Journey to a new me........

So after a plea for help on here last week, followed by some wonderful advice from some lovely helpful people I thought I would take some more of the advice given and start my own diary.

i went back to group last Tuesday and have my first weigh in tomorrow. I have really struggled with my weight the last few years and have piled on more and more weight after having 3 children very close together and then using food as an emotional crutch when stressed, tired, upset, anxious etc. I found that I was always thinking I'll start tomorrow but tomorrow's diet never actually happened. After a lot of changes over the last few moths I am finally in a place to tackle my weight and focus on me. Since starting group last week and buying a countdown I feel committed in a way I haven't in a long time. With the exception of today I have been focused on the plan and actually enjoying it. Today was a bit of a blip but instead of using that as an excuse for a full on binge I accepted that I could have eaten better and stayed positive. I may not get a huge weight loss tomorrow but to be honest any weight loss is a step in the right direction, I have over 7 stone to lose and need a whole new way of eating and looking/ thinking about good.

thanks for reading and I'm looking forward to sharing my journey! X x

Good luck in your journey xx

I've just been to the doctors for a new patient appointment with the nurse as we have just moved areas. I was expecting having to discuss my weight and how unhealthy it was etc. what I wasn't prepared for was my blood pressure reading. It has always been fine but now it is high and that is worrying. Made me more determined to stick to this. She said that it should go down as I lose weight. What with that and the hiatus hernia and gastritis that are causing me a lot of discomfort I have some very good reasons to keep me on plan.

I weigh in tonight. My first weigh in! According to the scales in the doctors I have lost 7lbs and she weighed me with my boots on. 7lbs would be amazing but I will be happy with any weight lost as I want to try to see this as a journey (hence the name) that I can enjoy and learn from, not a race to lose as much as possible. Roll on 7:30pm.....I hate waiting! X

Subscribing. I am rejoining tomorrow so wanted to find another newbie to the diaries to share my journey with. good luck for your first weigh in x

good luck

Thanks for your messages. I'm pleased to be able to share my journey with you. Skulldilocks good luck joining tomorrow

so I lost....4lbs. I'm happy with that. At least I stuck to it, went back to my meeting for the second weigh in and lost some weight......all things I have struggled with in recent months.

looking ahead to next week......I must make sure I keep my food diary. I do have a habit of not writing it down and then not really being sure what healthy extras or syns I've had. I'm a vegetarian so do green days and am enjoying the extra healthy extras! I've been a bit heavy on cheese the last week so need to start weighing and measuring my milk and cheese instead of guesstimating!! X

4lb is brilliant.....well on the way to your first half stone and a sticker. Pat yourself on the back young lady...proud of you

Always weigh or measure things...you will be amazed how much better you do that way....guessing is always a risk....keep going a day at a time

4lbs is awesome....Well done. Looking forward to following your journey.

Hi hon I'm restarting too, I weigh in tomorrow to get my start weight and then I'm going solo for a bit as finances are a bit tight. But hopefully I can stick to it.
Well done on the 4lb loss that's a fab start! Halfway to your first sticker!

Thanks Elvisfan and clevagirl. Good luck Hannahsmum, you can do it!

Bit of a boring day so far. Been feeling a bit sick as I had to take the bus with my youngest to pick my car up from the garage. The bus was heaving and I had to stand which made me feel very queasy as I was facing the wrong way! I was so pleased to get my car back. I managed to have breakfast this morning but have t managed any superfree yet today! When I pick my girls up later I'm going to pop and get some fruit to up my superfree intake. So far today I've had:

B: 3 x ryvita and hummus (Heb x2)

L: 2 x cheese on toast (6 syns and hea)

this is happens a lot. I don't manage to eat much free or super free food and then feel starving. I don't like yogurt or mugshots so often struggle for quick free things to pick at. On good days I save my healthy extras to snack on and only have free food for meals. Must try that for tomorrow!

Not a good day today after all....ahhhhh! Oh dear. I feel really disappointed but tomorrow is another day. I suffer from anxiety and my anxiety has been sky high today and I reached for my old friend, food, to help me get through. The positive part is I stopped after a mini binge and have stayed positive and got back on track as soon as I could. I guess that's progress from a cous of weeks ago where an anxiety attack would lead to a full blown binge that would last a few days! I also realised how much better I have been feeling since following the plan. After eating my mini binge I felt so tired and irritated and I saw just what bingeing does to me and my personality! Back on track tomorrow. I'm excited to make roasted vegetable cous cous with feta.....yum! Hope everyone else has had a good day x x

Completely know how you feel. I suffer with the same and have always binged to numb it. Well done for finding the control

Well done on your first week weight loss 4lbs is an amazing loss I am restarting my journey too.

Bad days are completely normal and totally acceptable. The best thing to do is draw a line under it, forget about it and not let it ruin your whole week x

Nice job in regaining your focus after a mini binge. It is part of the process so forgiving yourself and moving on is key.

So after a week of messing around (again!) telling myself sw doent work, I can't stick to it and using it as an excuse to eat rubbish etc I bit the bullet and forced myself to go and weigh in today. I'd lost 2 1/2 pounds! Very unexpected as I'd expected a gain so I'm very pleased and it has refocused me. It is lovely to see the numbers going down and to feel as though I am accomplishing something.

Ive tried hard to get back on plan and stick to it today. All was well until I was coerced into going to a family members for lunch. I knew it would be unhealthy and didn't want to go but I ate little and didn't use it as an excuse to binge. As a vegetarian there was little I could eat as all of the pizza that was served was meat so I just had a couple of small pieces of french stick with some cheese. I then ate my planned lunch of jacket potato and salad when I got home.

yesterday when I was grappling with the urge to order pizza for dinner instead of having the quorn bolognaise I'd cooked I sat down and wrote a for and against list. I had 7 items in the against losing weight column and 50!! In the for losing weight! This had a real effect on me and my mindset. It really focused me On what I actually want. When I went back and looked again at the against reasons they were things like I'm too tired, im too stressed, I can't eat junk food. They seemed so weak and so silly compared to the 50 reasons for. It was a real eye opener!

Im hoping for a good loss this week. If I can lose 2 and a half whilst messing around with the plan hopefully if I focus I can have a good loss. I hope everyone is having a good week xx

Hi. Subscribing as your posts read how I feel about food. I have been having the same issues for years and I am my biggest enemy sometimes.

Wishing you all the best in your weight loss journey x

Thanks Meredith21, welcome! Well done on your weight loss. Hopefully we can beat the food demons x

Well done on your weight loss and what a fab way to get refocused and keep you motivated. I think i will be doing that myself x

Well done on your losses!
I think we can all relate to reasons why we shouldn't stick to plan, and just carry on as we did before SW
But well done on getting straight back on the wagon and not letting the 'gremlins' tell you otherwise