midlands and they're more accepting, and don't put value on your weight, unlike London which I battle every day. You get the odd idiot up there, but in London If you aren't slim, blonde, in a suit, have nice hair and makeup, don't even think about getting on that train first! It's like there's Fast Pass for Pretty People.
Ladies and Gentlemen, this is it! Beast Mode is activated, there's no going back. I have until next August when I finish my course to get to my goal weight. To be serious, I work in an area where people look at you for help, motivation and confidence and I can't give it if I don't have it myself, my ultimate goal is to be an inspiration and a role model, not only to people I know but also strangers.
If you made it this far