Feel like rubbish need to let it out !!!!!! :(
Need to get this out there. I started slimming world again on the 24th Jan, so on 2nd week now. Did it a few years ago and lost 3 stone, I cant believe I let myself get so big. I weighed in at 22.11lbs. 4 stone bigger than when i started last time :(
Felt awful. I cant bear to look at my self, ive got so much to aim for, holiday in November and me and partner are thinking about children but I will not try until Ive lost the weight. I dont think I realised how big I have got...feel so sad in myself and angry
that I have let it happen.
Week 1 was good lost 5 1/2 lb. Stuck to it, was great. My weigh in day was Thursday, Friday was good, Saturday was terrible. I binged on chocolate all day, ate everything I should not. I know its wrong, I cried and cried after, Today I went for lunch
with friends, I had a good meal, but then I had a pudding :( Really bad..And to make matters worse I got on the scales today and im weighing in 4lbs more than thursday.
So feeling terrible Ive been to tesco and got myself a weeks supply of their version of slim fast. I had one this evening for dinner. I also have just got back in from a hour and a half walk with some light jogging. Plan to swim a few times and go out for a
walk in the evenings.
Ive got so much to lose, and I know I will be so happy and confident when the weight is gone. I just cant break my relationship with food. Im feeling really down about it all, I just wanted to let it out...