I started at the beginning of August, and i was doing fantastic, i got my half stone, SOTW and was really enjoying it
THEN..September rolled around and i went on holiday and gained 7.5lbs (and i didn't even enjoy any of the food...how stupid is that?!) and since returning, i just can't seem to get back into the swing of it at all.
I always have just as many bad days as i do good, and by sheer luck (or someone watching over me maybe) i have managed to have no gains, 1/2lbs pretty much every week. (and that is lucky, i know people who stick to it 100% and lose that, so i'm sorry to those of you who read this, that are in that situation)
I have things to look forward to, that should motivate me (couple of holidays) but they just aren't for some reason.
I have lost weight before, i lost 4 stone for my wedding a few years ago (i knew i would have the pictures for many years to come and i wanted to look pretty in them) and i had no trouble at all sticking to that (i did CC on 1200c a day)
Anyhoo, since returning, i just cannot seem to get my head in the game, i WANT to do this, so why am i flailing around like an upside down turtle??
It annoys the hell out of me!
Hubby is doing FANTASTIC and i am sooo proud of him, i sometimes feel like i am dragging him down with me, which is totally unfair (luckily he is still losing really well and i thank my lucky stars that he's a guy cos if he was a woman, i think i may have actually sabotaged him by now )
Motivation isn't working, neither is willpower, and i just don't seem to know what to try next.
I have nothing bad in the house as i refuse to buy it in, but sadly takeaways deliver (pizza in general normally)
I'm even considering going back to CC because i know i can do it and that it works, but all i have to do is look at my hubby, the people in my group, read on here and it's totally obvious to me that SW works, so that only leaves me...I'm the one at fault, my brain is the one that is just causing havoc and i really don't know how to kick myself up the butt!!
Meh, as i write this, i know it's ridiculous, i'm pretty ashamed and feel like i'm being a child, "for god's sake woman, get a grip!"
Sigh...hoping for some magical words of wisdom that i know do not exist and will not come so i will happily accept being dragged kicking and screaming into adulthood by some tough love (bit late mind considering i'm 33 lol )
Sorry for such a long post and thank you for taking the time to read it, at least i couldn't eat anything while typing!!