California Dreamin'

Just what it says on the tin. I used to come to this site a lot for encouragement and support, and have been a bit bad for the last year and a half. I've regained about sixty pounds, falling in love and letting this slip. But here I am ready to shed the pounds and gain my freedom again from weight. Feeling good about it. I'm going to be a Saturday weigher I think, that seems nice and sensible.

I weigh in at a group on a Saturday morning, well I've been twice so only just started really.

I need to lose about 40-50lb. Going to be a slow process I think.

Good luck
Lisa x

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Thanks Likabu, I think Saturday mornings are going to work for me - we'll see anyway!

So, today I'm down slightly to 256.8 lbs, which is probably fluctuation. I like a daily weigh-in, it kind of keeps a bit of a check on things for me. But only Saturday mornings count as the official ones!! I'm also tracking what I eat and slowly getting back into the way of things. SW worked really really well for me, and I want to stick to something that works and not get over-confident. Regaining weight is a frightening process, but I guess it's something that I can learn to adjust around and keep going. I can't really put my finger on what went 'wrong' over the last year. I met a lovely man about 18 months ago, fell in love and have just moved in with him. All my routines were completely obliterated, and I don't have control over the food in the house. It's a totally different (but lovely!) set of challenges. But I'm so freaked out by the weight regain I want to get it back under control.

We've just booked a holiday (in California, hence the title) for May 2015, and that's going to be the impetus I need to keep on track. Plus writing and keeping a check on it here.

It's a bit difficult today because we've got guests all weekend, so not too sure how to manage food. I'm going to start the day with granola and yoghurt, and then a mushroom omelette for lunch.

Not a great start yesterday, my partner's daughter and girlfriend are up and I had a Chinese takeaway and wine last night. So hard to think of alternatives, and I know I should be stronger over the next few days. But I'm keeping going, weighing in and trying to be accountable! This morning I'm still at 256.8 lbs, so that's better than it was. I'm also going to try and go to the gym on Saturday. I'm reading a lot too about how to keep myself motivated and on track, but I am struggling lately. I suppose I'm in my fifth year of this journey, and I did sooooooooooooooooo well to get under 200lbs and stay there for almost a year. It kills me to have put on 50lbs, but at least I have maintained my 90-plus weight loss. Just by writing about it I'm trying to make sure that I don't let that slide away. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

So, back to work. Nice to be able to write about my feelings though, I've always liked keeping a diary, but not one that's written down any more.

I keep picking today, don't know why - suspect it's the wine kicking in from last night. So, got to get a grip and do a bit more planning and general overhaul.

Today is my official first weigh-in day, and I'm at 256.8 lbs, a loss of 1.2 lbs in two days. Not too bad I guess. Although not helped by the visitors and over indulgence generally. I can do this! Today am going to go for a couple of walks and go to the gym so that should help a bit anyway. Here goes!

Trying this out on ipad! Not too sure it will work. Anyway, girls have gone and same weight as yesterday. Got to be active!

Signed up for the October challenge, to lost 7lbs by the end of the month. I've also decided to go back to being a Sunday weigher as well. Feeling kind of lazy just now, and not really feeling it. I just want a cosy day in, but there is lots to be done. Had an omelette (mushrooms) for lunch so that was a good move I think. Hard to get my head back in the game. Off to the gym when my bloke gets back, he's good at motivating me I think. Just not massively wanting to do anything just now

Shot back up to 258.6 this morning - not too worried after the weekend I've had, it will come down soon. Want to see a good three pounds loss next Sunday, so am aiming for a 253.2 lbs surprise. Love weighing in on Sundays, Monday always feels like a fresh start, it is a great day to be accountable.

Feeling good this morning:

- yoghurt and granola
- coffee
- apple and banana
- thai green soup from Sainsburys; not sure about syns but about 283 calories

It's great to start feeling optimistic again, to be honest. I do feel good about myself, like I can do this. I like this site a lot as well, I find it very motivational.

Did so well all day, then the lovely bloke met me with a hot chocolate for the journey home. It was so nice, but gah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh well, that's not how I put on weight, so no excuses of 'starting again'. It's focusing on a nice healthy meal of pasta and salad and then making a great lunch for tomorrow.

Had a great day yesterday - massive salad and a small amount of pasta yesterday, no more snacks. Then today have had a granola from M&S and a coffee, and I'm feeling prepared and ready. Weight has dropped a bit as well, down to 255.2, so that's good. I know that daily weighing is a bit much, but I like it just now so that I don't avoid weight gain, and it forces me to be accountable. Weekly weigh ins were good when my head was in the game, and I may revert to that shortly. So far I'm focusing on tracking, writing here and trying to stick to Slimming World overall. It's pretty good to be honest. Anyway, will check in through the day to see how I'm getting on.

Pretty okay day today. Stuck to the planned meals, which involved soup and sandwich at lunchtime. Avoided work biscuits and didn't get a latte for the train home. Have planned peas and a ready meal from Sainsburys for dinner, which is not too bad. Bloke home soon from London, so that will be nice. It's all about avoiding sugar for me, which is a real trigger. I really want to get the century lost badge back again - I don't know if it's cheating to hang on to the weight already lost, but I did it, albeit regained a lot. So I'm going with that for now. I think I can get it back down again. For now, I'm focused on getting to 253.8 on Sunday. In my favour, I'm going to be going to the gym tomorrow, Thursday and Saturday, so that's also a bit of a boost.

