Diary of a chronic yo-yo!

edinemma

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Much like many of the posters on mini mins I have been overweight for pretty much all of my adult life; albeit by varying degrees on account of regular diet regimes before consistently throwing myself from the proverbial wagon (I believe some folks just fall or trip slightly!?).

This is my second go of slimming world, having lost 2.5 stone at the end of 2012 but having regained it since! Last time I went to classes with my other half but the swine just seems to sneeze and he drops the weight, so it looks like I'll be going solo this time.:confused:

To to give you some context, I am in the last year of my twenties and live with my boyfriend of 6 years and my dog. I, like many of you, am good at starting diets and the first few weeks generally go smoothly. However, I am also a total pro at tripping myself up and living in denial. After the fact I struggle with guilt; feeling upset and very angry with myself, which make it really hard for me to get back on track. This is where I find myself today, devastated any annoyed that I am having to start again. I have 3.5-4 stone to lose, although feel as though it may as we'll be three times that. I feel uncomfortable in many of my clothes (even the ones that are technically the right size) and whilst wearing Bridget Jones style pants (in a size too small) has a slightly beneficial impact on my silhouette, the effort of wrestling myself into them and subsequent time it takes whenever I need the loo, means that I find myself back here...again :sigh:

I will be going back to class, although not until mid October as I am going to Italy for 5 days. I realise that starting to diet before this kind of holiday sounds a little odd, maybe even counterproductive?! Whilst I am under no illusions that I will stick to SW on holiday, I felt it was better to start dieting from home so that, worse case scenario, I find myself back at the start again (rather than a mile behind the starting line) upon my return. So please bear with me for the next few weeks as I expect tears, tantrums and more than a few bottles of wine!

I am sure by now I have given you all an idea of why I have titled my post "diary of a chronic yo-yo dieter" and sincerely hope I haven't bored you too much. Thanks in advance for your support, I'm really going to need it!

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:welcome: Good luck on your journey, you'll find loads of support on here and I have found keeping a diary has helped keep me on track :)
 
Thanks, I'm definitely going to try to keep the diary going. I'm a bit flighty so likely to be good for a while then go with something else...explains a lot! :)
 
Places hurt where I didn't know I had places! I was originally considering spin class but after a colleague announced she had a bruised under carriage following her first class I opted for Pilates instead...beginning to think I should have taken my chances....oww! X
 
My other friend ensures me that you "toughen up" and get used to it....can't say I relish the idea of a toughened "under carriage"! X
 
Weekend shaping up to be pretty laid back, which is well needed after another manic week! Happily aching pretty much everywhere on account of Pilates but it's a good pain. Not long in from dog walk and kitchen scrubbed down ready for me to make soup for lunch (thinking spiced courgette). Went to grab a kiwi fruit and could only find one teaspoon and am baffled; I certainly used to have a lot more and all of the dishes are done and away. Ordinarily when things go missing I blame the dog (mostly socks and tights and normally found around the garden like some misguided treasure hunt) or the OH (on account of "squirrelling" things away into any and all conceivable space...this is what he calls tidying). Who on earth would nick my teaspoons??! Appreciate that this is very much a first world problem but confusing nonetheless! X
 
So weigh in day isn't technically until tomorrow but I couldn't resist this morning...wish I had! Scales say I'm 0.2lb heavier than I was on Friday morning. Whilst I appreciate it's not a big difference I was really hoping for a better loss as this is week one properly back on SW, having dabbled in it for a while, and I was really hoping for more (2.6lb vs 5lb wk one loss last time I did the diet). I am really gutted, especially as I've been within points and I have been going to the gym. However, onwards and upwards..or so I thought until I placed my foot squarely into the dogs water bowl! Decided to cheer myself up with 20 minutes of Magic Mike before work, the OH couldn't work out what on earth was going on!

I found my old diary on here from when I first did SW in 2012..I lasted 5 posts but some of them made me chuckle. A particular highlight was when the other half decided to wake me upat 4am by putting his finger in my ear on account of his very low sugar levels. Whilst I know hypos are serious they do make me chuckle sometimes; he once phoned his his mum and accused her of fraud and on another occasion he announced that he was a pineapple, most recently he accused the politicans of tampering with his blood sugars to sway his vote in the Scottish referendum...gotta love him!

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Weigh in this morning...3.3lb down, was hoping for more but it's still a loss! One week left until Rome. Was really hoping to have lost a min of half a stone by then to give me more of a cushion as really don't want to end up back over 16 stone. I have classes at the gym booked on 4 days this week so hopefully that'll help. We'll be doing loads of walking out there so hopefully that will help mitigate the pizza, pasta, wine fest! Pilates again tonight, only threw a mild tantrum at the second glut repeat...it really really hurts! OH away with work this week, miss him dearly but may actually get some bed to myself tonight; between him and the dog (yes I know he shouldn't REALLY be on the bed) I am normally skilled contortionist! X
 
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It would be rude not to let them win on occasion! I've just watched the semi final of bake off...it's like some form of torture! Was at fat burn class tonight at the gym...oh my lord, not only was I the only fat person in there but tomorrow is going to be interesting! :cool: X
 
Arms aren't useful things right?!! I mean who needs arms..not me, I can barely lift mine today on account of Friday night Pilates class. The old me would have been sat with a nice large glass of wine after week from hell but the new Friday night me dissolves into a puddle whilst contorting (now useless limbs) into strange positions. Off out to a friends birthday dinner tonight and menu doesn't look even slightly SW friendly. There will also be cocktails and wine...I think I will need to flexi syn it but will try to make healthiest menu choice possible. X
 
Aware I've already posted today but I needed to vent. The OH has been in Barcelona with work since Tuesday. He has par taken in tapas, beer and an airport Burger King. This morning he weighed himself and he has lost 5.2lb since he left. He has not been walking excessively nor, as far as I am aware, has he had surgery or lipo...wtf! I find this grossly unfair. As much as I try to be supportive, he really deserved to put on weight..in the same way that I would have done if it had have been me
 
Hiya, subbing if you don't mind :)

I feel your pain. I too have a hubby who can lose weight without trying. It is so frustrating!!! xx

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Hi Miataiblue, don't mind at all. I really don't mean to sound unsupportive of him but it does my box in!sometimes I feel as though he thinks that my results are not the same because I should pull my socks up, rather than the fact that he's just jammy!!! Men eh?! Xx
 
I feel your pain too!
but in a different way.....my OH is very slim, bordering on 'thin' , he has always been that way....never puts on weight!
He obviously has a different mindset in things too....like when I was making one of my packed lunches last week...he said , 'you got enough there?' !
I said yeah, but its not a lot 'calorie-wise if you think about it,
anyway when I came back from weigh in he said well done etc, and also said, well it's obviously working, because you are eating plenty!
Wasn't sure wether to take that as a compliment or an insult! :D
 
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