Really, I have no excuse not to do this. I've moved house and am settled. I can have routines. R is so supportive and loving of anything I want to do. I have a gym, I have a good job, I have my health and I want to do this. But maybe that's what's scary too - no excuses. So, just hang in there and take it small step by small step. I lost all that weight a pound at a time, not in one fell swoop. I can only live in this moment, nowhere else. But in this moment, I can make choices and make decisions on how I live my life and what I choose to eat or not eat. And I do know what the things are that I really want to achieve.

Great day today. I stuck to good choices despite lunch out, and I had a good workout at the gym. So that feels pretty good. Weight down today to 253.8. My goal for the week was 253 I think - will see where I am on Sunday.

I've been rereading my journal on here when I first lost weight, and it's so helpful to me. I just tried and tried and tried, and I did achieve so much. But in those early days when I didn't know if I could even begin to do it, that was pretty brave actually. So that's something. Here I am in week one and trying very hard to just get there and keep going. There are lots of milestones coming up, but I want to do this for me, passionately and deeply. I am a little bit slack on tracking, so must make more of an effort with that. I went to the gym last night and that felt really good, to push myself and feel my body work out. I'll get back into that groove just by keeping going.

I miss all the people I knew when I first came here as well. Makes me quite sad reading the comments from the past, and seeing that they haven't logged on for almost as long as I have. Hope that everyone is doing really well.

Today is going to be a good one I hope. I'm working from home, so can really focus on getting lots done domestically and workwise. Not much in the house either, so no real temptation to start picking. I'm going to do a nice chorizo/chickpea slow cooked meal for dinner, with rice and peas for the man, and then we're going to the gym in the evening. So what's not to love about the day? The plan for food is:

- yoghurt and granola for breakfast
- fruit for snacking
- soup, salad and toast for lunch
- slow cooked casserole for dinner

I should also start a food shopping list with lots of good ideas for keeping me on the straight and narrow! Anyway, might keep updating here to stop me wandering too badly into temptation lol.

Sunday weigh-in time - and I'm pleased that I'm FOUR POUNDS down!!!!!!!!

That's really good - feels v positive and a total boost. Going to aim for another loss next Sunday, and ideally I'd like to be back at the 250 mark so I can reclaim that century badge. That's 2.8 lbs, which is definitely do-able this week. I've meal planned for the whole week and I've got gym visits planned. Can't see any reason for not achieving this, although I AM away for work for two days at the end of the week. I should be able to sustain what I'm doing AND see a loss:

Monday: gym and salmon / green beans for tea
Tuesday: sausage casserole and peas for tea
Wednesday: gym and chorizo slow cooked meal
Thursday: London
Friday: home from London and quorn and salad meal
Saturday and Sunday: gym

I'm seeing friends on Monday and Tuesday, but coffees (Americanos) on both occasions planned.

I've got a pedometer so also am upping the goal on that to 7,500 (been increasing it by 500 steps a day each week!)

Monday morning and I'm feeling really good about myself - small steps to big goals. Remembering that weight loss is not one big effort but a series of tiny steps, it's about not stopping and keeping going rather than killing myself in the first instance. So by next Sunday I would love to see a 2 lb loss, and to weigh in at 250.8. But anything is good so long as it's downwards and not the other way!

So far today I've had yoghurt and low fat granola and an apple. Soup for lunch and then salmon, new potatoes, green beans and a bit of stir fry for dinner. And also a Monday night visit to the gym, wooot!

Great day today - ate really well, walked my 11k steps, went to the gym. Had salmon and new potatoes for tea and no snacking. Small steps to big results. Each dash is made up of a million choices and life is not something that happens to me, it's something that I actively choose.

Another good day - had yoghurt and granola and I'm sticking to fruit as a snack. For lunch I've had soup and a sandwich which is low calorie and delicious. I'm trying to avoid cake in the kitchen, and am reminding myself of all the various reasons why I don't actually *want* to eat sugar or have this bit of food. So that's fairly good. Tonight I'm meeting a friend for coffee, and then we're having sausage casserole with peas and carrots. I do well when I've done a lot of preparation and know what we're going to be eating!!

I'm still weighing in daily out of habit this month, and to get me going. Next month it's back to weekly weigh-ins only, which should be interesting. I'm on target to lose the 7lbs for this month's challenge, and then I can join in with a November challenge. I'd love ideally to get my 100lbs weight loss back this week, and I think I can do it.

Hi good luck with your journey
I weigh in on Saturday mornings which I like because if I fancy a treat at the weekend I got all week to make up for it
I also weigh at home daily too , shouldn't really as it can seem disappointing if things aren't moving slightly
Keep going though , perseverance is the key

Zafira said:

Hi good luck with your journey
I weigh in on Saturday mornings which I like because if I fancy a treat at the weekend I got all week to make up for it
I also weigh at home daily too , shouldn't really as it can seem disappointing if things aren't moving slightly
Keep going though , perseverance is the key

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Thank you so much Zafira, that's really nice of you - hope that you had a good week!

Week 3 and I lost three pounds! So pleased, because now I'm 249.8, but more importantly that takes me back to over 100 lbs lost, which was an important milestone for me to regain, woo hoo!